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+14,Alone in every way,I’ve never felt more alone. My marriage is a mess and we basically live separate lives. Most of my family are no contact and I have no family support. My son is going through a hard time and I’m dealing with it alone. I actually want to close my eyes and never wake up. I wonder if my kids would be better off without me because right now I’m doing a shit job. No one else would even notice I was gone.,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of romantic relationships']",4,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of romantic relationships']",4.75,part3,validation,lonely
+31,Why is it like this,Why I'm i always ignore. Like I have 0 friends now I'm victimizing what a loser I'm. I bet  this post is going to be ignored,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],4.0,part3,validation,lonely
+38,Anyone above 25 and yet to experience love or a relationship?,"I am in my late twenties, never been in relationship. I don’t generally encounter people who have never been a relationship until this age
+
+Edit- what’s your reason?",['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33,evaluation,validation,lonely
+45,Pressure,"Ive recently had to remove my whole account due to the fact I didn’t feel comfortable with somone in dms to be specific they started of fine but then things took a turn when she asked weather i was a virgin and she asked me weather or not i wanted to had s”x with her… Im thanking like we JUST MET WHY DO YOU WANNA FUCK ME!????? after that I explained to her that we just met before removing my account and makeing a new one. Her name was Cupcake. And tbh this was the last fucking straw for me.  I give up it just seems like im only good for that one thing and to be used. 
+Ive lost all hope because of what she said after a rlly good conversation we had and i thought i was getting somewhere. Welp i guessed too soon.
+My old user was Babyariana_00001",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,validation,lonely
+48,Anyone else ready for another lonely weekend?,I’m not ready lol. I wish I had someone special.,['Other'],3,['Lack of romantic relationships'],4,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Other'],3.0,exploration,validation,lonely
+56,Idk,"I been feeling like such a burden, like literal trash idk.. I don’t wanna share my situation but just want to feel seen and heard. For I have my family all around me watching me drown and sink further while they occasionally throw stones at me and laugh … it’s so hard to hold on most the time,, losing my will to live slowly. Life is hard and so so cold. 
+",['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],4.5,part3,validation,lonely
+70,Kinda saddd,Im kinda in my feels rn..illl be complete fine and productive and do so much work to improve my life to make some kind of progress. And then it always hit me out if no where a wave of sadness and ptsd. Can anyone relate,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,validation,lonely
+90,Stop incelposting.,"Maybe fucking look in the mirror. Maybe the reason that women don’t like you is because you are so bitter and misogynistic towards them. Women can’t just get a boyfriend Willy nilly. They’re seen as sex objects. You think that because you’re misogynistic and taking your anger out on women.
+
+Just because people pretend to care about women and use them for sex doesn’t mean women are cared about or respected. “Oh, she was raped, therefore she can get any man and is happy!”
+
+Women don’t automatically make friends or boyfriends. Some of us are lesbian. Some of us aren’t even interested. We don’t just sit there and get gawked at by every single man, and if we did, the men wouldn’t want to date us.
+
+You complain about how women don’t care about your feelings - well then maybe don’t be a misogynistic dick and undermine their experiences.
+
+Maybe stop seeing women as just the thing you’re attracted to. I’ve seen women get shamed for being lonely, with incels saying that “oh well you can just get a boyfriend”. That’s not a good thing. Even if it was true, we don’t want to be used for sex. Because the *only* reason a woman could **EVERRRR** be lonely is because she wants attention and doesn’t have a boyfriend.
