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i am actually so stupid its not even funny

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I just want someone to know...I'm giving up. I've tried for years and years to fight through, but it's not getting any better and is getting worse. If it wasn't bad enough to have several co-morbid mental illnesses, even my therapist admitted that my life seems to have a never ending stream of bad situations/events. I've always had trouble making friends, but thought I had a couple I could rely on. But I get screwed over and pushed away when I tried to open up about my depression and struggles. I can't say I blame them - I wouldn't be around myself either if I had the choice. I won't have a job as of next week as they've had someone take over my duties...they didn't even tell me(although I knew it was coming), they just stopped putting me on the schedule. My bank account is in the negative and I've lost my health insurance. I just had to move and there's no money for next month's rent, so I'm going to screw over the landlords who took a chance on me & end up homeless anyways. The only thing I want is someone who will tell me its OK to give up. To acknowledge that I have tried hard for years and years to work with my doctors and get counseling and change my life and its not getting better...it's worse. I wish I had cancer or some other disease where death would be understandable when treatments aren't working and/or quality of life is poor. I feel so ashamed that I'm a failure.

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New Suicide Date - January 31stI know you all are upset I am waiting so long but I have to. I don't have the needed supplies yet and I have some loose ends to tie up. Until then I have the privilege of: enjoying my life (impossible). Reliving good memories (none) or whatever else. Maybe if I meet some nice people here I can keep you company although that would require you to not hate me (unlikely)

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So basically I'm possessed by a demon How do i know? So it was around 3:00 PM and i laid down the curtains . it was all dark.I'm a girl and i like to live in dark. I clicked a photo and if you see in the corner with all focus you'll see something serious or some shit stuff but it's in the photo only .[Click here](https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=2ahUKEwi1uNb1zrjrAhVEU30KHUIoD2YQyCkwAHoECBYQBw&url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DdQw4w9WgXcQ&usg=AOvVaw0aHtehaphMhOCAkCydRLZU) to see that photo. DO THAT AT YOUR OWN RISK.

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I’ve lived long past my timeI’ve been contemplating suicide as long as I can remember I’ve done everything to get better, I got my diagnosis, and have been taking them for more than three months only to find out the best version of myself still sucks a lot. Last time I tried I was stopped because I left a note. This time I made no such mistake. I’ll be gone before my family comes home. I told a few of my friends some final words and my phone has been blowing up so I just turned it off. I scrubbed all of my presence on social media. It’s all done. I can finally go in peace. My first attempt was when I was 18, I’m finally succeeding. Honestly my life’s been going down hill from then anyway so it’s about time. I just needed to get my last word out without alarming any more people. It’s finally over. I’m glad I got to choose how I go. Goodbye

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how much karma will need? 5668990e22wdjurdcbnnndre67e 👁👄👁

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wanting to die but not having the ability to kill urselfcan anyone else relate? i literally have wanted to die for as long as I can remember. i do not really enjoy life and I feel as if I am only attempting to enjoy it for those around me but I am genuinely exhausted at this point. i do not want to keep going, however after several attempts I am finding that I am unable to go through with anything myself. does anyone else ever feel this way idk what to do I literally just want to be hit by a truck or something on my way home from work but it never works out that way

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How do I change my reddit username? Is so cringe ._.

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WelpI’ve never felt so close to going thru with it but this week is the last straw I’m afraid. It just gets worse and worse and it feels like I shouldn’t be depressed or anxious bc my life is great, but I still feel like I can’t go on. One of the only friends I have is also depressed, but he has his reasons (shitty childhood, drugs, all that). I texted him a couple days ago saying I was close to going thru with it, we texted a bit, and suddenly he stopped. Hasn’t checked in with me since. I can’t help but think if I’d actually gone thru with it even he wouldn’tve given a shit. People say there’s no where to go but up, but right I’m in the never ending abyss.

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i really wish to feel happy again soon, i haven't been genuinely happy in like years i sweari really can't take living like this anymore

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Is there actually any hope?Everything seems pretty pointless to me, absolutely pointless. There are things in the future that I should be looking forward to, and I should be excited about them, but I'm not really. The only thing I think that actually makes me happy anymore is attention sometimes, but even then it doesn't always. I'm also, spectacularly useless, and worthless. This is not something I'm going to argue about, they are facts. I don't even know if I really want to be useful to anyone anymore, I'm pretty selfish, on top of everything. Anyway, back to the main question, is there hope? What's the lowest you've been at that you manged to get back from? Can you change who you are as person, when narcissism seems to be all that makes up your identity at this point? And if you can't, do you deserve to even live then? If you know, that you're a horrible person, and you don't or can't change, do you have the right to live? I don't know if I do. I feel like maybe I don't.

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Planning on bringing a weapon to schoolJust the thought of me bringing a knife to school and stabbing myself infront of everyone, knowing that now they will know I have a problem People only care about you when you're dead, I've realized... So kill myself I will, stabbing myself in the main foyer would solve all my problems and finally get people to notice my fucking existence

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we have lost the ability to give a damn but i still ly

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Finally made my choice.I am still staying with my parents, but when the times comes I will buy N and kill myself somewhere remote where noone can find me. I could give 0 fucks about a job, or a future (I can't work anyways). I will wait until the time comes.

