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i regret moving my kittens i really need to get this off my chest because i can not stop thinking about it so i am going to tell you what happened when i came back from my trip in mexico my cat gave birth so i was so excited to see her and her kittens so when i came back my cat nested them in an akward place so my dumb self decided to move the cats somewhere where someone could step on them so the a few days later i stepped on one of my kittens and saddest part is that she suffered there was blood all over the floor and i did not have the heart to finish her off so i just left her in the backyard and right now i hate myself and i feel even more guilty because the mother cat has been looking for her since i know this sounds cruel but i showed my cat the dead body and i do not think she understands that her kitten is dead | regret |
regret watching boku no pico friend recommended me to watch this thrilling action packed anime called boku no pico warning if you are younger than 18 dont watch it would n t recommend anyone watching this thinking about bleaching my fucking eyes | regret |
a classmatefriend of a friend died almost 2 years ago we had mutual friends and so hung out a few times we were in the same class from age 1116 i was going to follow her back but i just never got round and then ig i forgot at some point i was scrolling thru my insta today and found her account saying follow back and now even if i do she cant accept | regret |
I rejected a person whom I had always thought to be a friend. I ÃÂá
told him so and he reacted angrily. I felt guilty at not having ÃÂá
realized it before and at having hurt him. | guilt |
regretting emotional text i sent soooo one of my friends is going trough a hard time and she posted on her instagram stories a text where she tells she can not take it anymore and that she is lost hope in life we are not very close so i thought it would be akward to answer her but i was in emotional mood like always when i have got too little sleep so i wrote a fucking longass emotional message to her and like two minutes after she replies with thanks i am so embarassed we are definetly not close and i wrote like 100 word or more message and i am really emotional in it and it shows i feel like she hates me now cause i have never before replied her when she complains about her life in social media i feel im a little dramatic lol but i do not want people to think i am weird stupid or embarassing lol | regret |
In a defensive drivers course for 5 hours... it's super awkward when you blurt answers out wrong | regret |
A few days back a friend of mine had asked me to call on him on ÃÂá
Sunday. I had accepted it but later did not go for no specific ÃÂá
reason. I just slept in my room. The next day this friend called ÃÂá
me up and told me that he had been expecting me the day before and ÃÂá
his wife had prepared a very good lunch for me, which had gone ÃÂá
waste. I felt very bad about this incident and it has been ÃÂá
growing in my heart ever since. | guilt |
I texted the ex again... Trying to keep him from being hurt about us and what we were vs what's going on now. I should really just... Stop that but there's no way to not be guilty either side of this fence | guilt |
feeling guilty in lockdown hey guys i 26m have been struggling with feelings of guilt as of late during the loneliness of lockdown so i will give you a little back story on how it started i was always into fitness since i was 16 years old so i knew since the beginning that that industry was what i wanted to work in i went to university to get a degree in sport science and as i got into the 2nd year of my studies i realized that the modules were not to my interest in terms of training people so i decided to drop out and do a diploma in fitness instructing and personal training unfortunately once i started the diploma my mother was diagnosed with als and i was not in the right mind to study at the time and i decided to return to my hometown to be with my family back home i started studying physiotherapy while also working as a personal trainer at a local gym i loved my studies and my work i was top of the class and my clientele had slowly become enormous so as i was in the 3rd year of my studies and i had only my dissertation left to submit an opportunity arose i found the perfect opportunity to open my own gym at the time it felt like an incredible idea and i felt very enthusiastic so i did at start the gym was going incredibly and everyone was super pleased with the results and how the gym was working while working all these years and also studying around fitness on my own through my university s library i had become very good at my craft the only drawback is that with all the craziness of building my own gym the dissertation failed miserably as it was short and sloppy because of lack of time and devotion towards it at the time i did not care because the gym was going so well and i was very confident in my future now with the lockdown i find myself regretting my decisions and feeling very guilty about not finishing my studies while also feeling inadequate to train people even though that is not the case i do not understand why all these feelings decided to reach the surface and i m confused as to how to calm myself down tl dr regretting past choices while in lockdown how do i overcome feelings of guilt | regret |
3 kids under 3 and partner is pressuring me to have more i m 2 months postpartum with our third child and partner wants another one in 3 years he talks about it almost twice a week i m at the end of my rope i have a toleratehate relationship with my 3 year old twins and my new baby she has colic and screams 5 hours a day my partner travels frequently for work and is often gone on weekends and says i complain too much my parents live in another state i know i m slipping into a mighty depression and i cant help but regret this baby when i told my partner i did not want any more children he literally punched a hole in the wall of our apartment i m not naive in that i understand this behavior will most likely escalate but i have no support system outside of my partner this is just the short version of it but i m at my wits end and seemingly out of options thanks for listening to my rant | regret |
i got myself into a lot of trouble 10 years ago i tried to escape and worked hard on myself but now i always blame myself still and never still not being able to forgiving myself i feel terrible for all the shameful things i did i ghosted very good people people who are forgiving and kind hearted i still am trying to create some fake persona of someone who i can be proud of but i feel that nothing i do and can do now is worth it for what i did then the people i left know nothing about the things i did and i regret not making the time to talk to them and explain now ten years after i m presented with choices and i can not deny and ignore the problem much longer 1 shame be part of something great but face all the people in my past many of whom cared for me but i broke their hearts for not reaching out now i m a fraud 2 guilt it feels wrong to accept without asking for forgiveness and be accepted again 3 hopeless own up to what i did and face the consequences of my actions i m so scared that they will not hear me out because why would they i would not this then will probably end the professional path i have taken i do not know if i can the rebuild myself again 4 exhausted i m very tired trying | regret |