+
+EDIT: I find it very telling that I say that misogynists and incels are bad and you all think I’m talkin about all men. You felt attacked. Nowhere did I mention just all men in general. You felt attacked and wanted to blame it on everyone else.",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1.25,part3,validation,lonely
+101,I dont care for anyone but myself,"So I guess that's why I have a stronge urge to die and kill myself. I don't care about feelings, about my family and my small circle of acquaintances. When I see that any of you post ""I care about you! I wish you a happy good day!"", I mean, how can you? For real how can you fucking feel it and do it? Wow. I don't know if I'm feeling envy or I just don't believe you. I don't understand my own feelings. I wish I didn't have feelings. Maybe im losing them which is good so I don't have to keep living. I wanna die a peaceful and painless death. I don't have that luxury.",['Not lonely'],5,['Not lonely'],5,['Not lonely'],5,['Not lonely'],3.0,part3,validation,lonely
+113,"Can't forget small, insignificant interactions, because that's how rare they are lol","I (19f) applied to art class in uni and there were tests we had to do there, like drawing and stuff, and that's where I saw this random girl. She caught me looking at her once but she just smiled at me, i was like wtf, why are u smiling at me, people who catch me staring give me a death stare usually. After the tests, i went to piss and as im leaving the restroom, i meet her again in the corridor and she smiled at me again and said hello. I said hi, and left. This was about 2 weeks ago but i keep remembering that, it's most likely nothing, but i never really had a close relationship with anyone, no friends or anything so maybe im just imagining stuff, but idk it felt great that someone actually saw me and didn't act like an asshole with me. This also kinda confirmed in me that I also like girls, so maybe there is more chance that someone, at some point will actually want me. It's crazy how something so small can be so big for me, like most people probably wouldn't even think about it, at all. ",['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,"['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",3.66666666666666,part3,validation,lonely
+121,19tf lonely loser looking for friends,hi im looking for some toxic friends to chat with please pm asl me and we can chat <3,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2,['Lack of friends'],2.66666666666666,part3,validation,lonely
+126,Lifetimes of Chapters,"I'll set an imaginary scene. I'm sitting by a campfire, with my tent nearby, surrounded by trees and a nearby stream, looking up at a beautiful night sky. You can hear the sounds of animals and insects. If there is anything bothering you or if you just want to talk, I'll be here, enjoying the peace of nature. If you want to stick around as a friend, I'll welcome the company. If you are just passing through, I'll welcome a visit. I'd like to hear your story. My imaginary setting changes with time and mood, so it could be a campsite for several days. It may only exist for tonight. Either way, what I offer will be the same. Have a lovely night, everyone. I hope you get a good sleep.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,lonely
+133,breakup,"i just broke up with my boyfriend a few days ago. it’s the longest and most serious relationship i have ever been it and now it’s over. we still text sometimes ofc, we still love each either :/ idk what to do. i feel so fucking numb about everything that happened and it’s so awful. i genuinely just want to cry or at least feel more about it but im just going through the motions. i have no friends but one and i can’t talk to her about it or see her because she lives in a different state. i just feel so fucking alone and empty and i feel like it was a mistake to leave him but i know deep down it wasn’t because of the way he’s treated me. this is just so fucking hard i have no idea how to deal with it because i’ve never been through anything like this. i don’t even know why i’m posting here i feel like i have nothing of substance to say i guess i just needed to get this out ",['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3.0,part3,validation,lonely
+139,Day 581,"Today was an okay day I guess, i still miss my friend I’m sorry I still talk about her I know I shouldn’t miss her, but i do.
+
+I’m still alone as always ",['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.0,part3,validation,lonely
+144,Look out for Morag_Ladier,"User likes to lurk on r/lonely and comment under guys posts calling everyone incels or whatever for no reason. It’s probably just rage bait, but still a loser thing to do. They also make posts telling people to stop “incelposting” because mentioning they want a girlfriend makes you an automatic incel. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,lonely
+150,No one cares about anything except what you do for them.,"I'm so tired. All I do is work. Work at my job, come home and cook, clean, and do laundry. My husband and son make it a point to tell me that they are not doing anything because they are going to enjoy their weekend off, summer break, PTO, etc. But I still have to do all the work to keep things going. I'm tired. No one cares. My husband won't even take me out with him unless it's to get something for me to do more work. I'm so tired and lonely. I don't have anyone who doesn't just need something out of me. I planned the family summer trip. I paid for the trip. I drove for the trip.  I did the cleaning and cooking and laundry at the airbnb while they did whatever they wanted. No one cares that I'm tired and lonely. It is always just needing me to do something else. I can't just go away on my own because I have no one to go with. This world is dangerous for a lone female. I sit here crying every weekend because I'm alone and just here to serve apparently. ","['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of community or social support']",3,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of family contact', 'Lack of community or social support']",4,"['Lack of family contact','Lack of community or social support']",3.67,exploration,validation,lonely
+167,Calling all people who wish they had a hobby!!,"A lot of us feel lonely because we don’t have hobbies or friends to take up our time or it could just be that we don’t feel like we can do anything.