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My favorite roblox game got shut down (yes I know roblox is cringe or whatever people are calling it) it was called Vivian's therapy there was only a few visits so it was always just me I loved this game you would just spawn in a relaxing living room with chairs and a fireplace. It really helped me because I could just talk to nothingness and just get all the bottled up thoughts and emotions out. If anyone know any other games like this please let me know

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Feel like I'm about to make a bad decisionWent to a party, had some drinks, left to drive myself home. Thinking it would be so easy to get in a drunk accident right now. I'm so tired of pretending all the fucking time. I don't feel anything and life is just exhausting. I thought maybe the alcohol would help me feel something but nope no luck there. Fuck my life lmao.

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This is my experience on thinking about suicide and being dobbed in so that my workplace gets involved - part 4This has just happened to me today. Staying home from work and I got an email from work that just made me go "bitch - pleeassseee" Work conflicts basically caused me to become mentally ill to the point that when I get frustrated with them, self harm thoughts come hand in hand with any irritation or anger. It's not that I plan to kill myself, but instantaneously I think in my head "I want to kill myself" and immediately next thought I would think "OMG don't be stupid, that's not going to happen". That sort of goes backwards and forth until I get very worked up. It feels crazy in my head and it feels I need to vent. The problem here is now I don't really care about anything asides from basically bitching to someone. What happened today was I bitched to a "friend" at work (via my personal email and their work email). I do say "friend" because I'm not venting to them because it's my best friend or anything - it is someone who I know personally from work and knows about other instances I thought about self harm at work... and isn't very trustworthy (as you are about to find out) I bitch a bit and told him what I was thinking at that moment, which had bits of people are lying to me again, I want to kill myself, I feel faint... so forth. (Not the first time I told him that - in fact I told him I locked myself in the bathroom at work because I got scared I'll self harm if I went outside... and he did nothing. Literally nothing. He read it and didn't even check that I was alright or not or come to check on me - I was literally just upstairs. Anyways, the point of that side story is that this is normal). So back to the main story. I wrote those emails early in the morning, then went home and watched some TV and went to sleep. After lunch, my parents started phoning me up saying work contacted them and work phoned the police. OK sure. Not the first time work phoned the police on me and fuck them. The police came. What they knew was: Work has phoned them telling them that I sent an email saying I'd self harm / suicide and they were worried because I haven't sent them anything since so they have not been in contact and they were worried if I was alive. They have mixed in some truths with lies. I sent an email, true. The bit where they make a big deal out of it, a lie. (I had no phone calls or emails from them that day - really they could've contacted me if they wanted to. However they did phone both my parents who said they were in contact with me and did not want them to phone the police and make a big deal out of it) The point is, I was fine. I got taken to hospital for a check up and got let out the same day, so the doctors didn't think there were reasons to keep me there even though they could've done so against my will. There are going to be people who hide behind a facade of "care" or "worry" who says they are doing things that they are not. It's hard to tell (most people want to be loved so they want to believe what they are being told is true), but when you feel worse after hearing about it then something isn't right. It's just better to trust your instincts. People can let you down or betray your trust. I'm slowly getting used to people who think they can mix in some lies because people would believe them over someone like me (someone with a history of mental illness / seen a psychologist). Those stories might be enough to send the police to your place and have you sent to hospital for an assessment, but the police literally can't do anything else - it's the doctors who decide. Doctors at the hospital aren't going to just blindly listen to that "story", and going to the hospital doesn't mean that they'll keep you there against your will. Why did my work place decide to lie? I don't know. They could be genuinely worried, they could be covering their ass in case of legal problems or they could want to put me in my place for being a nuisance. It really doesn't matter. They can say you are mental but they are just as mental as themselves. As for my "friend". I am still coping with the fact that he would care more about the company than my wellbeing. I honestly do believe if I died he'd shrug it off. I've told him I was feeling suicidal endless amounts of times before, but getting personal messages (like whatsapp not just emails) forward off to work? Part of not being about to cope makes me think about self harm, want to kill myself, wanting them to watch me die, wanting him to regret not helping me. What gets to me the most is that he pretends he is above fault. I had a panic attack in front of him and he walked away telling me I should get help. He did that more than once actually. At the same time, he's pretending he's a good guy who cares and will help when shit hits the fans. He is like a human version of the workplace. If I can kill myself, I'd make sure he gets haunted by it. I used to get so upset when my workplace lied and then think about suicide even more (thinking I could get back at them)

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Let's raise awareness for Obsessive Love Disorder Not asking for advice but thinking back to a stage of "loving" someone that I went through, I wondered if infatuation could be seen as a mental condition or disorder. Turns out, it's a thing. If an attraction feels uncontrollable or consuming, it may be this. https://www.healthline.com/health/obsessive-love-disorder#treatment

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My AP World History teacher is a Redditor! So my school just went back today, but anyways I got to my 5th period class (AP World) and she just randomly starts talking ab Reddit. She’s also got a Nuka-Cola bottlecap clock, so it’s apparent that she’s a HUGE nerd. This should be a pretty fun school year, at least that class!