the specific pain i feel in my regret the regret is merely identical to most male adults my age perhaps around the 2030 ranges it begins with a woman we met either in or before high school and ever since our hearts ache for the pain of never being able to be with them you see i could make a lengthy post about how i regret not being able to do something simple and change current life path into something better but all it is simply our imagination coping with the consequences of not doing what you should have done that is the pain it is that no matter what i do or how many times i could put myself in my made up scenario that everything goes the way it wants i am limited to know that it is only there to cope with it observe how we imagine ourselves with our supposed soulmate and you realize everything would have been alright if you had done this or that i realize in human nature we are never able to be satisfied and regret is a way to quench that thirst and pains us until the day we die suppose i went back in time and tried to create the perfect world it does not matter no matter what we do we are condemned to feel dissatisfied with the result and revolt against it and frustrate ourselves which created regret there is a lot i could go into this rabbit hole of thought how my supposed regret is just build by my loneliness that love or the pain of not being with something is short of romantic and something far more sinister that can not be confronted for now i will endure these feelings and continue to struggle in this regret filled world i will build | regret |
i may have missed my chance with the girl i love and i instantly regretted it i have known her for a few years now from college and she is one of the only people with whom i keep in touch her kindness saved me from myself new years eve we were out together all night laughing and drinking though i was not drinking too much as the driver three times she kissed my cheek and i was too scared of losing one my best friends to try and be more i was too scared of not being enough for her i do not know if i will ever have that chance again | regret |
what is it like majoring mastering phd ing in psychology because i did not go into it i have had some regrets at this moment incoming rantventing i sometimes have regrets of not realizing sooner that psychology is actually a good major i had dismissed it straightaway because i thought you could n t get a job in that field afterwards i took the 2 intros at douglas college as a prerequisite to go into ubc pharmacy i was moneydriven for the whole pharmacy thing unfortunately it did not seem too bad i do not have a good academic record and i left in 2019 after i started in 2016 straight after high school because i felt burned out by taking a lot of courses was taking some upgrading courses alongside the collegelevel courses because i was not really great in high school went to the private college cdi for pharmacy tech it is my 2nd go at it this time i got further into the program but i did so bad on a couple of my tests that i have to score higher on the final or i can not continue on i feel frustrated angry with myself and feeling under pressure to finish something and not feel like a failure i find myself wanting to help others that are having personal troubles mentally or emotionally try to give them advice when i can i had thought about going further into psychology than i did in the intro s knowing i would have an even longer road than everyone else that has gone into psychology doing essays i would want to go back to douglas do it again but i feel like that is impossible now | regret |
i hate myself i just i destroyed everything due to my own stupidity incompetence and weakness i regret breaking up with my ex i fucking hate myself and everything i did to her i hurt her so much i never meant to though but i guess the damage has been done it was a miracle she stayed with me as much as she did after all the shit i put her through all the stupidity she had to deal with me and how much stress i put on her life i m a goddamn wretch she was a fucking angel in the flesh kind loving beautiful catered to my every need no matter how fucking ridiculous and all i did was shit over her and drive her away i broke up with her when she needed me most she needed me and i abandonded her i love her so fucking much more than anything on this planet and i allowed my stupidity incompetence and weakness to blind me and make me lose focus on what really mattered her and our future together i did not just kill our relationship i killed our fucking future together a nice small cottage with a greenhouse and a little garden 4 beautiful kids she wanted to be a stay at home wife and mom i would work and provide for us literally my dream and i fucked it all up i killed our family my wife and my 4 little angels michael barbara eleanor and marcus i m sorry i failed you and your mother i hate myself so fucking much what have i done i regret everything i have done i never should have broken up with her i never should have hurt her and i never should have given up on our dream a part of me wants to die and the other wants to be in pain because i deserve it to pay for my sins and my guilt and my mistakes i m a fucking idiot and a monster an idiot because i fucked everything up and a monster for hurting her for so long what have i done i love you so much my sweet girl i m so sorry for hurting you if i could go back i would make it right | regret |
i m dumb sorry so me and my crush started texting each other last week he informed me that he had a girlfriend but told me that he d like to be fwb s i disagreed but we continued to talk afterwards fast forward the next day in class he was flirting with me nonstop and instead of going with the flow i pushed him away he then got frustrated and left me alone for the hour felt extremely bad so i apologized to him later on that day he told me he was not interested in talking to me anymore and that i needed to prove my point we then facetimed for five seconds then we continued to talk to each other through messages he told me that i was so rude and how it was ok because i had a nice figure he then asked for a picture of me but i refused i then started making up any excuses i could think of but whenever i would he will tell me to try for him i did not want to end up on his bad side so i was dumb enough to send him a picture without thinking of the consequences he then asked for more and i ended up leaving him on read an hour later he texted me and asked me what was up and where were the videos did not bother to respond and continued with my night routine the next day in class he kept telling me that i was playing around with him and how he should be able to touch on me i did not respond and continued texting one of my friends i told one of my friends who re close to him about the situation and how i felt dumb because he had a girlfriend etc she then told him which he responded with i do not care at least your face is not in the picture dumbass also before anyone attacks me yes i knew what i did was wrong right then and there i should have blocked his number but knew that that ll cause drama and talk and to mention there is a lot of girls he talks to behind his girlfriend s back which she does not know now every since i have sent the picture he has been putting his hands on me nonstop basically making himself comfortable with me i feel so dumb and now there is no way i can take that back which i have to accept i have been telling him to stop for the longest now but that makes him so frustrated so i do not even bother anymore to him i m just a object like i really really regret sending him that picture now i the fear of my picture getting exposed or his girlfriend trying to jump me because of that one dumb decision sorry for this being long but just needed to let this out not trying to pull the victim card because i knew what i did was wrong so yeah | regret |