+
+Well! I’m here to give an opportunity to those who seriously want to pick up a new hobby. Granted this hobby had been said to be mostly for girls but imo it is for everyone.
+
+The hobby is crochet.
+
+I want to help teach someone online how to crochet and make different kind of things. I know how to make quite a variety of things, so I will teach you how to read patterns, what stitches are, how to make different types of crochet work. 
+
+Why should you do this? 
+
+Well you’ll probably love the heck out of it or you’ll hate it, either way you are putting in energy to try something new and if you don’t like it we can stop and go our own ways, no hard feelings 
+
+This is only for people who want to do this seriously and are willing to buy the materials within a timely fashion, I’m not expecting you to go out and spend hundreds on materials, a hook and a ball of yarn at Walmart are like 20 bucks max probably way less. 
+
+All I ask is that you’re over 18 and tell me your age upon message and will commit to this, thank you for reading!
+
+",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,lonely
+172,"I’m full of love, with no one to share it with",This is it. I just feel unhappy when I have no one around me to hug and tell them how much they mean to me,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,"['Lack of community or social support', 'Lack of physical touch']",3,"['Lack of community or social support', 'Lack of physical touch']",3,"['Lack of community or social support','Lack of physical touch']",3.0,evaluation,validation,lonely
+178,"If you have a brief moment, there's something I want to tell you.","I just wanted to say that I think you’re amazing. You are doing your best to get through every single day, and I am so proud of you for that 😊 Keep being you. You are awesome 💖 I hope that you have a wonderful rest of your day/night.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,lonely
+186,19M Who Needs Some Company and Time Of Yours,Nowerdays I’ve really started to feel lonely and isolated even though I have my family around . Mostly I spend my time alone because I don’t have a bunch of friends like other people but now I feel like I need someone who’s in the same boat as I am . I really want someone to just talk to me and I hope that eventually I find someone here :),['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3,['Lack of friends'],3.0,part3,validation,lonely
+194,Left behind.,"I feel like I'm getting left behind. All my high school friends have moved on, found love, or ghosted, and most of the people i meet on discord already have/have found a partner. I feel like I'm getting left behind in my generations dating pool. I haven't been in a real relationship since high school so that doesn't help things.
+
+My buddy recently found a gf and idk why but the loneliness just hurt really bad today and i needed somewhere to talk about it.
+
+23m/bi if anyone is curious.",['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3.33333333333333,part3,validation,lonely
+205,"Support for anxiety, loneliness, or anything you’re going through!","Hello everyone, if you’re struggling with anxiety, loneliness, or just need someone to talk to, I’m here to listen and support you. Whether you’re facing challenges or simply looking for a sympathetic ear, know that you’re not alone. Feel free to reach out, and let’s navigate through this together. Your well-being is important, and I’m committed to offering ongoing support. Send me a message anytime. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,lonely
+214,I have friends and I cherish them but I don't feel cherished,"There's many times where I try to put some oomph in my responses to my friends. If they show me something, I'm going to react. If they text me, I'm going to follow up with ask how they've been. But I never receive this treatment. They're good friends, I just don't think they feel the need to give that little bit of support. I worry sometimes because of things like this that maybe I'm not really wanted and I'm just tolerated within the group. Of course they'd deny it and then would come the supportive comments where I to bring it up, but I just want some of what I dish out unprompted. Just because, yknow? Just getting smaller answers makes me feel...small",['Not lonely'],1,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],3,['Lack of community or social support'],2.33,evaluation,validation,lonely
+229,My birthday today,"And as usual I cried. My mother is here, and as usual she is telling me about how her favourite family members are an epitome of success and how much struggle they have had.
