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blog30407 | Still with the headache. Hope it's not the beginning of flu. | blog |
blog30407 | Finished the first sanding and patching of the bathroom. I'm just having the last of the cherry seltzer, so that will be one liter I've drank today. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm a bit sore today from TotalGym yesterday, so that's good. I think I am concentrating too much on upper body, but with my bad knees it's very difficult to do any lower body work. | blog |
blog30407 | Very windy last night, neither of us slept well. But enjoyed sitting nude on the deck in the dark! | blog |
blog30407 | I guess I can probably put together a salad or whatnot. An apple and a tomato. Etc. | blog |
blog30407 | I might have to go to work today, I hope not. Definitely must go tomorrow for a meeting. Bah. Yes, it's good to get the hours, I'm pretty broke. But that won't stop me whining about it. | blog |
blog30407 | 5:58 p.m. Well. The floor is nearly done. | blog |
blog30407 | I am eating well below that now. I should be dead. | blog |
blog30407 | My average calories per day in Week One was 1660. For Week Two, 1487. That's 173 calories less! | blog |
blog30407 | Prices are so relative to an area I guess that number doesn't mean anything on its own. For comparison, we hope to sell our built-in-1990 house for around $210,000. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm trying to make a giant change in my brain, where I look for opportunities to exercise, instead of avoiding them. That would be an even greater change than the way I eat. | blog |
blog30407 | So far it's rain, but they're saying it will turn to snow eventually. Plus I'm supposed to go to work today. Feh. | blog |
blog30407 | I guess I could drop in at the doctor and ask to be weighed, but that doesn't appeal to me. I'm so PRIVATE about this, if not secretive. The only person I've told is Daisy. I guess I kind of want to have a sudden transformation, a real fairy-tale experience, where I drop the fat clothes and step forth all radiant in my new body. Like no one is going to notice up until that point. | blog |
blog30407 | 8:55 p.m. I ended up with three martinis, no vodka and soda. Not bad. | blog |
blog30407 | I don't want to miss that, but no way am I driving around in snow. Feeling a bit peckish, because of boredom, so I had some pickles and a breath mint. Yum. | blog |
blog30407 | Is it too much? Who knows. | blog |
blog30407 | Midnight-ish. Ah, we're home. I'm so happy. So so happy. | blog |
blog30407 | Also probably Richard Simmons. I like the level of effort in the Dancing to the Oldies tape, but I hate the music. Maybe if I can preview what songs are on a particular tape, I might buy it. | blog |
blog30407 | Sunday. DAY SEVEN!! | blog |
blog30407 | It wasn't as clear to me as romanticism and classicism, but still interesting and wonderful to see the slides. Beautiful. She showed a slide of a Venus painting, and didn't say who it was by, it seemed like she wasn't sure. Heh heh, I knew who it was -- Alexandre Cabanel. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm looking back over my entries for the past week, and I see that I've been eating over-salted food, I've been stuck in the house for days, I'm bored, the kitchen floor has been a frustration, I have my period. Last night was our first home-cooked meal since last Friday. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm glad that part of my brain prevailed, because I gave up the candy and bought sugarless gum. That will keep my mouth busy without adding calories. | blog |
blog30407 | 5:22 p.m. I am soooo hungry. | blog |
blog30407 | Don't know what form that will take, but damn I'm impressed with myself! Resisting that kind of temptation while drinking. | blog |
blog30407 | 7:11 a.m. Tuesday, Day 92. Not a bad night, considering how late I ate dinner (10:30). | blog |
blog30407 | Okay, here's what I did: I decided my size 24 reward is the $240 worth of new shoes I bought already, and size 22 will be Amazon books. Because I should reach that goal pretty soon, if not already. Then size 20 will be dinner at Cappers, something that probably won't happen for at least a couple months. I'm as far away from fitting into the Measurement Shorts as I was last year of fitting into the Measurement Pants. | blog |
blog30407 | According to the numbers, I lost one pound, with 2201 calories left over. That should be about six-tenths of a pound. | blog |
