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when i think of my hardworking mother laboring without rest i cannot die despite myself . | guilt |
i regret letting it get this bad i have let myself get burntout from work and had given up i was prepared to end it i have been struggling with eating for the past 8 years and was starting to give up eating altogether and had become a shell of myself i would hurt and pushed away my boyfriend by refusing his help someone who had been supportive and there for me and who now can not even bring himself to talk to me anymore after that happened i did not eat or sleep for 4 days i have started eating again but i feel completely out of it my body is fighting it and i have considered hospitalization losing a family member to suicide and ruining my relationship with my boyfriend last week are the only things that helped me snap out of it and stop thinking of ending things i have appointments set up but i do not know if i can bold out for another week i feel terrible and dont know what s best to do i know things are not going to be easy but i want to get better and if i could take it all back i would in a heartbeat | regret |
My brother wanted money but I refused to give it to him, two days ÃÂá
later he stole it from my father. | regret |
not buying a super great deal so this regret may seem trivial but i have noticed it continuing to resurface over the past 6 months or so i do a lot of sewing and back in february i became aware of a super high quality brand of sewing machine called sailrite that is capable to sew through super heavy leathers all kinds of heavyweight materials i sellbuy a lot of things on mercari so i added sailrite sewing machine to my list of watched items this was also around the time the plandemic was happening and so i was getting large chunks of cash like i never really have before it was one of those moments where i get a notification about the machine i see it and then i start hemmin hawin unsure if i wan na make that big a purchase they usually cost around 800 but this one was going for 500 it was an absolute steal but i hesitated thinking that the price might come down morei needed more time to think on it and then when i went back to check a mere 30 minutes later it was gone it sounds so silly but i keep regretting not pouncing on the deal i m at a space where i m really trying to take my art more seriously and i know that having that tool which i can not foresee having the extra dough to fork out for a good while feels like it could havewould have really elevated my craft it does not help that i ended up getting scammed out of 3000 just months later so i keep feeling like agh the money i was trying to save by not buying the machine ended up leaving me anyways but i am quite spiritual and i understand that if this were to be an integrated part of my practice at this time then it would be blessins friends | regret |
i regret being to nice to people and being a people pleaser i have noticed that i am way to nice to people i say sorry when i do not need to i explain myself to other people when i do not need to i allow people to disrespect me people walk all over me and make nasty horrible comments to me i do not stand up for myself all the time like i should also i m a people pleaser i worry about being liked by others i feel like i do not truly express who i am around other people and sometimes go along with them even if i do not agree i know i am way to nice to people and i allow so much disrespect to happen to me i feel like i need to become more mean | regret |
My younger sister was almost run over by a lorry. | guilt |
One night, I went out with some friends for dinner and I did not ÃÂá
tell my parents that I would come back late. I thought of ÃÂá
phoning but in the end I did not. When I arrived home, my ÃÂá
parents were very worried. | guilt |
sorry about this . | guilt |
I had been guilty of gossiping and blaming others, and one of my ÃÂá
superiors at the workplace made a formal reprimand. | guilt |
[ Can not think of anything just now.] | guilt |
i think i m in love with the weird guy but i refuse to date him because i m afraid of what my family and friends will think i know i m a bitch for this so there is no use in saying it again thanks | guilt |
regret not taking a job background a few years ago i got laid off from my job in the us chemical engineering and moved with my gf to asia i ended up in finance for about 2 years after that i somehow ended up as a teacher long story short my high school a somewhat well known college prep school in the south found out i was teaching and offered me a job i had the chance to go back to the states and teach chemistry at my high school at the time i did not take it because a if i was going to my old school i wanted to get more experience first b i actually would have lost money getting set up and c i have gotten used to a somewhat easier life in asia in retrospect i should have moved back i m not doing too well at my current placement from a combination of admin being super suspicious of me to begin with having challenging students mainly ell and some learning disabilitiesadhd and not being able to work within fairly rigid constraints of a bigger more bureaucratic school teachers have no ability to set their own schedule and can not move tests quizzes my alma mater had fairly rigorous academic standards established rules and small class sizes teaching there is pretty easy as long as you know your stuff and keep your ducks in a row but i threw away a good opportunity to work at a wellestablished school and go home and be closer to my parents and my siblings all because of my stupid greed for a few thousand dollars | regret |
Lack of respect for my parents. | guilt |
starting to regret having a child i have always wanted kids for as long as i can remember my daughter will be 8 months old on the 6th and honestly i have thought about leaving more than i ever thought i would it is not that i do not love her because i do it is just that this whole parenting thing is a lot harder than i ever thought it would be she is probably the biggest asshole i have ever known i have recently become a sahm and while i thought it would be the best thing ever i have come to realize that i hate it more than anything in the world my fiancé thinks that now i m a sahm he does not have to do change diapersfeed herput her to bedanything that comes with being a parent i am at my wits end here she is always crying she never sleeps and i honestly never want to have another child as long as long as i live like it is so bad that i m seriously considering moving back home and leaving my daughter here with her father i m over it and he either does not see it or he does not care either way i m done | regret |
Telling my parents that I did not get into a good university. | guilt |
she needs therapy like now i make the occasional mistake admittedly usually after a few glasses of wine when my filter is off of telling people not to have kids i m sure i m not changing minds but no one ever had the real talk with me before having kids the closest thing was oh the first three months are rough that is the extent of the warning i received this past weekend after a wedding i made the same mistake to my sil s husband s sister who loves being a mom of 2 babysitter i was having a rough nightweekend and did my embarrassing schpeel of do not have kids they are the worst i totally regret it yeahi knowbad judgment on my part of course now word has gotten out and sil says to my husband she needs therapy likenow very concerning a it sucks that i can not talk openly to others about it and wait until inopportune moments to vent and b the shame and assumption that i must be so f d up to have thoughts like this i am open to therapy i just have not quite figured out the best route and financial aspect i get skeptical about shelling out thousands of dollars for a situation that can not change i guess just wanted to vent and ask for solidarity on my embarrassing outbursts and curious if therapy has helped anyone for context i have a highly energetic and emotional 2 year old boy i understand and hope i m just in a really rough patch and easierenjoyable days are ahead of me | regret |
