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blog30407 | Today we have to take the truck back, sometime before noon. If we are smart, we will stop at the grocery store also, because we're a little low on food. | blog |
blog30407 | The floor is levelled, so now I have to scrape off the ridges and prime it again. That will take 2-3 hours. Then I can start laying tile. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm going to buy the rest of the tiles today, but I'm not sure if I will finish the job. My hands are the most sore, I doubt I can work the utility knife well enough. | blog |
blog30407 | I wish I knew what caused it. There wasn't any change in my life or lifestyle that I could attribute it to, I supposed it was just some sort of random hormonal fluctuation. | blog |
blog30407 | It was 68 calories, not a huge amount. I also want to make sure I lift weights more often this month. | blog |
blog30407 | And now for some bad news: we just got a Stop Work on that CoM project. The one I was counting on for some hours this month. That means another month with no paycheck, and our vacation coming up, which means that's the end of our nest egg. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm going to finish my glass of water, then go make myself a delicious martini, and sit down and enjoy it without guilt. And then I really really need a shower. Can I start subtracting my exercise calories from those I ate? | blog |
blog30407 | I emailed it to Daisy, in case she has time to look at it, and I will send it out whenever the weather is better (no mail). I really want him to get "first crack" at my stuff before I end up taking it to the E. G. That 50-50 split is not going to work. | blog |
blog30407 | I've committed to doing this dieting thing for two months. And I'm concerned that eight weeks of effort is only going to get me a small weight loss, like five or six pounds. | blog |
blog30407 | I suspect I am overestimating the pork chops, because they are quite small, but then again, probably I miss a few other calories here and there, so perhaps it all evens out. Anyway, I don't like to be this far in my calories when I'm having a major snack-desiring day. Must drink a LOT of water! | blog |
blog30407 | 11:34 a.m. Little snack of carrot and pistachios. Also made some hummus. Not sure what a serving would be. I'm thinking about three tablespoons, which is sufficient for a sandwich or to dip carrots in. So I'll estimate that as about 1.5 ounces: | blog |
blog30407 | 6:47 p.m. Wow. For some reason I really pigged out at dinner. Ate about twice as much as I intended, and I'm really full. | blog |
blog30407 | Without the delicious texture of the almonds, cheap chocolate tastes pretty crappy. Not that it stopped me from eating it. But next time, whenever next time is, I'd be better off to buy a good quality Lindt or Tobler or something, and have Bucko bring me back 2 ounces a week. | blog |
blog30407 | I've put these in two groups, but they're all worth watching. Where it was convenient to do so, I've listed some dates and actors and such, but haven't invested the time to do it really thoroughly -- IMDB does it better than I can. And I'm not writing giant reviews or analyses, just a sentence or two about why I like it. Maybe give you some ideas for the next time you're trying to pick something out at Blockbuster. | blog |
blog30407 | And did I mention it's snowing? AGAIN. | blog |
blog30407 | I have to do some work today (feh) but I hope to work in another 15 minutes of glider. We'll see, that might not be realistic. | blog |
blog30407 | 8:33 a.m. So far so good. | blog |
blog30407 | Feel okay today, considering I had red wine and wasabi peas last night. Took half an actifed and half a melatonin so I would sleep better, and I think it worked. It was a little hard getting up, but I feel fine now. | blog |
blog30407 | It cost three dollars, and all I had was quarters. So I started feeding them into Number 5, my spot. And for some bizarre reason, probably because my brain was all the way filled up with the logistics of driving someplace by myself, I didn't seem to think it was necessary to make sure I put in the exact three dollars. I just put in SOME amount, which could have been three dollars, but might just as easily have been $1.75. | blog |
blog30407 | One thing I am not sad to leave is the constant attention. I guess some people love that, but it's driving me crazy to have all this chair holding and napkin fluffing. Maybe it's more noticeable because the hotel is so empty, they don't have anything to do except wait on us. | blog |
blog30407 | I feel pretty good today. Had a solid eight hours sleep. Took an actifed last night to counter the effects of Daisy's cats, and of course that always makes me sleep. | blog |