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The pain. YES My ex that I still have feelings for is going to a party and talking about fucking this other kid. The pain is IMMENSE

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Ten more days - avicii'I'm torn between Fulfilling my wildest dreams To satisfy the beast inside of me Ten more days to find my way Ten more days 'till I'm awake Ten more days 'till I don't have to fight🎶 I'm in a bad place mentally and need someone to talk to is what I'm saying. Anyone please

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My kid will probably not be able to see us (his parents) for his 21st birthday due to COVID and the fact that his school is in a different state (it borders our state) than where we live. What should I do to cheer him up? My kid is a junior in college (without a car on campus) and will probably not be able to see us (his parents) for his 21st birthday due to COVID. Usually, we celebrate his birthday a week later because his birthday is a week before his school goes on spring break. This year he has no spring break, or any break that he would usually come home for. He hasn’t had the best roommates when it comes to celebrating his birthday with him. Freshman yea he didn’t have a roommate 2nd semester. Sophomore year he had a roommate who was controlling and didn’t let him watch tv on his (roommates) tv at all and had to be quiet after 8:00 pm. He (roommate) said it was due to medical issues but I don’t believe that 100% because if he really needed it to be quiet after 8:00 pm he should have been living by himself. ​ What can I do to make him feel better on his birthday? His school does nothing for birthdays. Every time I talk to him about it he starts to tear up and either leaves the room or changes the subject. For the past two years I sent him balloons and chocolates from this local place near his school. I'm not sure if I can do that this year because of COVID. I think I will be able to but I'm not sure.

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I want to talk about suicide without it being a jokeRecently my MDD has kicked in again. Around Easter is always a shit time of year. I'm graduating college soon and I actually have my life mostly planned out, just not implemented yet. I still can't help but feel hopeless and like there's no point. I'm the kind of person that jokes about killing myself or wanting to die. Partially because I mean it and partially because I don't want to be some downer to people around me. My friends who know I've struggled with depression get a little worried about me, but not enough to do much, though I don't know what the hell they could do. The last time I openly admitted to wanting to kill myself, my psychiatrist (not counselor) had me admitted to a mental hospital, twice. My closest friend, who I also have a crush on (gay) is the person I want to talk to about this stuff the most, but I feel like he's tired of me. He's the RA of my residence hall and if I'm honest with him about suicide, without just joking, he'd mandated to report it and it's back to the hospital with me. Which I can't do right now because I need to finish my degree and it doesn't help that much anyway. Don't know why I decided to post on here. Just did. I'm meeting with my psychiatrist tomorrow to talk about switching up meds, but I feel like I can't be honest with her about how I feel.

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For all LGBTQ people I made art against homophobic Karens and Kyles It's called I wear my mask with pride https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Tglkss-c8tjk0d0bR-56Djl1C0hr43GV/view?usp=drivesdk

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Suicide watch after a DUI arrest.I was referred to this subreddit, and it is highly applicable. I don't mean to deflect, but I'm asking for a friend. He's a great guy, simply he carries a lot of baggage. Some context to the current question: My friend is a former member of the armed forces for the United States of America. His experience was difficult to accept, and it's taken a toll on him psychologically. He previously was an excellent athlete, and now centralizes his lifestyle around marijuana, nicotine and alcohol. We both attend a university in a "college town" and returned from our spring break yesterday afternoon. Last night, he drove with blood alcohol concentration over 0.2. I received a call this morning from his father asking me to ensure he doesn't act drastically. Legal action will be required promptly, and I fear that the absence of his vehicle (impounded) will allow him to dwell in his thoughts to a fault. He owns quite a few guns, and his stability is my primary concern. I am staying at his household overnight, and he had some friends stop by throughout the day, yet I do not foresee this being a long-term fix. He has acknowledged the circumstances in a constructive manner, yet becomes frustrated when grasping the consequences of his actions. In closing, he has great character, solely the baggage he carries weighs him down to the point that he wants to quit his continuation and he perceived his actions last night as justification. I told him he should not define himself by one night, and I was hoping to acquire some knowledge from anyone with personal experience to better provide encouragement. I appreciate your consideration.

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Got the best grade in my biology finals test Mom replied with “go do the dishes”

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You're bored, I'm bored, so why not join a modded Minecraft server? My friend wanted me to try and get some more people on his MC server, so here I am. The server has up to 60 slots at one time and is a modded server using the latest version of forge. There quite a few mods, but it doesn't take that long to set up (he has a drive link that has them all in one folder). Would anybody be interested? You can get the mods and server info for the server by joining a discord server. You can try the code posted below, but if that doesn't work - no worries. Joining isn't required, but it's there if you want it. **RULES** * The server is a factions/anarchy server, so things are pretty lax as far as rules go * NO BALE FIRE BOMBS. We have a nuclear warfare mod and for Pete's sake, please don't use the bale fire bomb. You probably won't get banned, but you may get some screams of panic when you see how vastly horrible it is * Profanity and stuff like that is pretty lax, but no racism or homophobia, transphobia, etc. Basically, don't be a dick. We have an in-game voice chat mod. Code: 7dtWKQ **MESSAGE ME IF YOU'RE INTERESTED!**

