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blog30407 | 7:35 a.m. It's snowing. Hard. | blog |
blog30407 | Well. I have now read all the Skinny Daily Post articles up through today. Which means I don't have a giant backlog available so I can read five or six of them each morning. | blog |
blog30407 | I can't eat 22 of them. I need to eat about 80. | blog |
blog30407 | I know I didn't stumble on the way back up, and there was nothing for me to hold onto while I straightened up. I just did it, and kept on walking. | blog |
blog30407 | 3:00 p.m. and I'm still in front of the computer. Waiting for Boss to call me back. I'll give him a few more minutes, but then I'm going to glide some more. No, better idea -- I will glide now, and if he calls I'll stop gliding and talk. Duh. | blog |
blog30407 | I think I'm overestimating, so all good there. Bucko is late tonight, and I'm starving, and I'm probably going to have a glass of water now, and then a bloody mary (fewer calories than a martini). | blog |
blog30407 | Since I'm not weighing myself, I can't imagine how I'm going to track progress on these terms. But as I've mentioned, one or two pounds isn't going to show up on me anyway. | blog |
blog30407 | I have chicken in the freezer, and a cauliflower, and that's it for the healthy stuff. Tomorrow we'll be eating crap. | blog |
blog30407 | Adding little red hearts when I do something good. Also put my goals/rewards at the top of the document. Which reminds me that I haven't bought my Amazon book rewards yet. | blog |
blog30407 | Breakfast or lunch, about $26 a person. Dinner, about $40 a person. And up. That's the basic price, not including drinks or desserts or what have you. We had planned to buy food from shops and eat at local restaurants frequently, because we wanted to have a fuller experience than a resort offers. | blog |
blog30407 | I need a break. Having decided that, I have no idea what to do with myself. If I get bored I'll want to eat. But I don't have the energy to start any projects. | blog |
blog30407 | I slept okay, but had lots of sad dreams. I feel like I'm not losing weight anymore, and I'm worried about money. Work was supposed to pick up this month, and it hasn't, and now it looks like the bulk of the project will occur while I'm on vacation. We're not broke yet, but it's starting to make me nervous. | blog |
blog30407 | 9:26 a.m. Did 30 minutes on the glider, and five of that with the resistance set at the lowest. Holy cow, I could hardly move my legs. | blog |
blog30407 | A bad landing at Cincinnati. That is, the pilot did a great job, but there was a lot of wind and he was fighting it the whole way. Bucko shook his hand as we were leaving. | blog |
blog30407 | The roads are all good as soon as you get out of the subdivision, so that's my only worry. Should be fine. | blog |
blog30407 | Managed to work a little harder today. Did stair stepping interspersed with total gym and the little dumbbells. | blog |
blog30407 | I want to wear the small size, but I don't want to be uncomfortable either. But they stretch a lot, so if I wear them for a few hours they might be just right. | blog |
blog30407 | 1:33 p.m. Apparently the worst of the ice storm is yet to hit. Bad news. | blog |
blog30407 | I think it's right on, because the Calorie Control web page says an hour of brisk walking is 686 calories, and I could believe it if gliding burned a little less, because you don't lift your legs. Hmm. I could also believe it burns more. For now, I will go with what its built-in meter say. | blog |
blog30407 | I'll have to root around for something even smaller that I might have kept. So exciting. | blog |
blog30407 | Small late lunch, because of the large morning snack. Still feeling rather unmotivated. I know I should do some more pages for the sample book I'm trying to put together, but not very energetic. | blog |
blog30407 | 7:04 a.m. Friday, Day 82. I feel good this morning. I did have some interrupted sleep, but seem to have dealt with it okay. | blog |
blog30407 | I really want to keep this up. Over the weekend we got lots of exercise doing yard work, so I didn't need to do a specific exercise. I absolutely cannot exercise in front of anyone, even Bucko. Maybe especially Bucko. | blog |
blog30407 | Did well with dinner; we got Quiznos and I ate about a third of the sandwich instead of half. Also only half the soup and no chips. | blog |
blog30407 | Something that a lot of people do is list a bunch of rewards they get when they reach a certain weight. Should I do that? | blog |