blog30407 | I would like to find a good hair stylist that I could stick with, but since I only go every couple years that's hard to find. Maybe if I found one I liked, I would go more often. Whatever. | blog |
blog30407 | I guess I should start setting fitness goals for myself, as well as weight-loss goals. Just read that on the Skinny Daily Post (hereafter referred to as SDP). Anyway, that's the key to the metabolism thing, and the key to the maintenance part of the diet -- the "after" part. Because I don't want to be dieting the rest of my life. | blog |
blog30407 | So we toddled on up to Portobello, which is our favorite restaurant, for drinks. And it was fine, but of course there's no live music, and sitting in the restaurant drinking just isn't the same as sitting in the bar drinking. Why? | blog |
blog30407 | Can't say I liked the yoga; I can barely do it, so I find myself lying on the floor waiting for her to move on to the next position. So I gave myself low calories for it since I had a lot of idle time. | blog |
blog30407 | I have to introduce some variety. That's why I wanted the library of workout tapes, so I can do a little something different every day. | blog |
blog30407 | When I look in the mirror I see someone who is somewhat overweight. No big deal. But when I see photos of myself I am stunned by how fat I am. But other people tell me they don't see it as a big deal. | blog |
blog30407 | Now I'm putting the "thoughts" part of my journal online. Most of it is very dull stuff, just a chronicle of my day, which is why I say you probably won't find any gems here as on the other web pages. I'm not a gifted writer, but keeping a journal has been absolutely vital to my weight-loss efforts. | blog |
blog30407 | I took the Dr. Phil test of "are you an emotional eater?" and scored VERY high. | blog |
blog30407 | A piece of good news: I notice I'm not having that double-boob situation with my bras anymore. You know, when the cup isn't quite big enough and you sort of blob out over the top. Yep, the boobs are always the first to go. Maybe I'll be able to fit into that 2x sport top I bought a couple years ago. THAT would be nice. | blog |
blog30407 | So guess what it was? It was 240. | blog |
blog30407 | And there's one more thing I want to say about people who drive aggressively and rudely: they're cowards. Because it's easy to be rude and aggressive when surrounded by the anonymity and perceived armor of a car. I don't think these people would dare exhibit the same behavior in a different arena, say for instance, the grocery store. | blog |
blog30407 | The other thing that bothers me is my face. I have no chin or jaw or neck anymore. | blog |
blog30407 | I will get through this week, I will try on the Measurement Pants Monday, and I will find that I've lost more weight. I will continue with the diet and exercise, losing more and more weight, until I am where I want to be. | blog |
blog30407 | I can't do it now, because my goal calories already account for exercise. But I want to start tracking it, to make it part of this effort. | blog |
blog30407 | Decided to track my calories for past two days, to see where I stand. I'm estimating large, so my real intake might be as much as 10-15% less than these totals. | blog |
blog30407 | It's not a bad choice nutritionally, but I'll see if I can come up with a more balanced lunch. I've been eating a lot of meat recently (o bacon!). | blog |
blog30407 | 12:25 p.m. Well, I did a little of both. Cleaned the studio, and started a draft of the letter. Emailed it to Daisy for input. I'm going to try to do another 30 minutes of glider before I have lunch. | blog |
blog30407 | 2:45 p.m. OK, I psyched myself up for another call and got the machine again. Didn't leave a message. I feel relieved. | blog |
blog30407 | My ring has been tighter for a couple weeks now, ever since I did the kitchen floor. I figured my hands were a bit swollen (they were) but surely that should have worn off by now? At least I can still take it off and on, even if it's a bit snug. | blog |
blog30407 | It is true, what I have always read, that twilight does not linger in the tropics. Fifteen minutes ago the sun lit the grass in the city hall lawn, like on a late summer afternoon, and now it is nearly dark. | blog |
blog30407 | Like, when I can wear the Measurement Pants, can I buy myself something? Or give myself an outing of some sort? | blog |
blog30407 | 7:40 a.m. Monday, Day 29. WELCOME TO MONTH TWO! | blog |