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Life is worthless when you have no oneI wish suicide was painless

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Thinking about itBeen suffering from RSI for quite some time now because I over practiced guitar for 1 fucking week. 1 week and my life is fucked. I’m either in pain or my hands are aching. Parents keep telling me “oh you’ll be fine it’s fine, just go back to college it’ll be okay” every time I somewhat suggest I really need serious help. Girlfriend does the same. She just tells me it’s gonna be alright/I’ll heal and gets upset when I’m down in the dumps. I just want my hands back. I want my life back. I swear to fucking god I’ll sell my amps/gear, buy a shotgun and blow my fucking brains out if I’m not better a year from today. I can’t take this shit. I can’t work, I can’t have my only passion. I can’t do anything anymore. Fuck everything. I want this to end.

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Happy Pi Day! Thats it

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Anyone in East Sussex help me?This is probably a really stupid thing to do because anyone could reply but I'm desperate for some support. A friend. Someone to fucking cry too. Tonight is the closest I've ever come to killing myself. I just want to cry to someone. I have a shitty living situation and I can't fucking take this shit anymore.

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Stop itI KNOW I have a "good" life. I KNOW I'm blessed with the things in my life. I KNOW the people around me care. I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW but, it doesn't stop my brain from continuing to implode.

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Im so bored ffs dm me if u wanna Im in class rn so yeah bored af and we can chat about anything idc

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My birthday is at April 12th mark it in your calendar kids

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Eventually I will have to commit suicideBasically my story is about Body dysmoprphia and physical health problems I am a 23 year old guy, 5 years ago if you asked me, I would never see myself talking like this and being a complainer but everyone have their own different situations and problems I have a unique physical problem with proportions of my body, a problem I didn't have before I was 18. Now I am 23. For 5 years and counting I can't move that freely, my back and hamstrings are always sore from doing normal things. The problem is not only physical but it changed the way my body looks so I have developed severe social anxiety. I feel I look too wierd because of how my femur bone(thighs) look. Before this I was a decent and good looking guy I don't see myself getting married and even living an average life because my health gets in the way. I couldn't go to college because of this and this doesn't qualify as a disablity but sure feels like it. I work night shift as a security guard, with almost no human interaction. So right now I am living with my parents, it's the culture. They also cry when they see their son like this. Only reason I am still alive is because of them. I seriously want to live this life and get better but I don't find any solution for my problem. Eventually loneliness and repeated cycle of pain will lead me to suicide.

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Love you so much I wish I could W ha

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What do you do when the suicide prevention hotline doesn't think you're worth talking to?Thanks to them, I feel worse than before. Maybe if I shot myself while on the line with them. Maybe then they'd take me seriously.

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Train to Busan: Peninsula or Disney's Mulan? I've watched the first Train to Busan and the animated Mulan so I'm not sure which movie to pick hmm

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Typing something out before I sleepMan, the day was stressful. I really find myself scared of what I do feeling that. I can take a shower and feel flabbergasted that such actions could've existed. I don't know what happens when people get older. They join causes. They become activists. They become conspiracy theorists. It happens to ALL OF THEM! They all think they're living works of fiction. Listen to them TALK! It's not that fiction imitates reality. It's that people imitate fiction. Maybe, though, you'll ask them "what's realistic about movies" and they'll say "NOTHING!" Okay, so why are they all afraid that "reality is movies?" How is Rugrats "worse for kids" than an R-rated movie or a porno? Hell if I know. The topless beach I was once taken to remains my worst enemy. Just a few hours there twenty years ago and what are people MOST hyperbolic about? Sex. Can't they talk normally? Each time I'm asked about "topless beaches," I know what to expect. They sure have it wrong when I don't want to deal with their obsessions over "lady nipples not being acceptable in this nation." When people get older, at least here, they start to complain about this nation. They cry about "the better cultures." I sure HAVE been told "I've been sympathetic toward the enemy" for saying that "I don't care." They have existential crises about whatever corporations get to be trendy. Apparently, they lose their childhood happiness. I wasn't the kind of kid who was going to discover PBS on my own. Turned out that when kids got older and "PBS was for babies," I couldn't recite jack shit from those shows. Being a toddler, I had hated people associating me with those shows. People my age are fixated on nostalgia. I don't feel any nostalgia. When people got older and they had gained political views, I couldn't take part in that. Of course, I couldn't. When I had been a child, some things were far better than cartoons had been. It didn't mean they were good, but that didn't stop people from referring to me as a boy genius. On top of all this, I have family that doesn't treat me well. Each day, I put on the act and I'm sure visibly distressed. I don't want to deal with each day. Everything is nothing. Nothing is anything. That's not philosophy. This gives me an inability to truly feel hatred or to understand everyone having "morality" fits. I'm always observing this humanity zoo. I'm never wanting to live.