Stealing money from a milk token jar from a close friend of the ÃÂá
family when visiting. | guilt |
sorry i was not perfect . | guilt |
i regret that i never waited and i never tried for the person i really love i met her when i still have a girlfriend we both knew that we love each other but it is wrong i do not want to hurt my girlfriend and she does not want to hurt her too so both of us decided to cut all the connections we had 2 years has passed me and my girlfriend finally broken up i know it is been a long time but i knew deep inside me i still love her i told myself now i m single now i m finally free now finally the time is right no we can be finally be together i wanted to tell her that i still love her that i never stop thinking of her but the time was still not right again she is happy with someone else and i do not want to ruin that so i stayed away even i want to hug her tight but i can not i want to hold her hand but i can not i want to reach for her but she seems so far away i let all the idea of her go and move on with my life that maybe everything was not really meant for us time passed i am happy for the life that i have right now and i m engaged then i saw her i thought i m okay i thought i moved on but i still love her all the idea of being with her came back and then she said she really never stop loving me even years has passed i wanted to tell her that i still love her too but i can not i already have someone who loves me for me and i kind and i do not want to hurt that person life is a joke for me and her everything was really not meant for us even what we had was real now the thought of what my life could be if i waited for her lingers like a gum on my hair and lastly timing is bullshit | regret |
For the above: guilt at not living up to my own moral ÃÂá
expectation, guilt for not being the type of person my patents ÃÂá
wanted, guilt for just about bloody everything, just realising ÃÂá
that I have failed drastically in my own eyes. | guilt |
had to block my friend because all I see is my ex and I can't handle that | guilt |
Strong ED Trigger Warning /// Weight Specified (numerical values)
I've been a center of family drama recently, thanks to my horrible eating/dieting habits.
Orion says I need professional help. But it's so satisfying, watching the numbers on the scale go down, or hearing someone say '"Have you lost weight? You look good!" sincerely.
My starting weight 126 lbs approx
Currently: 112 lbs
Loss Total: uh. A lot.
Short term goal: 100 lbs or less
Long term goal: 85 lbs | guilt |
this is a werid one does anyone regret watching a tv show or movie i regret watching glee because i became so obsessed with it it is was not healthy now when i think about it i wan na be sick lmaoo | regret |
I broke a statue in Ethan's house and he's my best friend but I'm probably going to have to pay for it and that makes me very anxious because I don't want his mom to have a grudge against me | guilt |
in the six grade there was this girl in homebase who was always trying to talk to me she sat all the way in the back and i sat in the front she was so funny sweet and kind whenever she said hi my jerk self said whatever i wish i befriended her she made me laugh and was such a cool person i think i might ve liked her and thought acting this way was cool and the girl would like me if i did this lesson is do not be a jerk or you will lose the opportunity to make good friends | regret |
When I lied last week. I lied to someone to get info. for a ÃÂá
paper I was writing. I told her that the info. was for a ÃÂá
newspaper article. I was afraid if I told the truth she wouldn't ÃÂá
help me. | guilt |
i can not forgive myself for the pain i have brought on my parents via my anorexiabipolar for the past few years i have suffered from debilitating mental illnesses that have left me hospitalized countless times and although at the time i resented them and blamed them for what happened to me i realize now how wrong i was and i can not accept the fact that i put my parents through hell i can not imagine being a parent and watching my teenage daughter loathe herself to the point where she becomes so emaciated she is on the brink of death then to have her swallow a bottle of pills slash her arms and legs and wake up in the icu rinse and repeat rinse and repeat for so many fucking years months and months of involuntary admittance to mental hospitals i even missed my high school graduation because my therapist called 911 at my appointment which was a few hours before it i have said so many horrible things to my parents and they told me i ruined their life and i hated them for that but it is true i did i really did i can not handle the immense guilt i feel it is difficult for me to visit my parents because all i want to do is break down crying there was a time when i even went so far as to file a restraining order against my mother which was completely unwarranted i felt so horrible about it i did all that i could to have it lifted i m just a horrible fucking selfindulgent mess my capacity to hurt others is far too developed for an 18 year old girl i just do not know how to fix this because it is not over i m not recovered i m no where near recovered i m just trying so hard to hide it so as not to inflict anymore pain on them i do not want them to feel they have failed as parents it is not fair they did the best they could i want them to feel no responsibility well this was certainly cathartic thanks for reading | regret |
of not sharing something with my grandfather i regret spending my precious little time with my grandfather watching movies like scarface and mean streets as opposed to watching movies like jugment at nuremburg he knew and i knew we were both vets from different wars but humanity is bigger than neighborhood bs and i missed the opportunity to talk with him about it missed conversations are tragic | regret |
not moving into my grandmothers old place when i had the chance a few years back my grandmother then late 90 s now deceased moved in with my parents while i was helping them move her things out they asked if i wanted to move in grandma had a beautiful house just out of a little village about 1520 minutes drive from my job up hill from a local beach the steep hill gave her place an excellent feeling of privacy she had an immaculately kept garden that often had kangaroos lounging around in it not to mention it was full of fond childhood memories to me my first impulse and the answer i really wanted to give was hell yes but then a little voice in my head said be reasonable sure you work full time but conservatively this place is worth at least 6 times what your little two bedroom unit is however they want to do this be it rent or parental mortgage you can not afford the place what is more you are a slob you d never keep this place clean let alone maintain the garden reluctantly i answered my parents not no but instead you do not want me living here they ended up selling the place to this day the algebra remains the same it is still just as impractical but i still wish i would said fuck it yes | regret |