blog30407 | My plan right now is to get this damned thing done, send Bucko to the store for provisions (possible snow tonight) while I re-clean and prime the floor. I don't know how much I'll be able to get done today, at a minimum I wanted to have it primed, levelled, and primed, ready for tiling tomorrow. In a best case scenario, we could get enough tile laid tonight to put the stove back in. That would make a huge difference in our living arrangements for the next few days. | blog |
blog30407 | That's what I'm saying about not being able to exercise as hard as I would like. I mean, I can't RUN. | blog |
blog30407 | MONDAY, FIRST DAY OF WEEK TWO!!! | blog |
blog30407 | It they are brilliant and talented now, they were just as much so when they were fat. Yeah, you can experience a big change by going through the weight loss process -- the discipline, the strength, the entire emotional and physical experience of it. | blog |
blog30407 | Today I'm going to wear the size 22s jeans around the house, and see how they stretch out. I'm planning on wearing or bringing one pair of jeans with me, and I can't decide between the 24s and the 22s. | blog |
blog30407 | Looking over my previous entries, I've been saying the same three -- no, four -- things since the very beginning. They are: | blog |
blog30407 | I guess I could shop online, though, and then just pick it up. But what the hell, the shopping part only takes me 20 minutes. It's the 40 minute round trip drive that I don't like. I might decide to go to Harris Teeter, which is slightly closer. | blog |
blog30407 | Right now I'm reading the success stories on the Weight Watchers page. Can you believe the change in me? | blog |
blog30407 | Have I lost three pounds? Have I lost ten? | blog |
blog30407 | Have no idea if Bucko has noticed. He knows we're eating differently, but I've told him it's because HE's too fat, and I think maybe he bought it. | blog |
blog30407 | I don't know what else to say about it -- I don't think the reasons for drinking are very complicated. You feel bad, it makes you feel better. | blog |
blog30407 | I measured it on the scale, and my portion was no more than a quarter of an ounce. Big difference. | blog |
blog30407 | I look in the mirror some while I'm doing it, to try to maintain form, and I think I strained myself a bit last time, trying to look like those girls. My body is just not going to look the same as theirs when I move, and so I probably forced it too much. | blog |
blog30407 | 12:38 p.m. Finished lunch of chicken, leftover mashed potatoes, and beet salad. A little hard to estimate on the beet salad, but the only significant ingredient was the low fat mayo, so I won't stress over it. | blog |
blog30407 | 6:43 p.m. Damn good dinner. That eggplant ruled. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm sick of people second-guessing what I do and coming up with suggestions and critiques. It's some kind of fun game to them, and they LOOOOVE playing art critic. (yes, I'm crabby today). | blog |
blog30407 | Thank god they came along and gave us more water and orange sherbet. For a few minutes there my heart was beating really fast and I felt awful. Probably just fatigue because I'm okay now. | blog |
blog30407 | Hoping they'll go better than yesterday, so I end up with good numbers for the week. Yesterday was my worst eating day. Of course it was Drinking Night, which really pushed up the calories, but also I did some snacking on cheese after dinner, something I haven't done since this started. | blog |
blog30407 | That I can lose an entire normal bodyweight. God, how did I get to be so fat? | blog |
blog30407 | I got up a little late again today. Stayed up too late watching Cast Away (I'll give it a B-) and was a bit restless all night. | blog |
blog30407 | I don't want to eat until 12:15, so I have a long way to go. I have discovered an activity that I link with eating in my mind: reading. | blog |
blog30407 | My goals for this week are the same as last week - drink 7 glasses of water a day and workout on the SensibleGym twice. Didn't achieve either one last week, so here's hoping this time will go better. | blog |
blog30407 | Yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it's bad enough. I only have 1600 calories left for today. I don't understand what's gone wrong with me this week. | blog |