any hope for someone with regrets like me let me get to the point years ago back in my teens i always wanted a sistee my parents adopted an older sister for me and i was happy as can be one day however she left saying she did not care about us anymore and that she never loved any of us i grew depressed and locked mysekf in my room i lost my sister and all mgy friends i feared being alone and losing everyone in my life at 15 in a resort to be with friends with someone my own age i went on the internet to make friends and found some however this is where my toxic behavior began in fear of losing the new internet friend i love i would often resort to gaslighting threatenimg to hurt myself if alone and all i knew what i did was bad but i was so afraid to be alone they kept staying seeing as iypt was working i continued however ons day they snapped they knew what i was doing and wanted to cut ties with me they said i needed help and they couldnt go on i agreed with them cut contact and began looking for help while trying to better myelf as a person by the age of 18 i had made new friends my toxic behaviors completely dissapeared and i gradjated college before highschool i was like a brand new person and my new friends whom i still have plus more now that im in my 20s love me for who i am despite my flaws and past lately the thought of guilt has slightly came back for my past actions despite me having changed is there hope for me am i now a good person thats what i want to know | guilt |
i am sorry for all that i have done to us . | guilt |
5 years ago i stole someone s identity about 5 years ago i was living paycheck to paycheck and working at a car dealership in the days before identity theft was a big deal all of the credit records were in a database at the dealership i accessed the database and found a 10 year old record so it would not be traced back to the dealership it was a wellknown and wealthy individual in the community and i opened one credit account with a large online retailer and purchased roughly 2500 in merchandise to resell it was a shitty thing to do and i still feel like shit but the money kept me from getting evicted for 3 months and allowed me to survive until i got a better job i have never told this to anyone directly but i had checked his credit score about a year later and found that there was no damage done to his credit rating which i know is small consolation for doing such a shitty thing about 18 months ago i sent him 3000 in cashier s checks and a letter apologizing for what i did the statute of limitations is over on the crime so i no longer fear criminal reprisal but i now have relatively frequent interactions with this individual with my current job and it is really been eating me up about it and i had to tell someone because he really is a awesome person | regret |
regret no honestly i m not the person who usually live with many hearts that being said there is one thing i never got to tell him how i felt there were a few examples where i could have gone to come to different conventions that he attended but unfortunately i did not have the time or the expense you seem he was my hero he was my muse i live too be an example of what he wanted i just want to see people be happy i just want to see people filled with glee and not only that but be happy you see the one who showed me how to be the one who showed me how to live is only robin i miss you so much and i wish you understood and i wish you saw how much you meant i know it is not that easy when you have so many things going on inside your head i love you so much robin i want you to know that i will be the best i can you set an example and i will be the best i can you see while i know what it is to be so alone i will not let anyone else feel that pain i love you robin you are my hero you will always be it is the only one who truly understood my pain alone | regret |
I stole carrots and got caught. I had to apologize to the owner. | guilt |
letting go one regret i have is not letting regret go and allowing it to interfere with all areas of life regret is a waste of time and robs you of the here and now i use to think i was a bad person for all the mistakes in my past i am learning to forgive myself for the person i was and not feel consumed by regret and remorse easier said than done however its progress in a positive direction | regret |
13 year old brings me nothing but anger and resentment my 13 year old soon to be 14 son causes me so much anger he constantly ruins things through laziness incompetence and negligence i have tried my best to be understanding and teach him but i believe he is incapable of learning here are a few examples of things he is ruined left the barn door open and the animals got in and ate 300 worth of feed in one night this has happened multiple times left the water hose on overnight multiple times broke his saxophone and clarinet on separate occasions because he was frustrated and tried to blame it on his little brother left the upstairs bathroom toilet clogged for 2 days before anyone else noticed and did not say anything refuses to eat dinner because he does not like it then will sneak into the kitchen and devour all the toddler snacks unplugged the deep freezer in the garage to use the vacuum instead of using an open outlet and did not plug it back in when he was done we left on a trip that evening and did not discover the issue for 3 days leading to 600 lbs of beef chicken and venison to spoil there is more but those are the highlights the other problem is he shows absolutely no care at all that he does this he just proceeds on with business as usual despite anything i say or do when i look at him i do not feel love or happiness only anger resentment and regret that i have him in my life i know i m not supposed to feel that way and i do not feel that way about any of my other kids just him i do not even like being around him and i wish i could send him away to live with someone else i hate that i feel this way but i can not look at him without feeling my anger and resentment rise | regret |
oh great i'm pushing away my gf bit by bit cause i'm a clingy emotional wreck that needs other people to survive :^) why am i like this | guilt |
i sometimes wish i had never been born sometimes i feel like my acute sense of my own mortality is abnormal as a child i had dreams of my parents dying being at their funerals sometimes i would ponder deeply about how people might react upon finding out i had died i attempted suicide twice and was hospitalized for it i envy my pets so deeply because they have no real idea of their mortality i just feel overwhelmed with the thought that no matter what i accomplish in my life or even if i do not i will die and in a few years no one will know i had even been here it makes me wish bitterly i had never been born at least not as a human being but as some creature who had no idea that everything it did is worthless as it would surely die eventually anyway sometimes i sit and just think about how much i wish that i would never have had to become aware of the ultimate fate i face it makes me feel as though nothing i do will be meaningful and sometimes it makes me feel like i should just stop trying to do anything at all just exist until it is over | regret |
4 years ago i ate a live earthworm it may seem silly but every once in a while i will remember and get like really bad anxiety that i have all kinds of parasitic worms living in my body i do not regret much in my life but i really wish i had n t eaten that stupid worm | regret |
i m sorry source i have been getting worse within my self stuck in old routines and patterns sorry | regret |
fuck i totally catched the mouse that was running around my dorm room for a while and i immediately went outside and flung it over the fence on top of some other house and i did n t film it | regret |
I had a party yesterday. I drunk a little too much and my mother found out I puked. I'm feeling so bad.... | regret |
When I have to take exams I am very excited and have not much ÃÂá
time for the housekeeping. Then my friend has to do everything. | guilt |