NAME i wanted to help you paint but how could i with a broken heart . | guilt |
i m 23 years old and have ruined my life wasted 6 years of my life playing video games and smoking weed to numb the pain of a break up i wish i had n t done that if you are ever going through something please seek help and have compassion for yourself because of it i have no money terrible anxiety and depression whilst my high school peers have finished college and are making good money wish everyone here great health and success | regret |
not asking a girl on the train for her number or even her name was travelling from leicester to my home town yesterday and was suffering from a really bad panic attack but from birmingham until my home town i got chatting to this really lovely girl for an hour we just had really pleasent conversation it turns out she studies where two of my mates do uni of leicester we were in the same club on halloween and she lived so near where i was staying anyway i had to get off and we said goodbye to each other and i just could n t believe why i did not at least ask for her name i was in two minds in asking for her number because i just did not want to ruin a perfect journey just incase she said no i keep telling myself that she was just being a good person and helping me calm down but i m kicking myself because you just never know tldr did not get the name or number of a pretty and pleasent girl on the train and i can not stop thinking about her | regret |
I had a thing I forgot about and my phone died so I left him unseen for like 6 hours | guilt |
I think I'm a bad person | guilt |
failed relationship i 28 m just recently as of this week ended my almost 3 year marriage to my husband 29 m we have been fighting almost nonstop for almost a year and we go through these phases where it will be fine for a week or two maybe longer then we are back to fighting like cats and dogs a few times it has almost gotten physical so i finally took the stand at the last argument and told him i could not take it anymore i could go on and on about all the negatives of him but it does truly take two to tango and no one is perfect i made some mistakes as did he i just wish i could have seen how toxic we were getting for each other and either stopped it and fixed it then or broke it off then and maybe we could still be friends he is a great guy but every one has that ugly side and i m no saint and i can almost guarantee mine is uglier i just miss having a friend that i could come home to and hang out with and talk and laugh now when we come home after work i m still working on moving out it is silence and literally feels cold in the house that was a home i m having anxiety almost nonstop i feel so alone and scared i may have abandonment issues i m not saying he did that but i m saying i m scared because i have never felt so alone i do not have any friends left after cutting them off to be with him and he says the same to me i just wish we could have had the marriage we both had always talked about having my biggest regret is that instead of actively trying to solve things i fed into his anger and he fed into mine we slowly became toxic and now we both share a roof and it feels like having a robot in the house with you due to no emotions from either end i know we can not fix this and it is truly over and maybe that is what we need maybe we were not meant for forever but instead to learn something from each other but i can not take this feeling so cold and alone when we talk it is aggressive when we pass each other in the house there is no eye contact and neither of us can really look the other in the face any more i just wish i could ve stopped it even if it meant us not being together but before it went to this hateful basically tolerating the others existence i still love him and i always will and i thanked him for everything he is done for me but i know we will never be together again i just wish i could ve at least saved our friendship | regret |
i regret loosing the love of my life for being dunb he was everything and i m very picky handsome kind creative a partner in crime everything i ever wanted he understood all my weird mental issues i thought no one would ever get it however i felt i could n t give enough love my heart was not there i was happy but anxious i wanted to experience life independently he insisted for us to be together there is not any pressure but there was in my head i felt guilty and felt i could n t breath i ended but we expected to go back together someday he moved to my home country and we met a few time as friends during more than a year i had so many opportunities to go back with him but i was always scared and i felt pretty good going around meeting other empty guys and drinking i got involved with an addict that was also an abuser this guy ruined my life my ex was there for me and all my friends begg d me to go back with him or at least break up the abusive relationship i was addicted to the abuse i could n t end it took time and i finally realised what i was doing i tried to go back to the love of my life but it was too late he got involved with someone else to that seems to make him happier he ignored my messages and eventually blocked me why i had everything i regret so much not being the one next to him i think about him everyday i can not seem to forget i get sick of regret and am falling in a deep depression i hate myself please help me | regret |
When I had promised to do some washing for my mother and I did ÃÂá
not do it. She did it herself despite her being ill. I felt ÃÂá
very guilty. | guilt |
regret not dating a girl from college there was a girl that i knew from school we went to the same high school and then college she liked me i liked her i was not mentally in the right frame of mind to date or have friends i always have regretted not asking her on a date even if the relationship did not work out it still would have been nice to have my first relationship with her since then i have improved myself but still no relationship with anyone i regret not having that relationship with her because she was a wonderful person | regret |
idk how to tag lmao
well i analyse my personality constantly but anyways the more i do the more i realise im seriously a bad and terrible person,,,, like
maybe i act like a good person?? maybe just noones realised yet but?? im. really not good at all | guilt |
regrets leaving everything to follow him i 25f am married to 34m for 2 years now we have a 3 months old together we met almost 6 years ago when we both lived in france sometimes i regret leaving everything that i had there for a man that completely changed after our marriage someone who became neglecting emotionally abusive and who would insult me for a yes or a no maybe it is time to move on and ask for a divorce | regret |
did not do my first art commission for over a year and i just sent it today but the person is probably not active on the site anymore i m the type who keeps delaying things for months and ends up regretting i do not know how i can fix this lazy habit of mine | regret |