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i want a bf that wears a skirt but sadly that'll probably never happen for a whollee bunch of reasons and whatever mostly because a lot of them aren't straight

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Anyone else...? Does anyone else have anxiety attacks here? I haven’t met someone who also has them. It’s always night when they happen, so my bf and my friends are asleep. I’ve tried the 5-4-3-2-1 thing and the finger tricks but nothing works. I’ve lit candles and put scents around but nothing works. Any other ideas..?

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Final postIf anyone wants to talk or something before it’s too late

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Looking for Group Therapy EnvironmentI know about EA and haven't necessarily ruled that out as an option, I just wanted to know if there were any non-"Let go and let God" alternatives to comparable group therapy, just people talking. It's not even entirely for my sake or some overwhelming desire to share my story and experiences. Sometimes I like to just listen to other people rant, and there's no better feeling in the world, to me, than when I get to help them. EA's probably the only non-structured option, but any advice would be appreciated. In the Hartford, CT area, by the way.

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I need some help y’all Ok so basically, I have been dating this girl for about 8 months and for the past maybe month? She has been texting me on and off for the week. Like most recently she randomly stopped texting me about 3 days ago and hasn’t responded since then and I’m starting to feel like I’m pretty much single again. She mentioned her phone was broken which is believable because it is a few years old I think so I have no reason not to trust her there but like, am I just being paranoid or what?

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so i got my dick stuck in the xbox 360 disc drive again what should i do? also i used super glue as lube so now it's really stuck well i guess that's my punishment for fucking my xbox 360

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Day 9 Day 9 of doing 100 push ups every day until she likes me back. I can’t really express it in words but I can’t wait until she knows what she means to me. No stress tho, I can wait. In the mean time I’ll get some push ups in :)

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I hate having empathetic friends. Letting myself be me is inherently harmful for them, but they're so nice. And I keep using them as an therapist and dropping all my problems in their DMs. Why am I such a piece of shit. And how understanding they are forces me to drop my mask, and all the parts of my personality I hate shine through. Fuck

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A girl told me she had a crush on me a while back Waiting for her to ask me out, only for me to reject her since I'm gay. That would be funny I think.

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Chambered.Some days I feel like dying, some I feel like I'm doing it all right, and somedays I just wish I could start over, it comes in randomly. I had no easy childhood, a father who left when I was born, a bipolar alcoholic mother with ptsd who constantly made attempt on her own life, and a stepfather who didn't know how to deal with my mother which made him constantly angry. I was beaten, yelled at, locked in my room, had my thoughts and opinions constantly invalidated, my babysitter(an ex of my moms) molested me, my brother did on a few occasions as well, I've suffered from depression and self hate my whole life, I've hurt myself a lot through various means and tried to kill myself on multiple occasions to no avail. I can't have a relationship to save my life because my examples of love and compassion were so fucked up. I try and try to fix what damage has been done to me. I've tried everything I can imagine, meds, therapy, meditation, drugs, ignoring it, pretending everything will work out, and I still feel lost and isolated. I don't want to die I just want to be OK and feel something other than pain and hate. I love someone and I can't tell them because if they know what I deal with it will just bring them down. I've spent so long being lost, and isolated, trying to fix myself and the damage that's been done to me, I'm so tired I just want to sleep, to close my eyes and dream forever. I'm sitting on the edge of my bed. In front of me is my mirror and miscellaneous Items that I keep there, keys, wallet, change jar, random knickknacks, stereo, and this time the other 7 rounds from my gun. After all, all I need is this one in the chamber.

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Do y’all remember that old dude? I haven’t seen him in a while. Do y’all know his name? He would comment on posts saying “Nice Post -whatever name, age 72” It was something like that. Is he ok? I haven’t seen him leave a comment in a long time.

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I may be suicidal but I'm not depressedI've not been diagnosed with depression or anxiety, and I'm also not actively trying to kill myself. I just think that life isn't as precious as other people make it out to be, and that sometimes death sounds really appealing. I'm agnostic so I don't believe in any specific afterlife but honestly, most things sound better than living with emotions and expectations that I'll never be able to fulfil. I'm not trying to kill myself bc I have no reason to right now, but I also don't have a reason to live either, you feel?