blog30407 | As far as my other goals, I browsed Amazon a little bit for some books, but didn't find much. I'll do it again soon. | blog |
blog30407 | Then, for further amusement, I just now decided to go try on all the pants in my closet. Here's what I found: I fit into all the size 24 pants with no problem at all (excluding cursed Measurement Pants) AND I ALSO fit into all the 22s. | blog |
blog30407 | Taking down the blinds in the bathroom. Dusty! | blog |
blog30407 | Anyway, when I gave blood, it took forever. My blood was draining really slowly, and the nurse was wiggling the needle around and thumping my arm, and I was squeezing my hand, etc., and it got to be really painful! | blog |
blog30407 | I guess I could water it down a little. Nah. | blog |
blog30407 | I decided to go back and read Day One. What a difference from then. This thing has been hard to do, there's no denying that, but it's sort of funny how trepidatious I was. | blog |
blog30407 | So... my long-term goal is to lose 110 pounds. Jeez. Again, that's as much as some people weigh! | blog |
blog30407 | Also, puttering around like that does count toward burning the calories. I'm really looking forward to the glider. | blog |
blog30407 | 10:51 a.m. Finished an hour workout. | blog |
blog30407 | And this of course is why I say I don't overeat: I rarely eat 2746 calories a day, and yet I continue to GAIN weight, not to maintain. Whatever. | blog |
blog30407 | I might even be in the two-pounds-per-week range. I think I'd better start abbreviating that as tppw. | blog |
blog30407 | I think the Measurement Pants are a tiny bit looser today. And also, my face looks different. And thirdly, I'm sick of water. Bleh. | blog |
blog30407 | Watched a little TV, for some reason. The hotel was playing "An American in Paris" nonstop. Also we saw TJ Hooker in French (zut alors!) and a very creepy Japanese horror movie dubbed in French. | blog |
blog30407 | It's like learning another language. You weren't an evil asshat before you learned it, but it's a useful and desirable thing to do. | blog |
blog30407 | 2:18 p.m. Back from the lake. Yep, seems to be two miles around, and I've got my hour's exercise accomplished. | blog |
blog30407 | 5:07 p.m. Done with the wood for today. We didn't get all of it done, there's SO much to do. | blog |
blog30407 | Uh-uh. Hit the brakes on that one. I was so hungry I wanted to eat forever. But came to my senses and realized, I won't still be hungry after four pieces. | blog |
blog30407 | You know, I really love some of the weight-loss web pages. I mean, Poundy, wow that girl is a good writer, no matter what she's writing about. Put Down the Donut, also good. Lose the Buddha, etc. | blog |
blog30407 | 5:00 p.m. Excellent news -- got Bucko to work out with me. We traded off five minutes on the glider with five minutes lifting weights. Almost fun. | blog |
blog30407 | 8:18 p.m. I have GREAT numbers this week. | blog |
blog30407 | In other news, I don't think the seltzer is giving me a headache. Either that or I've become accustomed to it. That's good news, because obviously it's hard for me to drink enough water. | blog |
blog30407 | I will try to not eat any more tonight, but I might have another glass of wine, and that will of course raise the total. By the way, I'm doing well with the drinking. I resolved to buy nothing but red wine, because I just don't drink it in volume. So far that's holding true. | blog |
blog30407 | I can see I'll need a scale eventually. Which I don't like. But what the hell, dieting is so fucked up anyway, what's one more little neurosis added on? | blog |
blog30407 | It might be that I'm getting saggier because I've lost weight. I don't know, but it sucks. | blog |
blog30407 | I don't know why white people aren't allowed to be fat. Polynesians are kind of heavy. | blog |
blog30407 | Also I ate the Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich for dessert. Which is not so horrible in itself, it's just that I was NOT hungry at that point and should have skipped it. | blog |
blog30407 | I decided to have four pieces -- two legs and two thighs -- but didn't realize the plate had five pieces. When I sat down to eat it, I thought "oh well, then I'll just have five." | blog |
blog30407 | We have to replace it, if anyone stepped on it their foot would go through. So had to run down to Marella's (40 minute trip) to get Jaeger's RotoThing tool, chat with them (30 minutes), come home (40 minutes), pick up spare bits and plywood at HomeDepot (20 minutes), come home and fuck around with testing the tool and making tiny baby cuts in the floorboard (1 hour). | blog |