elementary school regret so i was in a club where i would have to protect the students like the teachers were not there and other things like open doors and i was opening doors in the entrance there was captain lets call him felix for privacy reasons he was the captian and basicly he was the one who 1 write us in when were doing our job report any club people who were not doing their job and would chosse who can leave the club or join i was in all the same classes as him one day i remember it was the last period and i was doing my writing homework with my classmate who was my crush at the time and we were working and felix was in front of me and he asked me to do his homework at first i was like what 2nd was uhhhh no you can do it then my name kicked in he kinda threatened me to take me out of the club and in this school for some reason if you get taken out of a club your seen as a bad student for teachers and i was a shy great a and b student who was never in trouble and kept my name safe sorry for being off track so after that threteaning my classmate came in and with felix looking he told me not to do it and just me to tell someone and i should of listened since in my world a lot of people listen to me and acually believe me and since i didnt lie in that year i should of told a teacher but i did his homework and even doing his homework my classmate kept telling me to not do it and stop doing it i still did then when class ended we had to go to our main class and i finally realised what id done so i tried to report him but when i was talking to the teacher felix was outside doing something so i quiicly ended the conversation and after lying to felix since he asked me if i was telling the teacher he believed me then my classmate came into the story again and told my teacher and in the end i still kept my name the same things but with waht felix got kicked out of the club i made an enemy and people kept feeling more pitty x200b spoiler my classmate said that felix asked me to do his homework and when my teacher asked me if i did i said i didnt so people felt pity since i was asked such a thing but my classmate knows and at any moment he could say the truth and since he has the same reputation as me they will beleive him so now i regret doing his homework and lying to a teacher twice did i make the right decision | regret |
maybe me maybe not i met a really nice woman online we chatted daily for months she was smart funny and irreverent thought we clicked i suppose i could n t provide to her what she was looking for alas regretfully it is done we are still the people we were when we first met but not with each other life is full of regret keep moving forward | regret |
store left open so a year ago a smoke shop in virginia was left open after hours me and two friends went in and took a couple handfuls each of shit like vapes and disposable vapes as well as handfuls of nugs of the weed they sold there they also had weed cartridges i took one my friend took four but there were a couple of bundles i m not a person who is involved in crime i just happened to be in the right place in the right time i replay this sometimes randomly in my head and i feel so stupid for not wiping the shelves i could ve taken close to a pound of weed and over 60 disposables instead i ended up with two ounces and 4 disposable vapes with one wax cartridge we had a backpack but i just shoved weed into my pockets and shit i was very shook during it but i regret deeply not capitalizing on this once in a lifetime opportunity | regret |
regret opening up to a childhood friend when i was 8 years old i was really quiet and did not socialize much my mom even brought me to a psychologist because i could spend days without talking at all i did have one friend that made me feel less lonely and i still remember him to this day i moved to a different school in the 3rd grade fast forward to now i m 22 years old and this friend and i started chatting again we have been friends on facebook for quite a while but never really talked that much until last year when we exchanged numbers we had a really good conversation and yesterday he opened up to me about how he cried during a movie for the entire period and that might be bc was carrying a lot of emotional baggage i asked him what s been bothering him and he just said he felt lonely and that ever since high school he has never really felt okay and then he also said sorry for bombing me with negativity i told him it was okay and then proceeded to tell him how i felt during the 2nd grade and how he was the only person i felt comfortable to be around with i told him i was happy that he was there to be my friend and that it makes me sad that he felt this way now this is the short version but the ones i sent him were in paragraphs he replied with i never knew i made you feel good better i apparently made a longlasting impression on you and then i said hahaha well we were kids and i barely talk but yes you did make me feel good to which he replied aww if only i could go tell past me that i made you happy and idk i just got embarrassed bc all this time i thought he felt the same way but turns out he simply just remembered me as someone from his childhood and that this was a surprise to him our friendship really did meant so much to me bc i was going through a lot at that time and i remembered so many stuff from my past that were not pleasant but he was one of the few good memories but idk i feel so embarrassed for some reason i think i m just embarrassed at the fact that i assumed he felt the same and i regret opening up to him i also feel like i made things awkward and uncomfortable between us i really regret telling him all that and i regret knowing how it really is i hope it is okay that i post this here | regret |
i regret insulting the closest guy i met on the internet i just one day while playing thought it was funny to insult where he was living do not ask me why i still do not understand why i still find myself every day looking at least for a minute to the ground and just thinking why did i do that ill probably never know about him in the rest of my life so that hurts a bit more | regret |
want him to die i was raped by my ex we had been together for about 18 months when he spent the night over a visit we lived 250 miles away after he failed out of college so he visited me on weekends i woke up to him on top of me fucking me i have never felt that scared used and ashamed in my entire life he denied that it was rape denied that i was asleep and to this day does not believe that i was asleep he then cheated on me with a girl who picked him up in a bar about a month later he claimed he did not know why he did it i was trying to figure out my life and my selfworth after this event and he was fucking another girl i kept talking to him after we broke up i could n t stop talking to him i was addicted he had spent the whole time we were together making me dependent on him he made me believe i was worthless scarred weird wrong and he was the only one who could accept me and love me i almost lost my mind during that time in a particularly low point i sent a text to his mother telling her that he had raped me she blamed me it is been almost three years and i still hate him he went on to marry the girl he cheated on me with knock her up and is going to afghanistan in october i really hope that he dies i want him to die in war i just want it to be over i do not want him to be in the same world as me i just want that to end | regret |