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Closet gay colleague at work fell in love with me and is treating to commit suicideI am not sure this is the right sub-reddit to post it to. I do not know what to do at this stage and I hope this helps somehow. Apologies for the long post. I had started working at a company where I [30M] met K [30M]. We soon were best buddies and after a couple of months he confessed he was gay. Now, he is not the type of guy you would suspect he is gay. In fact, he is not out and he tries his best to keep it a secret. This is the source of a lot of frustration and stress in his life. A thing which most people will attribute to him being a shy person. Furthermore,hHe has never had a relationship and I am the only guy who knows. He has his personal issues why he doesn't want to come out but mostly it is because he is not attracted to the type of guys you see in LGBT parades. However, I did manage to convince him to seek professional help which he still is continuing on getting. Honestly, when he first told me about his secret, I tried my best to be laid back about it. I continued to treat him as I would treat any best friend. Admittedly, I may have crossed the line occasionally by commenting 'love you' or 'xx'. I guess, from him end he was interpreting this as being more than just friends. However, I (naively) saw nothing wrong in that. Thing is he does not believe that my intentions were honest and that I was never interested in him. Because of this, we have been constantly fighting and it has come to a point were I cannot mention my SO. He stopped going out with his friends and I am the only friend he goes out with. Whilst I enjoy his company, many times it feels like I have to take him out because he is so lonely. This is something I had always discouraged but was always helpless in avoiding. He is now treating to kill himself because he wants to see me since we are not meeting often. He always had suicidal thoughts but he is treating to do it since he has lost all the reason to live for since he does not have me any longer in his life. I am mortified because on one hand I wish to help him but on the other hand I know that I AM the problem. On one hand I wish to keep him in my life, but on the other hand I know that our friendship cannot go any longer like this. One thing I failed to mention is that I have never spoke to my SO about this and this is also having serious repercussions on my conscience. I feel guilty because I am keeping such a secret from her but on the other hand I cannot break my promise to my friend. I honestly do not know what to do. Did I do something wrong? Any helpful suggestions will be greatly appreciated. Thanks **TL;DR** Closet gay colleague at work fell in love with me and is threatening to commit suicide

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Some females are just assholes. Some females in my class kept through notes at me. That said I love you will you date me. I know there jokes but it's just annoying Im trying to learn and I have paper thrown at me

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Frustration and stress Is Taking a toll on my MentalityIdk If This Is normal for A kid but Sometimes Frustration Makes Me cry or even Scratch myself To the Point where I literally Say to myself "My life Is A living hell" It does some Damage to my mentality

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Honestly, for the past week, I've been thinking of nothing but suicideI take my medication and I see my therapist tomorrow, but these thoughts just keep coming. While at work, all I can think of is wanting to go home and just hang myself. When I'm at home, I thinking of tying my bedsheets into a noose and ending it. I was doing fine for a while, but it's like all my progressive just hit reverse. I'm so tired and I just wish I had the courage to go through with it.

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Day 7 of posting until I get hugged 😔✌✨ I'm like really good at procrastinating Like seriously I think I am better than all of you and I don't even feel bad about it

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Welp then... fillerfillerfillerfiller Guess I'll spew my meaningless trash here until I can post in r/memes. Ah the disadvantages of starting a new account...

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how to tret frogge? ich been treting my frogge for þe paste 2 weekes, and frogge hit not happi wiþ me. since þyne year ist 1202, ich hop my frogge not escayp me.

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I am so fucking pissed off it makes me want to finally kill myself.No body cares about me. I have no friends that give a fuck about me, nobody wants to put in any effort to spend time with me or make me feel special--and of course living this way my entire life comes crashing down on me and pisses me the fuck off sometimes. But I can't say shit about it because all that would do is drive people away, so I'm forced to just keep everything inside and hide it the best I can and pretend that I'm somewhat emotionally stable and friendly. It makes me want to kill myself, I've already been suicidal for so long because I'm such a fucking loser in life, at least now I realize the rest of the world sucks and hates me and sees me as disposable as much as I do.

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No titleEverytime I think I am starting to do better, I immediately hit rock bottom. I can’t help but feel like I have gone way past my expiration date and its only a matter of time now. I am not the type of person who is cut out for living, full of panic, anxiety and extreme suicidal thoughts. Nothing is worth it, nothing is going to change. It never has, and everything is only getting worse.

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Puberty moment. I recently started getting a lot more hair on my body, especially on my chest. I feel more manly now.

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People tell me I look disabledWhen I used to go on Facebook, I made my account public and someone commented that I was retarded and a spaz constantly. I thought my disability was invisible. I just want to be one of those beautiful autistic people who doesn't look disabled in pictures, I want to be told "but there's nothing wrong with you" when I tell them I'm autistic, but instead I have people pointing out that I do look disabled before I mention that I am. Having a visible disability is embarrassing and I never want to leave the house again. Especially since most high functioning autistic girls look LESS disabled than neurotypical girls and I am on the low functioning end disappointed how I could have ended up modelling if my autism was mild. I have never been told that I don't look disabled. My disability is VISIBLE. I literally have a different face and body shape. On top of that, my grammar is so poor and my IQ is so low that even if I had the body shape of a mildly autistic woman, I would still get called retard if they talked to me. I don't have the empathy to understand why people are upset about people telling them they don't look disabled. It's a COMPLIMENT to me. It's telling me that I am normal looking and I am not retarded. Honestly why do people want to be told they look disabled? I'd rather just be told that I am too beautiful and intelligent to be disabled and not get any help whatsoever than be called retarded. Sorry for the disgusting, narcissistic rant, I am unable to feel empathy and I would rather be dead than people recognising I am disabled just by looking at me. Sorry for the terrible English, I have low functioning autism.

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I have important news man(nothing too special saying man is the american version of mate.

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I CAME OUT TO MY DAD AND MY MOM AS TRANSGENDER AND THEY ACCEPTED ME! I also opened up to them about my depression which I've been struggling with for a long while, and they agreed to get me a therapist!!! I really thought they would hate me, I'm so happy!!!! My mom even asked me if I wanted to get a binder online, or if there was anything she could help with. Didn't change much for my brother tho- because we were always kinda 'bros'. ​ But then my alarm clock kinda rang and I woke up.