rugby i play rugby for my school and it is every monday every time i chicken out and go home then feel disappointed in myself and that i have let my friends and parents down then i tell myself i will go next week no matter what just to chicken out again how do i stop myself | regret |
I felt guilty when I once went out with another boy and made love ÃÂá
with him while I had a close boyfriend. | guilt |
i am ashamed of myself unable to grow out of childishness . | guilt |
It was on January 1st 1985 when I accidentally broke a Fanta ÃÂá
bottle in a certain bottle store in Zomba. | guilt |
Guilt at having pressed another person to expose/explore his ÃÂá
personal weaknesses/faults, to the extent that the other person ÃÂá
was made to feel terrible/defensive. | guilt |
everybody lied after i had my first things were relatively hard but everyone kept saying it gets easier i should have known they were lying because they all had a different age they said it gets easier at 1 it gets easier at 3 really i spent 45 minutes trying to coax a piss out of a 3 year old this morning and ended up with the potty thrown at my head then he looked at me and started trying to rip the plumbing out of the wall i m not stupid i understand how to do positive reinforcement i get it i successfully trained three dogs prior to this shitshow and guess what everyone also lied about that if you can train a dog then you can parent a kid no you fucking can not if you end up with a willful child dogs do not climb on top of your refrigerator and open your top cabinets dogs do not tantrum when they do not get the blue truck they do not punch you sometimes you can try everything in a calm tone and do star charting and have your little songs and they do not care do not care i have tried offering tv do not care go on a walk do not care if you potty i will read to you no he wants to piss everywhere and break things he admitted it and no spanking does not work either but i m sure many of us also knew that sometimes i wonder if spanking would have worked if i would done it in the beginning instead of as a last resort but i kind of doubt that too fuck this shit if i could press a button and give these kids to someone else and wipe out our memories so that nobody remembered each other and thus would not grieve i would pay for the chance to press that button and my asshole parents also concealed their mental health issues from me my whole life and made these symptoms seem normal now i know they run in my genes and i definitely would not have had kids if i would known that i went from childfree to a fence sitter to this because i let everyone convince me you d be such a good mom and it is people like you who need to have kids instead of the dummies i let it sink in and get to me i wish i would just done new hobbies instead now i do not have time and everyone thinks i m either a lazy gold digging pos or have it easy since i had to leave my job i write this while being climbed on and having a food smeared on me because for once i m just allowing myself to actually be defeated the us is so fucked i hope the birth rate continues to plummet i will gladly rot in an alleyway when i m 90 if it means the next generation is spared | regret |
i am suicidal over a mistake i made 18 years ago ok i have never told this to anyone and i can not bear to even go into detail about my mistake but it was sports related basketball i cost our team the state championship game by making the dumbest play of my life and i am now 37 years old and it tears me apart so bad i want to die i am still close with my coach and i think about the happiness he would have had along with my parents teammates fans etc basketball is a huge part of my life even still and i want to be able to post memories on fb about our state championship but i can not even post any of the videos from that year and it should be the greatest memories of my life i have all the games on tape and i can not even watch the good ones i literally want to die it hurts so bad any advice would be appreciated i know everyone will say what s done is done but i just can not let go i can not go into detail about what i did but it was a really stupid play that cost us the game we lost by 1 point i replay it over and over in my head and sometimes i start crying and shaking thanks for reading | regret |
i regret not flying back home when the first lockdown eased i live in one country my family is in another by the time the first lockdown eased i tried to get tickets but they were too expensive my home town is very touristic tickets in the summer go crazy and the lockdown effect had multiply prices by ten i thought i would be able to see them for christmas i thought it would not be a big deal not to be able to go for the summer i thought it would be ok my sister passed away in november very brutally i do not remember the last time i saw i missed my chance for a last hug before she died | regret |
I was supposed to have done some things for my mother, but just ÃÂá
plain didn't get around to it. | regret |
thanks for serving our country sorry i banged all your wives this one s been bugging me for a while there was a time when i partied a lot and hit the bars all the time i was making good money had a nice car and was generally full of myself i m a decent looking dude and i have always had the ability to convince women to sleep with me i do not pressure them i just know how to play the game so to speak anyway on 5 separate occasions i have convinced a woman to go home with me or go home with her knowing full well that she had a husband serving in iraq or afghanistan i have never talked to any of these women after we slept together i guess i just liked the challenge i m not bragging about it i m ashamed i would do that to someone serving in the military was raised in it and it feels good to get it out there | guilt |
moving on hi all i hope you re doing well so by not going into too much detail i self sabotaged let me fear take over my dream job how do you all recommend moving on and getting some comfort by this misstep it is been consuming me thank you | regret |
i bought a 500ml fiji water bottle for 55 accidentally and i regret it so much this was in mexican dollars and i thought the price was a couple bucks which is already pretty expensive for water and then they sell it as if it is water from heaven or whatever it is just frikin water i wish i had spent that money on anything else that was not a scam like this | regret |
While playing a ball game, I made a mistake and we lost the game. | guilt |
i regret my grandmothers murder so to start this sad tale i was getting ready to visit my grandmother for a month we were always thick as thieves we did everything together traveled the us harvested crops hung out and painted together anyway march of last year i was supposed to come visit for a month but i like an idiot procrastinated week after week a man she knew since his birth came over for lunch he slit her throat at 83 years old and left her to die in her kitchen i was supposed to be there i carry a loaded 9mm pistol at all times and when we were together i was always there in the kitchen guarding her everywhere she went in was always there watching protecting she was my favorite person i have been avoiding thinking or coming to terms with this foe a year i dont think i can shove the guilt and pain down anymore because without question if i hadnt procrastinated she would still be alive | regret |
i want to believe but i can not i would not consider myself a religious person but i sometimes find myself wishing i was a part of me truly wants to believe in a diety but i feel it is for the wrong reasons as a strong follower of science i find it most likely that we only have this one shot in life game over and no signal after life but i look at religion almost jealously i want to believe because it would promise a life after this life personally though i find that to be incredibly selfish of a reason to subscribe to a belief system tl dr agnostic theist wants to truly believe in theism because it would sate his mortality worries | regret |