recent regret i loved being a parent of my babies even the twins when they were newborns i loved taking them to mum s groups in strollers nursing them i loved the things they said i loved buying them toys they were cherubs now that they re teenagers everything changed i have three two 15 year olds and one 18 year old i feel as if i have been taken hostage by their every emotional whim i find that all my hard work all through childhood is worth pretty much nothing to them of course they do not listen and all my advice is ridiculous and useless they complain and criticize they make stupid decisions and then blame others such me and their dad or make excuses i walk around on eggshells terrified of pissing them off or saying the wrong thing i am afraid of being their trauma of them growing up and rejecting me my husband and i are struggling to make it through this it is so fucking hard i never regretted having kids until now now it seems like everything we did for them was pointless i spend many days feeling like a terrible person because of something they have said to me or some criticism they have made of my parenting i can not stand feeling so inadequate so much like a failure i love them so much but i do not know if it was worth this much pain | regret |
I felt that I contributed to a possible rift in the relationship ÃÂá
between a boy and girl soon to be married, in my flat after I ÃÂá
moved in. After stating my celibacy to him which she overheard ÃÂá
and didn't previously know about I suspect. | guilt |
my puppy s death when i was about 11 years old i had a puppy that i love so much both of us had a great friendship things were ok until he started to look unwell we tried to see what wrong so we took him to the vet when out the results back there was a problem with his digested system i do not remember what the doctor say bc it was a time long ago so i stay with him as long i can but his sickness keeps getting worse the sickness was so bad that he could n t walk on his bare feet then on on a day of his death my parents wanted us to go to walmart to buy some food that was a mistake because when we got to walmart the puppy died when we got back i started crying for i wish i could have been there when he died everyday i thinkabout him almost everyday because he was the first puppy i have ever loved | regret |
When I feigned sick leave from work. | guilt |
i regret not having commitment to make money if i had started when was 15 i could have been rich or something here i am starting at 25 ugh | regret |
My mother wrote me and said that I would not writ enough letters ÃÂá
home. | guilt |
i have always brought you down . | guilt |
does anyone else find the small annoyance the most difficult with the way they pile up over time unhappy 38 year old parent of 5 year old twins here i was never one of those people who had a high flying career i never wanted one because my mentality was always work to live not life to work i travelled a couple of times in my twenties including one big eurotrip when i graduated with my degree but was never rich enough for annual holidays abroad i was always a homebody and an introvert so was not giving up a big social life i just hate the repetition of parenthood and the same shit new day that you are constantly dealing with i just want to leave the house without having to deal with getting their shoes on having a fight about how yes they do need their jacket bundling them up into the car adding 15 minutes onto my commute because they have to be dropped off at preschool first i just want to sit down and eat a meal in peace without having to remind the kids to sit up properly so they do not spill stuff to use their knife and fork that there is leftovers and they do not have to eat like it is the first meal they have seen in weeks i just want to go shopping and be able to look around without reminding my kids not to touch telling them that christmas is soon so they can not have everything and maybe santa will bring it to watch out for other people etc i want to sleep in without having to be up before 9am to make my mids breakfast i want to spend one day without a stream of do not poke your brother do not pull your sister s hair having to leave my mouth and referring their stupid quarrels i want to sit on my phone without a kid getting annoyed that i looking at my phone instead of watching them go down a slide i do not want to laugh at the same joke 500 times anymore i do not want to play along at being tricked for the 500th time anymore i do not want to go to the park again i do not want to listen to trolls again i do not care i can not go out on saturday nights until 4am i m just sick of dealing with and living with kids | regret |
i cannot tell you how sorry i am for ending my life the way i did . | guilt |
i ruined his life there was two options for my bf to reach his dream he choosed 1st and i was like choose 2nd so he choose 2nd and we just found out if he choosed 1st he would reach his dream and i just wasted it i have never been more upset and wasted i cant even breath i cant | regret |
I told my pesent boyfriend that I was an Australian as are my ÃÂá
parents. As the relationship developed I found it harder and ÃÂá
harder to confess and became sure it would end our relationship. ÃÂá
He eventually found out when told in front of me by my mother. | guilt |
does n t get better it really does not i have too many good friends but i can not live with myself | regret |
since i am a victim of political persecution my prison would simply be an american gulag . | guilt |
i did something i shouldn't have because I'm a stupid fuck | guilt |
All I wanted was to cook breakfast and the smoke detectors went off and woke up one of my roommates. Uuuugh. | guilt |
do not just settle for the possibility that it will never get better yesterday i had a milestone my kids are 6m and 45f and while i would not go so far as to say i regret becoming a parent i certainly have regrets on the timing the age spacing and who i chose to have children with i have been separateddivorced since my youngest was an infant i continuously feel frustrated that there is no reset button to press and my life is now exponentially harder with 2 kids and no partner to help shoulder that burden day to day even prepandemic i would rarely take both of my kids anywhere by myself other than to drop off at daycare or school because it is sofreakinghard my oldest has some behavioral issues and they would always run in opposite directions at least one would throw a huge epic tantrum when it was time to leave anywhere and i would usually be holding one and frantically chasing and trying to corral the otherit was always a nightmare i felt stuck and trapped had basically zero social life outside my parents and siblings it sucks to live that way and yes i have been bitter but yesterday we had an errand to run that i thought would be a quick curbside pick up situation but it turns out it was not and i had to get them out of the car and they were fine i did not have to cling to them or chase them or yell at them or worry they were going to hurt themselves it was actually almost fun then we went to their doctor appointment and they played outside on the sidewalk while waiting for them to call us in and again it was not stressful the appointment itself ended up being a nightmare but yet it was not because i felt empowered that just before we would been out on our own and it had n t been stressful they are getting older and i think it just might start being easier to have a life again and to actually enjoy their company on an outing rather than resent it there is a glimmer of hope that the next stage could be quite bright | regret |
Against the will and without the approval of my parents I went ÃÂá