blog30407 | 3:09 p.m. I made new sugar this afternoon and sugared my legs. I tried Marella's suggestion of spreading it on the cloth, not on my skin, and it worked pretty well. Next time, I will try spreading it while hotter (and thinner), letting it cool a bit and then putting it on my legs. | blog |
blog30407 | Also I see I have room for one or two glasses of wine, which would be nice. Overall a pretty good day. | blog |
blog30407 | 8:25 a.m. Put in another 15 minutes, I think that's all I can handle today. | blog |
blog30407 | 9:43 a.m. Did a few minutes of lifting small weights before gliding. whoo hoo! 55 minutes on the glider, not bad. | blog |
blog30407 | Romantic comedy about a female impersonator. This movie is FUNNY, warm, and beautifully crafted. The Art Deco furnishings are to die for. The story is great, the singing/dancing numbers are fantastic (and I do not like musicals), the characters are wonderful, from the major players to the tiniest two-minute roles -- even Alex Karras is good in this movie, and Leslie Ann Warren is nothing short of brilliant in an important supporting role. I love to watch this movie when I'm feeling blue, because it always makes me feel cozy and happy. | blog |
blog30407 | I filled out my chart before I ate dinner, with approximations of amount that I could finalize after the meal. But I hadn't taken into account the gorgonzola sauce or the black bean salad, and definitely not the drinks. | blog |
blog30407 | What a good boy. However, as soon as he left, I was on the verge of crying again, so I left as soon as I could, and sat in my car for a while. | blog |
blog30407 | 7:31 a.m. Sunday, Day 90. Feeling good today. I pretty much slept right through. | blog |
blog30407 | That's something that usually happens when I GAIN weight. Why is it happening now? | blog |
blog30407 | 6:37 a.m. Wednesday morning. Feeling pretty good, considering I am about four hours short on sleep. I'm trying to get back on normal schedule after all the travel and time difference. | blog |
blog30407 | I ALMOST ate the little bag of chips. Took it out of the pantry and looked at the label -- 260 calories. Not a good deal. Impressed that I was able to resist. I guess I'm going to make chicken for dinner. | blog |
blog30407 | Need to eat more vegetables. Now look at Tuesday. | blog |
blog30407 | Making my own southwestern chicken soup this afternoon. There are five of my standard bowls in the whole batch, so that would be, per serving: 1 bowl homemade soup: 171 calories; 9 grams protein; 129.4 carbs; 2.9 fat; 4.4 fiber. | blog |
blog30407 | I guess I'm still feeling a bit squirrely, since I'm writing a bunch of nothing in here. Still nervous about not having lost any weight. I'm so scared that I CAN'T lose weight. I understand I have to be patient, that it will take a while to be measurable, but I really need some kind of proof, something to keep me going. | blog |
blog30407 | 9:42 a.m. Tick tick tick. | blog |
blog30407 | Snorkeling is PERFECT. It's the most wonderful thing I've ever done. It's indescribable, so I won't even try. Now we will walk to the restaurant to have a drink while waiting for the next boat into town. | blog |
blog30407 | I just realized there's only 15 days left in my Two Month trial period. Now that I've had a taste of the scale at Daisy's, I wish I knew my exact starting weight. | blog |
blog30407 | She was very doubtful when I told her. So perhaps I don't seem as fat to other people as to myself. | blog |
blog30407 | 1:26 p.m. Just did 32 minutes of the belly dance tape. Which is only halfway through, but that's about what I could handle. Not just because it's hard, also it's complicated -- the steps become difficult at that point. Anyway, got a hell of a workout. My stomach is killing me! | blog |
blog30407 | I would like to say that I LOVE Johnny Depp. I love his roles, too. They're always a bit outre. | blog |
blog30407 | 6:48 p.m. No, homeowner projects are NOT fun. We found an area of completely rotten floorboard. It's like dust. | blog |
blog30407 | The exceptions have become the rule. So weight loss or not, it's time to be eating higher quality food. | blog |
blog30407 | Now I'm going to get a nice book from upstairs, assuming I can get up the stairs, and sit with frozen peas on my knees. Ah, I am a poet. | blog |
blog30407 | I can't even imagine doing something like that. At my fittest, I would never have attempted it. On the other hand, I don't know when my "fittest" was. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm deliberately creating in myself the same eating disorder that other people spend years of therapy trying to remove. Gah. | blog |
blog30407 | It's like there must be some government grant money that came out this year. Well, more likely it's different networks trying to cash in on the success of Dr. Phil's whatever program. I just don't like the overemphasis. | blog |