my friend had been suffering from an extended mental breakdown then killed his mother and i m so heartbroken this man had what seemed to be the perfect life prior to his breakdown became a lawyer decent love life bought a house in an upscale neighborhood got a dog lots of friends everything seemed good until recently i would say maybe for about 2 3 weeks he d been posting very odd and peculiar facebook videos and statuses which wasnt like his norm he was extremely private about what it is he says and posts on social media 2 nights ago i m on my couch scrolling through facebook and i would seen he posted a video about 2 minutes prior to me actually seeing the video and he is rambling like hes talking and it doesnt make sense stopped taking my meds have n t slept for 3 days kinda stuff i could see in his eyes he tired and was hurting or stressed but nothing he was saying at all made any sense whatsoever i had the thought of messaging him to see if he needed an ear to vent to or something but then sided against it i figured whatever it is he will pull through it i wish i reached out to him now more than ever yesterday i m working from home on a customer call being yelled at by a customer and scrolling through my instagram feed when i see the local news posted a photo of my friend s mom her body was discovered in the early morning in rhe front yard and my friend was in his car naked and yelling he had ran her over he had a mental meltdown and snapped i dont know what happend that lead to that i immediately broke down miicall and havent been the same yet i can not help to think that if i would been that listening ear would things for my friend and his mom ended like they did could l have cprevented something so fucking tragic im numb as hell right now | regret |
i lost i was doing no porn and no nut july but then i thought to watch some porn and discovered a sub rnsfwmemes i scrolled down then i saw porn and after that i already lost no porn july so it does not matter to watch more porn but little did i know i got so addicted to porn through these 4 days that today i was watching porn and i came i lost no nut july the stream was lost at 12 days i feel so bad that i can not control my addiction i lost no nut november so i tried doing it again this year maybe in may or june i lost and now this its my fault now i will try not to watch porn till the end of this year | regret |
I felt guilty when I had taken the car keys and I had an accident ÃÂá
but as my parents did not know who was to blame, they punished my ÃÂá
brother because I had no driving licence and they thought it ÃÂá
impossible that had driven the car. | guilt |
Being aggressive against members of my family. | guilt |
always end up being attracted to the wrong people :( why do i fall for my friends | regret |
military regret retirement is around the corner i have been in the navy for almost 18 years my biggest regret is that i have never been in combat it is not the missed birthdays anniversaries births holidays etc my life has never never been in danger i do not feel like i have done enough that is what i regret i know it is more than most americans i m not infantry spec ops aircrew etc i m support i know it is important but whatever i do not want a woe is me circle jerk i think there are a bunch of folks like me support guys and gals those mother fuckers might need some help | regret |
i am a virgin but all my friends think otherwise i need your help reddit hi reddit i barely found this subr today and after reading a few posts i got inspired to confessing one of the things i am most ashamed of in my life no it is not that i am a virgin but that i have lied to everyone about it i am 20 years old and i am a junior in college i am terrible with girls i have no problem speaking to them in the context of class friendship or any social interaction that does not involve sex once i start liking a girl however i never know what to do my biggest problem and this i just realized recently is that i am terrified of asking girls out i have always found justifications not to do it i usually tell myself it is not the right time she just ended a relationship she likes someone else i dont want to betray her trust etc what is worst is that the longer i wait the more scared i am one of the reasons i dont feel comfortable hooking up with girls i know is that i have no experience and i am scared of fucking up this in turn makes me wait even longer which makes me even moe lame cuz now im older and still have no experiece by now i am sure most of my close friends know i have been lying and that i am actually a virgin i told them i had sex in high school but no one has confronted me about it this post turned a bit into a rant but i need ur advice reddit does anyone have experience overcoming this fear of asking girls out what is the best waytime to ask someone out to girls would girls really think bad of me because of my lack of experience edit i work at the food court in my university and there is this girl working in another restaurant she is really cute i always see her taking things back and forth from the main kitchen as she passes in front of my restaurant she has definately noticed me and knows i work there is it appropriate for me to go ask her if she wants to go out for a coffee after her shift is over should i wait to talk to her after work | regret |
God I make everyone around me feel terrible... why do I deserve to live if all I do is make everyone hate themselves.. they'd be better off without me. Everyone would be. My family. My friends. Everyone. I'm just a burden | guilt |
i have sex with guys because it makes me feel wanted and in control i use sex to make myself feel better it makes me feel in control to have a guy wanting me that way i think it is linked to my anxiety issues but i do not know for sure i have slept with more guys than any of my friends i have had sex with guys i did not find even remotely attractive by the time i start making out with a guy i feel like i have committed myself to having sex with him anyway i tell people i m just prosex and do not subscribe to society s norms in this respect but the truth is i wish i could say no more often i do not know how it is like i go on autopilot this has led to problems with the guy i think i am falling in love with because i dated his friend first who i cheated on multiple times though no one knows and slept with another of his friends once before dating him and now he feels like a joke i wish i could take it all back i m so sorry i wish i knew how to stop this | regret |
Going out with another girl besides my girlfriend and not telling ÃÂá
her. | guilt |
I had promised to do a task for someone that was close to me, and ÃÂá
from the outset I knew it was important that I do it, but when it ÃÂá
came to it, I let them down. | guilt |
I just lost so many money, 100 to be exactly. Sometimes I'm so useless ðÃÂÃÂÃÂðÃÂÃÂà| guilt |
But he is so nice and sweet and kind | guilt |
i feel that i will not improve and cannot keep on causing you and the children so much misery . | guilt |
today i did a good deed and instantly regretted it i was at the supermarket in the middle of a grocery shop with my daughter when a man approached me asking if i could buy him body wash i told him that i was paying for my shop with my card and that i could pay for it with my shop once i was done he replied by saying you could just do it now i felt very intimidated at this point and stupidly did what he wanted and paid for it at the self checkouts it was 12 and thought wow i do not even buy something full price like this for myself only when it is on special but i paid for it anyway as soon as i paid for it he proceeded to ask do you have any change probably noticing my 10 note as i was putting my card back into my wallet i said no sorry i need it and said this is yours as i handed over the body wash he walked off not even a thank you i instantly regretted it so greedy and ungrateful i feel so stupid and can not stop thinking about it i should have just said no in the beginning | regret |