blog30407 | My calculations give me a pound and a half a week, so in this period I should have lost 6 pounds, and I don't think it's been that much. Maybe only 3 or 4 pounds. Well, hell, it's impossible to tell. | blog |
blog30407 | For something that has haunted my past two months, I haven't made enough of a big deal about the fact that I fit into them now. Perfectly comfortably. AND I look good in them. | blog |
blog30407 | I guess nothing is going to give me consistent results all the time. Like today I can barely take my ring on and off. | blog |
blog30407 | I guess my appetite may fluctuate, according to what? Hormones, stress, amount of sleep, amount of exercise? | blog |
blog30407 | Left the house at 4:15 a.m. Of course it was hard getting up so early, but I'm so excited I can't stand it. Found the Park and Ride without too much trouble. The bus was coming just as we closed the trunk, so we sprinted to the stop and hopped on. Then a dull time in the airport waiting for our flight. | blog |
blog30407 | Also, I think I'm just starting to bloat up a bit. Just a touch... | blog |
blog30407 | I have never ever been into clothes. Because I've always been fat. | blog |
blog30407 | Yeah, another fat American. Gaaah. | blog |
blog30407 | Been reading the skinny daily post, and she is stressing the importance of keeping a journal. Well, can't argue with that. But she says to record not only your food and exercise, but your weight and how you feel that day. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm hoping to recommit myself to this plan, and recapture some enthusiasm for it. Although my numbers haven't been terrible, I realize I've slacked off quite a bit, in my attitude if not my actual eating. I figure a prolonged binge won't be far behind. No, let me rephrase that, not a "binge" but rather several days or even weeks of eating normally. | blog |
blog30407 | I have a busy morning if I want to get to the museum for the next lecture, so I will have to get through my exercise early. Watching Pirates of the Caribbean, it's great. | blog |
blog30407 | If I take the skin off, I can have three drumsticks. Maybe will have cauliflower, not sure. MUST go shopping tomorrow morning, we're on our last legs. | blog |
blog30407 | But I don't understand WLS as the solution. If the person's health is in jeopardy, then the stress of a major surgery and then the rapid weight loss is too dangerous to subject them to. | blog |
blog30407 | Had an apple, that seems to have taken care of it. Doing well with the water too. | blog |
blog30407 | 1:08 p.m. Delicious lunch of leftover chicken. | blog |
blog30407 | So exercise will be a little late today. I think I will tape Dr. Phil so I have that available in case Ellen is dull. Oh please let the glider arrive soon! | blog |
blog30407 | 12:29 p.m. Back from the video store, no problem driving. Also picked up a tile sample at Home Despot. Vinyl tile for the kitchen. Not so good, I think the beige is better. | blog |
blog30407 | A scale is not able to reliably detect whether I've lost a pound or not. There's too much fluctuation for that to register for real. | blog |
blog30407 | There's plenty of food. Plenty. | blog |
blog30407 | If I can show the slightest bit of progress after a week, then I'll be able to stand the next week. And so on. | blog |
blog30407 | I did little weights yesterday so I'm not going to do it again today, but maybe I will do something besides glide. The Cindy Crawford workout, or belly dance. | blog |
blog30407 | So, yesterday. Unbelievable. When I added up my totals, I got 981 calories. Yeah, 981. | blog |
blog30407 | A reasonable amount of water. I'm gradually working myself back into this. I really really want to start LOSING weight again, and I doubt I've done that for a couple weeks. | blog |
blog30407 | The person then can eat very little, and rapid weight loss ensues. My questions are: what happens after the person loses all the weight? | blog |
blog30407 | It was so bad, I only did my waist and hips, and then gave up. Which, by the way, ARE THE SAME MEASUREMENT. | blog |
blog30407 | And just LOOK at my totals!! | blog |
blog30407 | Well, in semi-good news, I finally weighed the pork chops we've been having, and as I suspected, I am WAY overestimating their size. They're only three ounces, barely, not four ounces. So here is my new official chart for the pork chops: | blog |
blog30407 | It's still hard, but it felt a little more normal and less strained. Maybe I wasn't trying so hard. | blog |
blog30407 | So I don't think I'll make tppw, but I should be good with oppw. Hee. | blog |