for a few days to my boyfriend in Germany. | guilt |
I feel like I need to be able to perfectly balance all of my interests. If I don't, I feel like I'm letting down the whole fandom. I mean I know it's not true, but I listen to K-pop and new anime come out. I watch anime and the whole world of K-pop changes. It's so hard to juggle and keep track of ._. | guilt |
this is not working i am in a long relationship with someone a person with a really good heart promised to love them forever as time went by i found myself falling out of love with them was i ever actually in love i do not know now a while ago i started having an emotional affair with an old friend this person had recently had their heart broken and i was unsatisfied with my relationship it is beyond obvious now that i should have kept my feelings for this other person to myself or break off the current relationship but i did not at first it was great the emotional affair grew as did our connection but my unwillingness to break the heart of my current so kept me from moving forward with the emotional affair also as time went by i have begun to see this person as lazy jealous and less and less compatible with who i am so now i am stuck in a relationship with a financially and emotionally dependent person i do not love and stuck in an emotional affair with an emotionally wrecked person who i am questioning loving i am disappointed with myself for having gotten into this situation i do not think i can leave either one of them without utterly destroying them but this is not working this is a confession so i am not really looking for any advice i will however give the advice that likely seems obvious to most people and to me now do not get into an emotional affair my pity and empathy are keeping me stuck to these people and i have not the heart to break theirs so there is the story i hope i can work this out so it will be best for everyone edit 1 thanks everyone for your two cents i agree with most of the comments i have given the brief summary here and i realize that this situation is all wrong i get that what makes it particularly hard is how dependent on me i have allowed these two people to become in different ways whether financially or emotionally i am providing a lot financial support for my current so who is a university student right now also over the years they have lost a lot of family members and have really latched onto some of mine these are not excuses for continuing the way i have been rather those are reasons it is hard for me to face pulling the rug out from under them in short i realize what i should do it is just damn hard to do it considering how rooted everything has become | regret |
I'm freaking out internally after spending $80 at VS and having major anxiety | regret |
feeling so bad and guilty lol im such a shit child i get why my mom is acting this way | guilt |
effed up and told my 7 year old i never wanted him it is been a hellish 7 years got pregnant at 18 birthed at 19 dad and i did not work out and it was his whole scheme to knock me up in the first place to summarize today my son threatened to stab me at olive garden and then continued to come home and break the last of my tv remotes while i was showering he is broken 3 others already he smashes them thinking they will work more efficiently told him i hate him i never wanted him and that having him ruined my life i feel guilty and torn none of this is truly his fault and he is just another kid who will need to recover from childhood and struggle through this shitty fucking life not knowing what love feels like i could have spared him the pain of this existence as i had a scheduled abortion but his dad convinced me otherwise he is at his dads house now our life is a fucking mess | regret |
the months since my daughter was born have been the worst months of my entire life i can not even describe how much i hate my life now it used to be good before | regret |
I had promised to send something to a friend and it completely ÃÂá
slipped my mind. I felt guilty for having forgotten. | guilt |
When I promised a male friend of mine to visit him, and did not. | guilt |
I'm so very sorry | guilt |
i regret not expressing my feelings in time i met a girl who is incredibly beautiful seemed conservative enough until i asked around and turned out to have a pretty strong wild side drinks marijuana and was just about to start with the heavy stuff before she gave up she had an affair with her school teacher who later blackmailed her for her nude images pathetic pos then her parents moved countries so she could get over it and the guy would still message her parents saying you do not know what i have on your daughter somehow they ended that then she had another boyfriend with whom she brokeup i got to know all this from her directly we were in a spot where i think we both knew where it was headed but i never having had any sexual encounter even a single kiss was blown away by this the insecurity of being compared to another guy and thinking of the impressions she carried gave me cold feet but she was so honest about all of it it took quite a while to process it all the day i decided to talk to her about my feelings she could n t show up because her new boyfriend was in the hospital | regret |
i am really sorry that i did this . | guilt |
not trying out for high school soccer my freshman year my freshman year of high school i did not try out for my school s freshman soccer team because i was afraid of getting cut despite the fact that everyone made the team i remember the other freshmen soccer players were mad at me because i was a good player but i did not care i ended up playing in a rec basketball league that fall to get myself involved in something around sometime that spring i really started to regret that decision i was a better soccer player than at least half of that team i decided to try out for junior varsity this year my sophomore year i was not as good as all the other kids who played freshman year though and i was cut one of just ten kids cut i beat myself up for not trying out freshman year because it has really come back to haunt me while i got myself involved with cross country for the fall and do enjoy it i wish i was playing soccer i can not imagine quitting soccer but now i do not know if i will ever make it one of my favorite quotes is you miss 100 of the shots you do not take because it will always remind me now to not chicken out of something because i m too nervous after what i did freshman year | regret |
so exhausted i am so tired of my 19 month daughter all she does is scream my husband is a construction worker and i am a nurse so we both work a lot we only have one source of help who is my husbands step mom that we pay to watch our daughter while i sleep since i work nights that is two days a week at most because money is tight i sacrifice and watch her most of the time i am exhausted and really beginning to regret becoming a mom we have absolutely no support as both our parents are not in our lives idk what else to do i like being a mom most days but today is hitting reallly hard i definitely do not want more kids even tho we float the idea around occassionally plus my daughter keeps pulling her hair out and i can not figure out why | regret |
When they found out that I was absent from school, I had gone to ÃÂá
the girl's secondary school. | guilt |