... then theres my girlfriend, not talking to me... barely caring whats going on with me, or listening to me, and not telling me what's going on, whats wrong with her... she wasnt like that, what happened to her? | guilt |
When I was fined for speeding. | guilt |
i live with so many regrets and i am only 20 years old i am 20 years old i have more regrets than anyone should i m an international business major i regret not majoring in art or film i wanted to be a screen writer i wanted to be a writer i wanted to be an artist i wanted to show the world my creativity my father brought me up telling me no one ever respects creativity no one respects artists he taught me i would get no where being an artist i can not help to shake the feeling that i could have been so much better as a person and i would be remembered forever i have this potential i feel boiling all throughout me i feel walked upon i feel like everyone knows i m not cut out for what i am going for it kills me i know i could have done something great i am one semester away from getting an associates degree in business administration my father is telling me he will pay for a degree in business i doubt i could convince him to let me do otherwise i feel like my whole life i will be living this regret i want some kind of resolution please dont answer with it is not too late say it is not too late because i really need some help because i feel lost as ever | regret |
i regret giving up guitar lessons as a child music has always been one of the main sources of pleasure for me but when i was ten i did not have the drive or vision to keep up guitar lessons and it fell by the wayside like many childrens hobbies do then recently i found out that he went on to give lessons to a kid my age who would become arguably the most staggeringly popular musician of the 2010s i do not hold any delusion that it could have been me selling out stadiums the world over and living a life that will be picked over by academics long after i m dead different influences different musical tastes somewhat different upbringing but i regret not seeing what colour and weird stories it could have led to had i kept up the aul music as my granddad would have said | regret |
i regret fucking up my college life i did not enjoy my college life i did not live fully i had a rare opportunity and i did not appreciate it i was an introvert and mostly did not interact with my college mates i got into other stuff i was also not competitive and didnt plan my career properly so accepted a job with a lower starting salary and my career progression was slow i feel like i made irreversible decisions i was never smart and practical very bookish still am life s not bad or anything but could be better i feel regret that i did not learn and mature like others i feel like i remained a kid i m not hopeless or depressed but i did fuck up imagine someone went to harvard but then ended up with a job way below their capacity because they did not even know how to prepare for interviews and so on i went through something similar such a blow to my self esteem i sometimes try to reassure myself that other more successful classmates may have problems i do not know about but i do not know that for sure and overall i think they re living more respectable and prosperous lives i think if i were to meet one of them they would get instant happiness at how badly i m doing i still have hope i mostly never lose it but still i could have been something else | regret |
One day when I was working, I went out for dinner with friends ÃÂá
without my parents knowledge and I only came home at 2300 hours. | guilt |
Not being able to spend more time with a friend who was visiting ÃÂá
me. | guilt |
IâÃÂÃÂm not even going to my own boyfriendâÃÂÃÂs 18th birthday...
IâÃÂÃÂm awful...
But I have a good reason... | guilt |
i have felt bad since elementary school i know it is a stupid thing and i should not hold onto it but i feel bad to this day when i was in school there was a boy named carl in my class carl was the resident outcast throughout all of elemetary school chubby nerdy poor and crapped his pants in class once very unpopular guy i was not much higher up on the social ladder i was the biggest girl in class very akward etc i was usually kind to carl but one day in waiting to come inside after reccess he was standing in back of me the very popular girls in front he tried to talk to me i do not recall as to what but those popular girls were looking at me and i could feel my social standing dropping so i literally turned my back on him i can remember the look on his face so fucking sad i haunts me to this day that i did that to someone someone who probably considered me a friend i like to think that it had no impact but i vividly remember mean things that kids did to me in school i have thougth of contacting him at some point i moved away after 5th grade but i think that would be a little insane i will be 27 in a few weeks and my heart still aches whenever i think of that sad chubby little face | regret |
my kid is gifted kind of a clickbaity title is not it but regret sometimes it does not matter what kind of child you have my son is literally gifted and is on track to attend juilliard i see him sometimes playing his instrument and i notice the envious glances from other parents but they do not know my son is gifted he is also a gigantic fucking asshole what they see is the tiniest little sliver of a moment and have no idea that the rest of the time is absolutely exhausting he has behavior problems is constantly argumentative and lives to push every fucking one of my buttons every single goddamn day it is honestly a battle not to hit him the way i would have been and my reward for restraint and respecting his person is constantly eating shit he has no friends acts half his age and is a gigantic brat no matter what we do i have had to give up my life to revolve around his and i expected to be done by now honestly most mothers can get back to work when their kid starts school i cant all of my fucking time is taken up by his never ending ridiculous needs the time he is in school is the only time i can get anything meaningful done the entire parental load is dumped on me as well as every speck of housework and society thinks i need to bring in an income too because i m not doing enough it is all shit all of it when he is on stage and captivates everyone if just for a moment i would trade all of it to go back and remain childless i see parents whisper to each other that they wish their kid could be more like mine and it makes me want to cry because they do not realize how difficult having a gifted kid is honestly i would have preferred a normal child i put on a brave face though and gush about how proud i am but i m dying inside lots of us regret even the ones you would never think do but i regret all of it it is funny how when i was younger the idea of a hardworking husband that could afford for me to be a stay at home mother to a gifted kid that was like a dream scenario but that is exactly what i got and it is a prison | regret |
After confronting the person who stood me up, I blew up and said ÃÂá
all the wrong things. | guilt |
When I did not concentrate on my studies despite my mother's help ÃÂá
and cooperation. | guilt |
During 7th grade our class mobbed a famale teacher so badly that ÃÂá
she had a breackdown and was hospitalized. | guilt |