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adopt mepls

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How do I overcome my demons? I am at the brink of breaking down,the expectations my family and friends have for me,the words I have said,the things I’ve done,the lies I have said to make them happy,It’s all taking a toll on me these past few years,I want to make them all happy but the more I try the more I fail,I gave up my hobbies and passion to appease them,to show them I have matured and I can be relied on,yet nothing,they hate me for not meeting their expectations,I have nothing to cope with,I have no one to come and talk to.How do I overcome this situation? How do I get out from here? How? I’m all out of things I can do.

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It's so fucking hard to walk down the street and have nobody looking at me. Like people's dogs running towards me and people sitting outside staring towards me. I'm so fucking ugly bruh it makes my anxiety go up so fucking bad. Filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler

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I don’t know what to do anymoreI’m truly lost here. I’m a 27 year old Dad with 2 kids. I’m married, but I’m not sure for how much longer. Tonight was the breaking point. I don’t even know what happened. My wife found out I followed some cosplay (let’s be honest, lewd) models on Instagram and freaked out on me. She blew up. Threw everything within arms reach at me, including a terra-cotta pot filled with a cactus and a sharpening steel. The steel missed me and went through the tempered glass door. This was all in front of my kids. She left and I have no idea where she went. I feel like a fucking failure. She’s right. I am a piece of shit. Honestly the only reason I still had a family was because of my paycheck. If my boys weren’t sleeping in their room right now, I’d just call it quits and end it. I need fucking help.

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Answer honestly How are you doing rn? Is there anything bothering you? Has anything good happened to you this week or year.?

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I am sad Someone just made a post that was bubble wrap but it got deleted where did it go I was having fun ;-;

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How to confess feelings to crush? How do I even get their number?

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Anybody have a list of people of who they would date or have sex with? I do. Some people I see are like, "yeah rather fuck her than date her" and vise versa. Very odd but its true.

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Numbness in arm after suicide?My friend slit her wrist and is now suffering numbness in arm. I’m not sure if this is the right place to ask but are there any rehabilitation exercises for her to do? It’s her dorminant arm by the way.

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need to get this out i once again realized what a loner I am, at work i had a conversation with a girl for a while and it was the first real conversation (something longer than a few sentences) with someone my age in like more than a year. i got no friends and am always alone outside school. at first it didn't bother me now i wanna fckinfmg cry, i hate being alone, i feel like I'm caged in a weird way. i just can't really express how i feel. i hate my life for real

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why does anomg us keep blacking out when im on discord call i honestly dont understand, at first i thought it was lag but later i realized it wasnt. so it has to be on discord

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GUYS I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE IT GOOGLE DRIVES TRASH HAS CHANGED. ITEMS WILL BE AUTOMATICALLY DELETED FOREVER AFTER THEY'VE BEEN IN YOUR TRASH FOR 30 DAYS!

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I haven't eaten near anything today and I'm so proudI'm so proud In a fucked up way. I want to feel lighter and I want to feel my head hurt. I've had such a bad time recently and such a bad time in living. Today was another bad day. But a plain shitty day. I don't know what I can do. I don't really want to do anything. I just want to put something in writing and have someone see this who won't be able to send me to a hospital or a psychologist. I don't want help for the moment. I just want to survive till I'm eighteen and cam leave this shitty life behind

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For many years nowI have occasionally had suicidal feelings. Any time you want to do kill yourself, wait 24 hours 1st. It may pass. Do not forget that most who try and fail find new reasons to live. I do not really know why I started to post here... I know recently I feel like killing myself again. But I will not. I have responsibilities.

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Press space bar in midair to double jump *note: you need to have the “lightweight” skill for this to work

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21 year old NEET with several issues.I am a 21 year old male. I struggle with depression, social anxiety, low self-esteem, daily suicidal thoughts. I am financially dependent on my parents. I don't have a job or go to school. I don't have many friends. Never had a girlfriend. My family doesn't love me. I hate feeling worthless and unwanted. I hate feeling like a disgrace. I know what my dad says about me. I fucked up my driving test because I got too nervous. I fucked up my job interviews. Now I'm too scared to even apply anymore. I should've asked for help before my issues got this worse. I struggle even talking to my parents because I know they'll pass it off. They always have whenever I had a problem. Everything I do I fuck up. I hate feeling rejected. I hate waking up everyday feeling like I'm nothing. I always wished I had never been born when I was a kid. Now, I just want to end it.

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I Made a 90's Sad Hip-hop Playlist Ayy this Playlist is Short i want to make Volumes of Playlist's, a normal one will have the duration of a normal album (1hr) so if you like Please follow the Playlist Thanks SAD HIP-HOP PLAYLIST VOL.1 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/70d9lujZJEBNKBqiyGC8d9?si=ZLRxpMfKSneP_NpNZ5oihg&utm_source=native-share-menu

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I'm going to kill myselfI've simply had enough. I'm done, I don't want to live anymore, the effort doesn't seem worth it to continue living. Ive already tried twice with no success a few years ago it got better for about 3 months after 6 years of depression and then it just got worse again. I'm just done. My 3 best friends are the only thing keeping me here but it takes too much effort getting out of bed and living life and after all these years trying to change things up changing some routines nothing worked, therapy didn't help, Nothing has and I kept hearing the same shit I knew didn't do anything, working out didn't help going for walks all that shit everyone who is depressed or suicidal hears from everyone, I've just about seen enough of this world and I hate it here.