blog30407 | I think I will have it for lunch tomorrow. Had sort of a sweet attack after, though, and ate 3 crackers with jelly. | blog |
blog30407 | 11:30 p.m. I've been really uncomfortable on this flight. The tail-end of my stomach disorder, if you get my drift, plus my legs and butt ACHE from the sitting and I can't sleep because I am also itchy all over. | blog |
blog30407 | I am impressed with myself. The idea of how bad I would feel about getting behind in my dieting was enough of a deterrent. | blog |
blog30407 | Slept AWFUL last night -- no doubt because of the wine. The red kills me. | blog |
blog30407 | So, how likely is it that they are going to lose weight? Right, zero. | blog |
blog30407 | 6:57 a.m. Monday, Day 105. Slept like hell last night -- woke up for an hour or so and couldn't get back to sleep, felt anxious, and as always too many dreams. Something about working on an irrigation project in an Arabic country, which was kind of interesting, and something else about my having to wait impatiently to climb down a telephone pole on Hillsborough Street because there was this college girl in line ahead of me who was going to do some sort of gymnastic feat on the telephone wire in order to get into Ripley's Believe it or Not, and the event was to be recorded on Etch-a-Sketches, which is partly why it was taking so long. | blog |
blog30407 | The first half hour was good, I worked really hard, but dragged the second part. Barely picking up my feet by the last quarter. Also I'm starving. | blog |
blog30407 | It's six inches. Now, everyone remember that, because in the coming months when I complain about how I'm not fitting into those pants, we will be able to measure the Gap. These are not stretchy pants, so if that gap lessens, then I'm losing weight. | blog |
blog30407 | Also I would like to discuss a weird goal of mine. This is something that will take a couple years. | blog |
blog30407 | 7:20 p.m. Getting ready to go out to Cappers. I'm a little disappointed with my numbers today. | blog |
blog30407 | As I knew it would, it's taken me most of the day to get it going, and it's quite primitive. If anyone is reading this, you are probably thinking "But you have entries going back to December..." | blog |
blog30407 | So, perhaps I'll base this on clothing size. At the start of this, a month or so ago, I was buying a size 26 pant. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm on my third glass of water. Did a whole hour of gliding, and feel pretty good. | blog |
blog30407 | I haven't eaten something like that for quite a long time either. Anyway, I was very restless and waking up every 30 minutes or so. | blog |
blog30407 | 5:19 p.m. I am SO crabby. | blog |
blog30407 | I hate to see those gigantic numbers. But since I'm not weighing myself, it would be good to have some sort of reference. Ugh. Depressing. Gonna go have that martini now. | blog |
blog30407 | It makes me think of all the "make it or break it" deadlines I used to give myself. "You HAVE TO lose weight before you start Junior High, or your whole life will be ruined." "You MUST lose weight before your wedding or your whole life will be ruined." | blog |
blog30407 | They're wonderful frozen, a great texture, and you can eat a buttload of them for very few calories, but good fiber. Also I believe they are chock full o' antioxidants. | blog |
blog30407 | And, by the way, I wore the Measurement Pants all day today. Yep. | blog |
blog30407 | This week I did a LOT of gliding, which is fine, but I am probably losing too much muscle. I need to pay more attention to the exercise part of this equation -- get more variety of exercise. I know I've been saying that for years. | blog |
blog30407 | But glad I finally did. Not only is it way under 4000, but I want to continue with my non-lying streak. | blog |
blog30407 | Bucko's coming home early because of the snow, so we can have a fire and eat the ribs and be cozy. Watched the video of Travis's graduation party from last June, and I'm HORRIFIED at how I look. | blog |
blog30407 | Eventually her brain believed it, and she didn't crave them anymore. Then she did the same thing with sugar and white flour. I'm not sure I want to go that route! On the other hand, there's really nothing positive to be said about potato chips, and if you're hovering on the edge of diabetes, have a serious junk food habit, and need to lose weight, then I guess potato chips are pretty evil. | blog |