blog30407 | So I'm not going to be too hard on myself; you need fuel to do that kind of physical activity. Muffins aren't the best choice of fuel, but that's what's available in the supermarket at 8 in the morning. So, I'll "forgive" myself and move on. | blog |
blog30407 | No headache, which doesn't bode well for the seltzer water. That is so damned disappointing, because I really like that stuff and it helps me drink enough water. | blog |
blog30407 | Tomorrow I'll look in the Netzer book. So far it's looking good even considering the rib, because I haven't snacked on anything today. | blog |
blog30407 | For some reason, when I woke up today I immediately walked into the closet, in a hypnotized-robot-like trance, before I even peed or anything, and tried on the Measurement Shorts. I pulled them on, zipped 'em up, buttoned 'em. Just like that. | blog |
blog30407 | Daisy asked me that, and I wasn't sure I had an answer. I realize it's several things, in no particular order: | blog |
blog30407 | So run out to the video store right now! I just can't wait until you've seen these! | blog |
blog30407 | My pants almost fell off me yesterday. As in, almost slid down my stomach, past my hips and butt, and onto the floor. | blog |
blog30407 | Am I simply not eating enough, and my body is very strongly urging me to have some food? And if so, which of us is right, me or the body? | blog |
blog30407 | DIYGlobalSolutions tells me 2101. The Calorie Control Council says 2796. | blog |
blog30407 | I've been writing in it continuously since 7:16 this morning (it's now 8:43) with only tiny breaks to eat my soup and pee. And surf weight-loss sites. | blog |
blog30407 | OK, I'm going to have vodka and soda. One of those is 65 calories, so I can afford to drink a couple. | blog |
blog30407 | So this week, I want to do two things. One, get on the ball with the water drinking. | blog |
blog30407 | And that's what we did, but it was still very expensive (dinner about $25 each) in restaurants, and there was not much variety in the food. Grilled fish, beef, or chicken. French fries. Bread and butter. | blog |
blog30407 | Tuna, catfish, and shrimp. Also more chicken, of course, and tons of vegetables, fresh, frozen, and canned. I am still craving sweets; it was very difficult to pass them up at the grocery store. Haven't had anything sweet for two weeks, why is it hitting me | blog |
blog30407 | It hardly ever snows here, and every single time I end up having to go out in it. Today, gonna stay home and be cozy. | blog |
blog30407 | But when you're a fat girl, it comes with the territory. You develop the attitude as a REACTION to rejection, not a preventor of rejection. And I understand the idea of not knowing how to act like a girl. | blog |
blog30407 | 2:27 p.m. It's really weird not working out today. I didn't do the yoga, and it's made me feel a bit rootless all day. | blog |
blog30407 | Which is apparently the healthier way to eat, anyway. You don't feel deprived because you're eating frequently, and the small meals eaten often keep your metabolism up. | blog |
blog30407 | We ordered a shrimp and cheese dip with croutons or whatever, and it was DELICIOUS and I only ate 4 pieces of bread. We left half of it on the plate. Oh my god, I can't believe I did that. Because it was filled with delicious greasy rich goodness and I wanted to eat it ALL. | blog |
blog30407 | When I started this, I was very rigid about how much I ate, and I drank a lot of water to push away hunger and bored-stomach. Then I added a little more food, because I didn't want to starve myself and slow down my metabolism, so I started having an apple in the morning, and a little something in the afternoon. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm looking back over my previous entries, and I see that I didn't notice any change until Day Ten. That's when I felt pretty sure I had lost some weight, because of the Measurement Pants. | blog |
blog30407 | I mean, I WANTED Pringles and Crunch 'n Munch, but I just couldn't stand the idea of eating 600 calories in one little snack. So I got a WW dinner, and had just a FEW of the delicious taquitos and ginger snaps. | blog |
blog30407 | I haven't tried them in a long time, and I figured I gained a bit over the holidays. Well, I figured WRONG. | blog |
blog30407 | 4:06 p.m. Weirdly, I'm thinking about Bob Hope's passing, and it makes me quite sad. It's the passing of an era, the greatest era of American history. | blog |
blog30407 | I feel really crappy this morning. Could barely get up. | blog |
blog30407 | Maybe I'll just be the anomaly. Maybe I'll be the person whose weight loss speeds up as they get going, instead of plateauing. | blog |
blog30407 | Drinking my sodium-free seltzer water, which is rather filling, or perhaps bloating is the right word. Whatever, as long as it keeps my mind off eating. | blog |