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Alt for personal reasons I can’t tell if I’m pissing my friend off or they’re just genuinely busy. The lines so blurred I can’t tell if anyone cares about me anymore. I just wanna relapse or end it all so I can feel something.

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I feel so unconnectedMy family is Christian and sense the event of my kidnapping and rape story happened I have been depressed and I became an atheist. I learned to see visually and not faithfully. So now I stand here wondering to myself, "God I am nothing to you, you let me fall down then stand back up only to fall down yet again!" If he wanted me around then why did my mother birth a ungratful child? I hate God for what he has done to me and I can't forgive.... but this to me is more then relooks beliefs it is because ever sense the event happened to me I've become someone I don't recognize, I could be a totally new human being. I feel so unconnected from God and from my family and from myself...

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Happy makar sankranti I know many will not know about this festival Its a festival we celebrate in india on either 14 or 15 january according to the hindu calendar

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Why the fuck will minecraft optifine not install Java SE binary just won't start this is fucking stupid

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I’m gonna try again soon..I’m so tired of everything

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Guys please help me I have been searching for a song for 2 days now and I need to find it. Linus tech tips licensed it for one of the keyboard building videos and it is a popular orchestra song with a lot of violins in it usually used in weddings/ happy moments

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IdkHonestly wanna end it all due to fact that I’m all by myself in a shitty studio at a dead end job and nowhere to go in fucking 19 and honestly I can’t live with myself loneliness is a bitch sometimes

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n gkrd;mdgjgmdm;After a year of playing musical therapists and my medication making my depression worse there is no motivation for me to get better, I am just waiting for the day I am no onger scared of death. I am too far gone to be happy or lead a fufilling life, the ony future I see for myself is as a kermit or as a corpse. I have too many problems to count; severe depression, crippling anxiety a complete lack of social skills, no human interaction outside of my family, weight problems, no motivation to take care of myself, a terribly overactive sex drive, no way to verbally comunicate my problems, and confusion about my gender. I was never meant to live this long, nobody was able to help. All three of my therapists cared very little about my actual progress, I know how hard it is to care about every single patient, and it's not like I was of much use not being able to talk about anything. I don't want help anymore, or rather I don't expect help anymore. I assume that some people are beyond saving.

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Im selling my kidney Apple released a new iPhone. So I have a kidney. Any takers?

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My cat died todayHe was 21 years old. I've known him my whole life. And even though I know that he's had a long and happy life filled with love and affection, I can't stop thinking about him. I've been through so many tough times and he was the only thing that was always with me and never left me alone. Now I don't have anyone. No friends and no family that I can rely on. I just don't know what to do, nothing seems real anymore.

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guys my crush voluntarily sat next to me today, like we were told to move around and she chose meeeee :)))) LESSS GOOOOOOO pls tell me we’re not just friends, it was the best thing that’s happened to me this year without doubt, she came over to me and sat next to me on the same chair as me, that’s gotta be flirtatious right? surely it is, i really hope it is

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If you ask me what I’m doing The answer will be drawing hentai.

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wtfI called the suicide hotline and it connected me to some veteran service and I was so embarrassed the dude didn’t even know how to help me I might actually kill myself

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happy birthday it's not ur birthday unless it is. there is a slight chance that someone is reading this post on their birthday so if that's the case happy birthday. if it's not ur birthday you shouldn't be reading this and i am coming for you

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I might just give up. Hey it’s really hard to live. I didn’t think this could happen but all it took was a predator to break my world. I’ve talked to tons of people and some of them were wise and helpful. But right now, I think it doesn’t matter if it’s really great in the future, right now it is really really hard. I don’t think it could be worth it. The things that usually inspire me to keep going aren’t working anymore. It’s strange but everyone that is usually smart and makes me feel better seems ignorant and just unhelpful. Throughout my life I’ve always been told that you have to try and hope. But I just don’t care to anymore. I don’t care if I let the predators win by dying. I don’t care if people think it was dumb of me to give up. I’m not strong enough. I’ll try to talk to my friends in person but if that doesn’t help uh well I don’t what I’ll do but I’m really thinking about killing myself so yeah.

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Fuck you Sean He hasn't been replying my messages, he doesn't even see them, he probably blocked me or deleted Whatsapp but Idk fuck you Sean.

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What friendship for :)I've a friend. I used to think that she was the one that I could put my trust. I trust and love her. She also said she loved me. And I always told her everything. She know about how suicidal I am. And how my family is. But she never cares. Even the simple "are you ok?" from her, is hard to hear. I always the one, who asks her, when the things go down for her. And what to expect? She never cares to ask. And now, she treat me like stranger. It hurts so much. Friendship never works for me :) never thought that i will post here

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