I saved up money for a good purpose. As I also have to organise a ÃÂá
party I am afraid there will rest only a little money for the ÃÂá
good purpose I feel guilty about this. | guilt |
not apologizing i was really close to this one guy we were fucking close asf and had dumb jokes and dumb contests and his parents were cool as fuck one day his dad comes in to talk about his job and when that lecture ends he says my name i joke how do you know my name stalker days after that i tell my friend to tell his parents that they were stalkers jokingly one day he tells me you know my parents are getting really angry i realize that it was no longer funny me and him slowly stop talking to each other stupid cliques are fucking stupid i never got the chance to apologize to his parents there was a day where i went out for a jog and i coincidentally see them in front of me they turn around and move to the side and i immediately think now s my chance to apologize for that shitty joke i made yeaaarrrss ago just go hey i know this was like 4 years ago but i am reallly really truly sorry for making that dumb joke i thought i was being funny when i really was not and it is 4 years but i would like to apologize better late than never right just do that and we will see how it goes i was getting confident but it just ran away i ran away both literally and figuratively i was such an asshole back then and i regret not knowing how to speak up when i want to and i hate myself because of that and writing this right now because i thought it d help me makes me realize that it does not help and that it just makes me hate myself even more | regret |
why did i decide to get a haircut i just wanted to feel better about my hair because it was really long and gross i felt like i was losing a lot of hair since i had a baby and it was hard to brush but it was still nice compared to what i just ended up with i wanted bangs because my hair was thinning at the front and i thought it would look better i went somewhere that specializes in bangs however they also do a lot of shags and other types of cuts i did not want a shag bit of course that is what happenedi should have known i know this is not the worst thing in the world i liked it at first because i felt a weight lifted from me i think sometimes when your getting a haircut you can be swept up in the moment of adrenaline when doing something new that you do not notice the big cluster of a mess that is happening but now i can not stop noticing all the small pieces she cut that i can not even put back into a ponytail my husband has been so sweet and positive we laughed because he said i reminded him of a character that should be in the wedding singer or something i then said i felt like i looked like lord farquad we both laughed and it helped but mani regret getting a haircut so bad | regret |
i work about 110th as hard as everyone else the crazy thing is that i still get more done than anyone else and i get lauded with praise from my bosses i usually end up with loads of time on my hands because of this i feel a lot of guilt about it that i m not making better use of the extra time that i m not using it to be better at my job or to better the company on one hand i feel that i do not want my career to define who i am it provides a very nice living for my wife and i but i do not want someone saying at my funeral he was a good database architect it was not so bad at my previous job when i was able to work from home 95 of the time i could get all of my tasks for the dayweek done and then do something that was meaningful to me my last company went out of business and i m at a new job where they do not allow working from home so now i spend all day trying to make it look like i m busy and that makes me feel really shitty | regret |
regretting not speaking to dad enough my dad loved talking i always interacted well with him paid enough attention to him appreciated special moments together with him and always cheered him up when he needed it until i got my first mobile phone ironically gifted by himself after i aced high school and subsequently my first laptop then came the worst phase of my life getting lost in gadgets i paid attention to dad sure i spoke to him i guess i answered his questions with a vague hmm yeah or a err maybe and got back to whatever the fuck it was that got me glued to these devices he was vocal about his disappointment with this he was unhappy about it until that point he had me to share all that he wanted to with me as he was assured of my full attention he had no one else but later he started feeling that he was losing me too there were moments when he really wanted to speak and i yelled at him for many reasons and he would go back to being the disappointed father who never got the attention he needed last year i lost this gem of a person to covid nothing makes me feel worse than knowing that he is not there anymore for me to share all the good things that have happened to me or some terrible times in my life where i could ve felt a million times better hearing his voice i lost a fantastic friend this is the biggest regret of my life i was not there for my father when he needed me when he ensured that he was always there for me always there i said it wherever you are dad i am extremely sorry i am a disgusting piece of shit | regret |
fuck autism i m tired of people trying to make me feel bad because i did not want to deal with this nightmare of a diagnosis i straight up admit i absolutely did not fucking want a special needs child which is why i aborted my first pregnancy there was a chromosomal abnormality so i noped out real quick got just about every damn test you could with the second pregnancy and everything was fine but no autism all i ever fucking wanted was a normal family is that so much to ask my life growing up was walking on eggshells because of my mentally ill father and intellectually disabled sister then i was free only to get dragged back into hell i m tired of all the extravagant accommodations and never ending extra shit that goes into autism we are supposed to bend over backwards to children who only care about their immediate needs and themselves no matter what the fuck else everyone else needs are and then get blamed for churning out entitled assholes i m tired of this broken fucking kid and never ending heavy burden while i would never hurt him i can absolutely see how this breaks some parents and these nightmare kids end up getting thrown off a bridge pre natal diagnostics needs to get on the fucking ball | regret |
Honestly, I'm the type to be there for people and make sure they are okay but not expect that respect back. I'll let you break my heart as long as it makes you feel better. I continue to smile, like nothing is wrong. But, truth is, I've never been more dead in my life | regret |
Not being able to help my friend to do homework. | guilt |
I went to my boyfrien's house. There I found clothes of a certain ÃÂá
girl. Without asking whose clothes they were I started tearing ÃÂá
them only to realise that they were his sister's and so I felt ÃÂá
guilty. | guilt |
When I was in the fifth class the rating was done in our ÃÂá
mark-books. I hadn't been examined yet but I had heard from my ÃÂá
classmates about the scolding they had got at home. My first ÃÂá
mark was in geography - good 4. I judged I had known for more ÃÂá
than that and I put down "very good" for fear of being scolded. ÃÂá
Naturally my parents guessed all about it. They rebuked me for ÃÂá
what I had done. | guilt |
you all should ki l your self fck you all i hate being raised by parents like you i hope you all burn in hell in the most painfull way passible you all have zero worth cant take care of your kids you all are just incompetent retards go kill your self all of you | regret |
I stole a coconut cake from a reception table and when I put ÃÂá