i regret not being there my grandmother died a couple days ago and i regret not being with her when she passed away her body had stopped producing platelets and they said she only had three to four days left my entire family spent a lot of time with her and told we loved her and took a lot of pictures to remember her by she seemed fine though and we thought maybe they had made a mistake or that her body had started producing the platelets again i wanted to see her on sunday so that i could spend more time with her and my mother wanted to do the same but she said that she was tired and that we had our own lives to live i told her that my life could wait and that i wanted to see her more but she said it was all right that i not come and i did not i told her that i would come visit her the next day and maybe take her out to dinner if she felt up to it and then i told her i loved her and said goodbye the next day while i was at work my mother called and told me that she had passed away either that morning or the night prior it has taken a couple of days for the feeling to sink in but now i feel so terrible that i or someone was not with her or around her when she died her death was not painful they think she had an aneurysm and just fell asleep and then passed away but i just can not stop feeling like the fact that she died alone in her apartment is the worst thing i could have ever done my mom feels the same way i think she is punishing herself for not being there too and the worst part is that i can not even apologize for this it is the worst normally if i make a mistake or wrong someone i can apologize to them and make it right but i can not now my grandmother died alone because i did not try hard enough to go see her i can pray for forgiveness from her or god or whatever but i still do not feel absolved i can not get the i forgive you that i need so so bad i m sorry grandma i should have been there i am a bad grandson | regret |
I had promised to call a girl but I did not do it. | guilt |
stuck in a rut in my job because of kid i am failing at my job this is the first time in 15 years that i have ever received a bad performance review and things are getting worse and not better ceo is always late to meetings always argues with me in meetings ignores my emails does not really care what i do at all will not approve overtime although i need it to keep up and other people can work overtime pretty much read any article about subtle signs your boss does not like you and pretty much every single one is what is happening the upside is the remote and flexible work arrangement and the fact that i think he is too busy and forgetful for another review and i sure as hell am not going to ask for another one ever again as the first one was just terrible for reference i literally got told off for using the word yeah instead of yes but since i am a parent i can not just simply put in more hours like i used to which is good and bad but definitely bad for my career i used to always be the top person in my department for any company i was in but now let s just say i do not think the ceo would risk saying anything bad about me but i definitely will not get any positive recommendation from him so here i am unsure of what to do because so many jobs are lying about remote work or they change the terms a month or so in i do not want to just not work though that is an option and i do not think i can do much better at my current job i have changed completely since the review and i am getting myself more organized so i can squeeze out as much efficiency from myself as possible but i pretty much support 5 people in separate departments all with different requests nearly every day on top of a controllerdata analystauditorprogrammer job and it is just too much part of me wonders if he is just pushing me to quit anyway i wish i did not have a kid so i can choose to either put the hours needed in or i would have chosen to stay at my last job andor choose an inperson job that would be a better fit a larger more mature company with books in order defined and structured processes reviews that have criteria that i know and are consistent etc like i would not even worry about the flexible schedule or remote options if i was not a parent i mean do not get me wrong i definitely love that there are at least more options now than ever before but it seems like i am stuck in a rut with my career and i just have to hold on until my kid gets older to do anything about it and i just feel so defeated right now ugh thanks for letting me vent | regret |
my fault not making any friends on campus because i commute 3040mins away now i want to but can not make my self do it now i m getting stressed and depressed and do not even try to make conversation and if i do i end up talking my self out of it when i want to anonymous | regret |
i am sorry for the goldman family . | guilt |
child free was the goal follow the path you want when i was 22 i decided i wanted to be child free i used to get up and go when i please i was not under pressure financially i love my career which comes with travel i did not have to be in charge of drop offs and pick ups meetings dropping everything to pick him up when sick i only had to worry about feeding and bathing myself but with people in my ear about how much i would regret this life happened and i ended up pregnant and not only that but he ended up being diagnosed with autism and now 4 years old still non verbal now in addition to above i have to keep track of all therapies appointments and i do not know if he will ever be independent living on his own so being an empty nester might not ever be in my future i guess the plus is i got my tubes removed otherwise i would have probably been admitted to psych ward if i ended up pregnant again in the end my child did not ask to be here so it is my duty to give him a comfortable life but nothing about this life is worth it | regret |
Sorry for being so emo yâÃÂÃÂall. IâÃÂÃÂm just having a month | guilt |
It's weird how I feel harder for fictional characters than actual people.... | guilt |
how to deal with regret i had a tiktok account that i sold for 25 it had 21 thousand followers and 600 thousand likes my parents and my friends are disappointed in me because of the cheap price i sold it for | regret |
i have made the worst choice of my life sorry for my english i m still working on it i do not know if this gon na make me feel any better probably not but i need to be honest with me and i m completely alone i feel bad and i have nobody for me i cheated and broke the heart of the most beautiful woman that i have ever seen in my life she is good right now it was 7 months ago now i m with the other person and to be honest i regret every day of my life no one deserves this not them and that was my fault i regret that shit and i regret every fucking day of my life and i have no idea of what to do i m really fucked up | regret |
As the only person in my family into academics, I ought to have ÃÂá
looked after my younger (and only) sister better, with respect to ÃÂá
her education and life experiences. | guilt |
My younger sister wanted to take classes to learn a musical ÃÂá
instrument. One Saturday morning my mother asked me to go with ÃÂá
her for the registration. I did not want to go so I said that ÃÂá
there might be many bad people at the club. As a resullt my ÃÂá
sister was scolded by my mother. | guilt |