blog30407 | So anyway, I'm feeling pretty good, but I must say I want a further proof of weight loss. The Measurement Pants are too tricksy; I can't rely on them to be consistent. The ring is not bad, but I want more. I want to know that I am CONTINUING to lose weight. | blog |
blog30407 | Well, the first thing I see here is that I'm doing quite well. Secondly, the caloric cost of alcohol is too high. | blog |
blog30407 | I set the timer for an hour, and drank every time. Plus extra when I was exercising. Enough! | blog |
blog30407 | I don't have a huge amount of hours on that, but I think I ought to get maybe another 40 or 50 over the next month. That's a lot more than recently, so that's good. | blog |
blog30407 | 9:54 a.m. 50 minutes on the glider, and 415 calories. Watched half of Blue Crush. Not a bad movie - great music, great surfing shots. | blog |
blog30407 | Speaking of which, I have no idea what my employment status is. There's a rumor the office will be closed down this year. | blog |
blog30407 | I don't list everything individually, I combine the total ingredients into the calories for a serving. That doesn't mean I'm not doing it carefully and thoroughly. | blog |
blog30407 | 10:49 a.m. Okay, I'm filling out an application to University Temp Services. Let's keep our fingers crossed. I don't think I can get it sent today; I'm waiting for replies from a few people about whether I can use them as references. So hopefully tomorrow morning I can fax it in. | blog |
blog30407 | Because I still came in under oppw, and besides I had already decided that it was good to mix up the days. High, low, etc. So I'm doing my usual daily reading of wl blogs, and that helps. | blog |
blog30407 | I admit up front that I don't know enough detail about WLS to have an informed opinion about it. But I have a bunch of questions. | blog |
blog30407 | 6:30 p.m. Got in another few minutes gliding with the Bucko. Now I'm starving. I bought chicken wings, which I hope will satisfy my desire for succulent greasy food. I think so. | blog |
blog30407 | 1944. Directed by Howard Hawks, starring Humphrey Bogart and Lauren Bacall. | blog |
blog30407 | Once you've gotten to the acceptance part, you don't have to keep fighting the initial battle every day. During the denial, anger, and beginning of acceptance, it really is the same fight every day, over and over, and that must be where most people drop it. Because you just get so damned sick of dealing with it. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm going to avoid it today, and see how my head is tonight. If no headache, then I'll drink it again tomorrow and see if headache reappears. | blog |
blog30407 | I realized I need to be good and hydrated first, or it will be much less effective at burning calories. However, now my stomach is all full of water and I must wait a little while before I can exercise, and this is a day I need to get going early. Oh well, I will let everything else suffer and make sure I do my exercise well. Planning on watching Pirates of the Carribean while I glide. I don't have anything ready on tape. | blog |
blog30407 | Not just the lettuce, but the shrimp were a bargain too. 15 shrimp, 83 calories. That sounds too small, I'm going to check the book again. | blog |
blog30407 | Haven't eaten since lunch -- I wasn't hungry for my afternoon snack. I'm treating myself to a glass of wine (thinned with seltzer). | blog |
blog30407 | Not bored-hungry, but stomach-hurt, might-vomit, can't-keep-my-body-warm hungry. And it was delicious. | blog |
blog30407 | I imagine I'll be fine by next week. In good news, we're hearing that the CoM project should start up again any day. | blog |
blog30407 | 1. I want and need a valid indicator of progress. | blog |
blog30407 | And of course that didn't work, because of course I was HUNGRY in the evening. Duh. Just because something has a lot of calories doesn't mean it's filling. | blog |
blog30407 | 9:00 a.m. Ate breakfast in the hotel, a buffet. We ate a lot because we don't anticipate having lunch what with the travel schedule. Must leave the hotel at 10 a.m. for the 11:50 flight to Bora Bora. Just learned the "B" is pronounced somewhat like | blog |
blog30407 | That means I'm at 10,032 before eating anything Sunday, which means I still have almost 3,000 calories left just for today (for oppw). I'm over tppw by 911 calories. | blog |
blog30407 | So far so good. It's 1:22 p.m. of Day One, and so far have kept to the plan. Yep. Got several hours under my belt here. | blog |
blog30407 | It's the first football game I've watched in probably 20 years. Not bad, it was actually interesting. I think it's because the photography is so much better. You can really see what happens, and the replays are great. I suppose regular games don't have so many cameras working, though. | blog |
blog30407 | I can't wear them anymore. Hee. | blog |