blog30407 | I must stop doing that. They were tighter than I remembered last time, but it's not a good scientific system. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm an introverted, too-cynical person, so it's been difficult and very significant for me to adopt a positive attitude about anything. So I can say this has been a life-changing experience so far. | blog |
blog30407 | I'd rather have chocolate. Which I might do this weekend, by the way. A little one-month celebration. | blog |
blog30407 | I want a little reward to keep me interested and motivated. The Measurement Pants were a disappointment when I tried them a couple days ago. | blog |
blog30407 | What a day!! | blog |
blog30407 | So today, I will do the glider/weights routine. That's killer. And since I'm pressed for time, I can get a good amount of exercise in 20 minutes. | blog |
blog30407 | Yes, that's because through the miracle of web technology, I am able to date entries whatever I want, so I can put up all my previous offline journal entries. Why would anyone want to read them? Hell if I know! | blog |
blog30407 | Bucko brought home a Wendy's salad for me, and I ate that and then pretty much immediately fell asleep on the sofa. Perfect ending to a picnic-lunch-sit-in-the-sun day. | blog |
blog30407 | Directed by Mel Brooks, starring Gene Wilder, Marty Feldman, Madeleine Kahn, Teri Garr, Peter Boyle, Cloris Leachman, Gene Hackman, and others. I will state without reservation that this is the funniest movie ever made. If you haven't seen it before, I hope that doesn't set you up for too-high expectations leading to disappointment, but it's the simple truth. Although it's typical Brooks-slapstick, with classic vaudeville elements, it's also a bit more sophisticated than most of his comedies, and the cast works together exceptionally well here. To ensure maximum enjoyment, consider first watching the 1934 "Bride of Frankenstein." | blog |
blog30407 | LATER. It's 3:24 on Day One. Still good. | blog |
blog30407 | They're very very good, but I can't quite put them in the same category as the Two Stars. They're just not | blog |
blog30407 | I'm having a glass of tomato juice and writing in here to keep my mind off. Looking at my chart, I'm only at 543 calories before the juice, so maybe I just haven't eaten enough today. | blog |
blog30407 | Bah. Okay, time to move on. I know what went wrong and will avoid the situation in future. That means that I will eat enough food, I will not starve myself! | blog |
blog30407 | An interesting tip for avoiding eating when hungry: engage in a highly-scented activity, such as polishing your nails or cleaning furniture with lemon-scented oil. Umm, okay. | blog |
blog30407 | I'm happy with what I had, without it inspiring greater need. And that is progress for me. | blog |
blog30407 | It's a good idea, and I have already used my journal as a reference. Just not at that level. | blog |
blog30407 | That's pretty much the extent of fresh food in the restaurants. No other vegetables, no carrots, broccoli, zucchini, cauliflower, asparagus, beets, or peas. No beans. No apples, oranges, or pears. Sometimes watermelon, bananas, and grapefruit. | blog |
blog30407 | BARN?? | blog |
blog30407 | Compiling this list was harder than I expected. Oh, I could probably reel off a hundred books without much effort, but as soon as I began it became apparent how many of the hundred were by the same authors. I could list my favorites of James Michener, Robert Heinlein, Georgette Heyer, and Graham Greene, and be done with it in four authors. That doesn't seem like a really good representation, so I've trimmed multiple mentions to the minimum, including more than one by an author only when it was very notable to me. In a couple instances, I just couldn't decide between a couple books by the same author, and listed them together with a slash between. | blog |
blog30407 | I only have 600 left for tppw, and just one of those ribs is over that. Plus drinking night. | blog |
blog30407 | This is very significant, because I had never told either one of them that I was dieting. They just noticed of their own accord. | blog |
blog30407 | 2:30 p.m. Just got home from the E. G. and I'm SO hungry. | blog |
blog30407 | OK, just added up my calories for yesterday. 1920. | blog |