i waited to long i have been in love with this girl for at least three years now i was trying to wait for the right time to ask them out but usually chickened out last second and now she is planning on asking someone else out this mainly sucks because she is asking one of my friends out and i feel like i m a third wheel this happened like a minute ago and i do not know how to feel about it i want to see them happy but at the same time ethey tore my heart to shreds my stomach hurts from crying so much i tried giving this woman my heart i always had her back i was a shoulder to cry on and we genuinely enjoyed each other s company they even asked me how to tell them do you know how hard it is to chose between your happiness and the person that you loves happiness | regret |
i have been in love with the same girl for 2 years now and i have 0 chances with her she is smart has a great sense of humor beautiful great listener and is always there for her friends but i ruined my chances 2 years ago when i met her everything was going so great we talked we laughed and i thought things would have gone well if i had n t done what i did when i decided to confess my love to her i felt scared so i sent her a note instead i did not ask for a response because after sending it i felt even more scared so a friend of hers had to tell me she said she loved me but her overprotective parents would not let her have a boyfriend needless to say i felt sad and this sadness later became anger towards her but i still loved her do not ask me why i started acting like an asshole and i think that was the point where any chances of a relationship ever occurring disappeared a few months later i got over it and started to renew the friendship that once was so joyful and so meaningful to me we are very close friends now and we hang out and talk a lot but i have been friendzoned and i do not think we will ever be something else after how bad i treated her that time here is the part that hurts me the most recently we were talking about relationships and i said jokingly your parents left me forever alone 2 years ago she asked what i meant and i said you know cause they would not let you have a boyfriend she then told me that they always have let her be in a relationship this means that stupid bitch that told me they would not let her was lying and has made me question all the things they told me she said now every day i m with her i ask myself what if i had been brave enough to go up to her and confess my love face to face i have tried to move on i try to tell myself that i like other girls but lying to yourself never really works does it now i am left alone and helpless none of my friends know i still love her and i m planning on keeping it that way ama if you want | regret |
i cancelled my vacation plan to usa i went to usa on 23 may to meet my brother after final year mbbs exams for 45 days from india with my mother but after a week my grandfather died of respiratory arrest and me and my mom had to come to india it took us 1 month to complete all the rituals and then decided to go back to usa on 16 july i felt uncomfortable with again going bcz 1 the flight was a bit expensive 2 i would need to miss 14 days of my internship 3 i had just returned from seattle so i cancelled my flight tickets and now today i regret this decision of mine bcz 1 money can be earned again 2 it is not that big deal to miss internship 3 i would have gone to other places now i can not go to usa for another 18 months bcz of my internship and my md exam | regret |
I get sad when he does not text me goodnight. I understand he probably just fell asleep but I love them. What is wrong with me | guilt |
i love my little boy but sometimes i wish i did not have children my son is 4 i love him in ridiculous amounts you know when you hear parents going on and on about how they never thought they could feel this way the love they have for their children it is all true looking at my kid i do not know how something can be so small and beautiful and lovely and sweet he just likes to hang out whatever we are doing he is cool with it he is polite he is clean he is loud and he is smart but sometimes i think about what it would be like to be single and childless and just leave the house whenever i want i could leave within 5 minutes of deciding to leave with no bags or snacks in my pockets my house would stay clean for more than one day straight i could go on road trips and not worry about showering every day or worrying that everything is as safe as it possibly can be i know it is lazy and it is selfish and it is a horrible thing to think about but i imagine moving countries just by myself and not having to speak to anyone i know or have any responsibilities just to clarify i m actually pretty happy with my life and i love my friends and family and have a nice active social life i do not think any of these sorts of things when i m spending time with my son playing hanging out etc just sometimes at night or when it is quiet a part of me thinks my son can tell but does not know what it is it makes me feel so terrible | regret |
I am sincerely and truly sorry for the ways I've been over the past year. I will always hold a little grudge against myself for it. Receiving this forgiveness from everyone tonight has made me feel a lot better. I think that's definitely one of the steps I needed to take in order to be happy. It's not all about him. In fact, I'm starting to question if it's even about him at all anymore. | guilt |
did not go on a trip w bf feel like wasted days so i f17 am in a very strong loving relationship with my boyfriend m17 he decided as his friends were going that he d go to leeds festival this weekend past its a music festival that lasts the whole weekend frisat but they went early thursday and they come home tomorrow monday the last time i saw him was tuesday as he was working wednesday he did try to get rid of that shift so he could see me but was not able to my boyfriend was trying to conserve charge on his phone across the weekend so we have not really talked other than good morninggood night since that wednesday i m moving out to university this saturday coming and my boyfriend and i will be a couple hours away from each other as he moves out the week after to a different uni ever since he left and the festival started i have not managed to let the thought go that i should have gone with him i feel like such an idiot for not realising that it would have been the perfect way to spend 5 whole straight days together having fun before we both go off to uni i did not even consider it at the time ugh to make things worse he will most likely have to work during the week before i go because he is taken all this time off i should have been there the past few days i have never felt more alone this regret has physically eaten me alive i have not been able to move much i constantly feel like vomiting it keeps coming to my head i feel so stupid 5 whole valuable days with him have been wasted because of my depressive state i did not even do anything that could redeem my mistake i do not know if i will ever get over it | regret |
i hate being too nice. ppl really take that for weakness and take advantage of me | regret |
My mother told me that the enveloppes that I had been tearing (I ÃÂá
had torn the stamps away) in good faith had been the first-day ÃÂá
enveloppes which my father had collected as a young man. | guilt |
missed opportunities last year my family missed a huge opportunity to continue a life in a place that was full of goodness for us we chosw to come back to our own home in our own town due to family obligations it is been nothing but heartbreak and bs since we returned the door on the opportunity is shut everyday i feel like a zombie wondering what on earth i was thinking | regret |