in my mouth I realized that the host was watching me. | guilt |
[ I can positively say that I have never done anything that made ÃÂá
me feel guilty.] | guilt |
i regret letting failure control me and switching out of my degree that would have led me to my dream career i failed a math course in uni tbh i was not doing too well in any mathscience courses at the time and i got depressed and switched out of the meteorology program thing is it was my dream career since a child i wanted to study the weather always fascinated by it i could i have tried harder could ve worked harder instead i gave up because i was too ashamed and believed that if i were good at math this career would be for me i just was not putting in the work i could ve passed that course now i m lost did a useless degree i enjoyed it but it turned out useless i hate feeling like i want to turn back time everyday | regret |
That moment when you forget to disconnect your Bluetooth speaker and you open NSFW staff.. | guilt |
When you realize you're being a petty bitch ðÃÂÃÂà| regret |
i regret rejecting a guy 16 years ago i was 18 or 19 and had zero experience with men no guy had ever liked me before he was nice and respectful and i blew him off i can not even explain why i just could n t handle it instead over a year later i started down a dark depressing path of men who used or rejected me and did not meet another decent guy until my husband over a decade later i feel bad that i may have caused him pain and i wonder what my life would have been like if i had dated him i really messed up back then | regret |
Just really don't feel like replying any of my messages in this period of time somehow. Idk why. | guilt |
Tried to make myself sick after having ice cream but my body didn't let me :/ | guilt |
i saw my saw my parents have sex several times not exactly intentionally i am a 15 year old girl since i was very young my parents and i only child went on vacationsroad trips every summer when we do we all shared a hotel room with two beds i noticed it the first time when i was 10 i woke up in the middle of the night and saw them doing something i went back to sleep but when i was 11 i was so curious i kept awake and watched for a long time again twice when i was 12 after that i kept my eyes closed and ignored the faint noises but thinking back about it makes me very guilty because 1 at least at one point in time i did watch intentionally 2 whether i watch intentionally or unintentionally i am violating their privacy | guilt |
i regret quitting my job it was a five minute drive ten minute walk from where i live which was perfect since i do not have a car i got a pay raise was on good terms with my boss it was a retail job but pretty flexible with scheduling and i could take time off for up to several months which i did last year to go to europe i really only quit because of my social anxiety and i wish i was a stronger person i met an ex there we were coworkers and he ghosted me and it left me a complete mess for months if i go back i would just be reminded of him or might even run into him or his family since they frequented that place there were changes in management that i did not like and i felt disrespected but honestly i brought it on myself since i was not very assertive and socially awkward i should not have let it get to me i also embarrassed myself so many times heard people talking about me and calling me stupid i had no other social outlet because of covid and just because i had social anxiety i have a new job now and it is something i could have only dreamed of before in a bookstore but it is a pain in the ass to get there since i do not drive it is not far but it is not walking distance either and i think i made a bad first impression with a supervisor today i have my old boss s number i have no idea if he is still there though since a lot of supervisors left that place i know i left for good reasons all of my coworkers hated it there but i was able to tolerate it for two years and it is not like i had to be there full time since i live with my family did i make the right choice or am i a coward for not being able to face difficult or uncomfortable situations | regret |
I felt guilty when I was robbed of a friend's radio at Lilongwe ÃÂá
bus depot after promising that I would keep it safe. | guilt |
I'm going to tank and so many people are going to try to pull me up I shouldn't have let this many people become attached to me or dependent on me if I had done something sooner this wouldn't have happened these people wouldn't have been influenced by me almost everyone would be over it by now I could have done something but I just keep going and the world gets a little worse each day because of it | regret |
i regret from age 10 to now i want to let it go but it is so hard i got introduced to sex at age 10 i got asked do you know what sex is and i said ya even though i had no clue so when i got home i searched it up on youtube and goggle that is the biggest mistake of my life last year i found out some girls were trying masterbation and i wanted to try it so i did i remember looking at pictures and me typing this right now is making me sick now i m having sexual dreams more like nightmears that are 100x worse with the medication i m on and every moment of everyday i remember everything i regret or i m disgusted with myself about that i did and i think its because how i found out about sex and that has ruined my life i want to let it go but it is so so hard | regret |
having my crush like me back and losing him because of my stupidity i will not go into even the most basic details and write even just a quarter of the story because i just know i would get judged and mocked for it to filth but yeah the title is pretty self explanatory he confessed his feelings after 8 months of knowing me and me obsessing over him but my dumbass just froze and said the most stupid random shit ever and we have seen each other a few times after that but it is been really awkward i have been regretting it literally since the first few mins after i realized what i have done but i have been coping with the regret pretty well by indulging in my delusions and many distractions i officially lost him on october 28th last year when he blocked me and shit is just been getting worse since then i do not have any distractions now and the regret is killing me more than ever i would get waves of regret every few weeks but now it is constant and driving me insane he was literally but literally the most perfect person for me our whole story as well the fact that meeting him saved me i know this sounds cliche but i have really good reasons to believe this i m looking at everything objectively and not through rose colored glasses so please do not tell me i will find someone else i already did and he was such a sweetheart but it did not work out and get my mind off of my obsession knowing i m the one at fault tho if he was toxic or simply was not so similar to me if he was at fault i would get over it in a heartbeat and sleep in peace but how do i deal with this it is easy cutting out someone toxic and healing but what if you re the one at fault what if you re the one who keeps fucking up i can not just remove myself from my life yk i have to live with all these regrets and repeated mistakes i have told our story only to my old best friend but i m sure she forgot and did not even understand it properly i just wish there was a way for me to get him back i remember not wanting that because of how much i embarrassed myself in front of him already by my non existent actions and coldness but now idgaf i just want him back in my life and i m willing to do anything to make it happen knowing it is not possible is slowly eating me up alive | regret |
i really fuckt myself over last year didnâÃÂÃÂt i | guilt |
to asa family sorry for disappointing all of you . | guilt |