+
+ The hardship she faced for 2.5 years, I faced those for 16 years, but of course she needs everyone’s sympathies but has none for her own kids. I can’t understand this woman. I mean why does she hate us so much and why is she so obsessed with her loser family specifically her brother and his son. Once her sister in law told me outright that “you have no one”. I had never felt so lonely since then. I think about it so much. How that woman completely brainwashed my mother and put us out of our house. I can’t believe I have this king of people in my family. I wish I could find some real people who could love me and I could trust them after all this shit
+
+",['Lack of family contact'],2,['Lack of family contact'],2,['Lack of family contact'],2,['Lack of family contact'],2.66666666666666,part3,validation,lonely
+232,the old man,"today we don't have much money so my mom is going to ""work for a old man"" like she just told me that idk much but why do i think of a 'sugar daddy' or whatever its called? can u tell me in which other work we 'work for an old man' cuz it's surely what i think cuz she already does 'streaptease' (srry idk how to wrote it) when she was young, plz help.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,validation,lonely
+241,I’m so lonely not even my boyfriend likes me…,I’m just so sad and don’t know what to do anymore… no one is there for me not even someone who I’m supposed to call my significant other,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3,['Other'],3.33333333333333,part3,validation,lonely
+249,(F) Cuddle rp with me someone I need to sleep I have insomnia,"Ps just type we can talk like *cuddles and snuggles* and jump right into it and that cringy romantic shit OR not it's up to u. Any weirdos will be blocked I just want comfort! I am 17 and nice.
+
+Edit: boo someone even lonelier and UNHAPPY with their life as me got mad and had to thumb everything down. ♥ ",['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Not lonely'],2.0,part3,validation,lonely
+251,"""Love yourself"" is complete bullshit","I think that the expression ""first you have to love yourself"" or ""how will you be loved if you don't love yourself"" is complete bullshit. It seems to me that it works the other way around, at first they love you, and your unconscious part sees it, and inside it notes, ""so everything is fine with me."" I was just thinking about the fact that I didn't like my body (it was thin) I started doing fitness and after a while the results appeared and I began to like it. I think people who advise you to ""love yourself"" first have the same story in their lives, the procedure is the same, they just don't realize it.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,validation,lonely
+267,Lately,"Lately I’ve been crying a lot and I usually don’t cry. Am I having a mental emotional breakdown? Sometimes the tears just come out but I don’t genuinely feel sad. It’s kinda scary tbh. I wish I had a friend to talk to. I haven’t spoken to them in almost 2 years. I think I grew apart or they outgrew me. Either way I don’t have a social life. I just go to work and come home. At work, my coworkers are just coworkers. I’ve never not had a work friend before but I’ve been working at my occupation for 2 years now and it’s so weird not having someone to joke with or look forward to work with. I’m scared of getting depressed. I don’t want to go back to that feeling. 
+
+Anyways, I just wanted to share because it feels like I’m texting a friend. Maybe it’ll make the tears stop.","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",5,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",5,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",5,"['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",4.0,part3,validation,lonely
+293,[16/M] super duper bored rn DM me I'm down to talk about literally anything with anyone idc abt age,"I live in the UK but ethnically I'm Nigerian id really like to get to know some of you guys since I've literally got nothing better to do I don't really have many girl, friends so I'd like to have some cool chats with girls please DM me everyone's welcome",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1.33333333333333,part3,validation,lonely
+295,A handsome man asked me out on a date and I refused stating that I live like a hermit,"I'm so afraid to date that I turned down a date with a handsome man. He was very polite, kind, and non-threatening - but because I haven't had a good relationship, I told him I don't go out, only work, and live like a hermit. I regret doing it, but I can't help it. 
+
+I have no self-esteem and am unable to choose the right man. So I say no to all men to protect myself from being beaten or demeaned. I'm afraid of making another mistake. I've never had a good relationship. Almost 10 years ago, I had my only serious live-in boyfriend of 5 years. It was the worst experience of my life. I moved from California to New York knowing no one to escape him. It was violent. It's been nearly 10 years and I am living like I'm in prison. A prison I impose on myself to keep myself protected.
+
+I'm so afraid of men and yet at times I want to have a relationship. I don't know how to change.
+
+",['Lack of romantic relationships'],2,['Not lonely'],4,['Lack of romantic relationships'],3,['Not lonely'],3.0,evaluation,validation,lonely
+333,My Dick suddenly stopped getting hard,"One random day my dick which is usually 15 cm when hard turned into 11 cm when hard. And the next day i couldnt get hard at all. Im only 17 and i usually get hard very easily and have a high sex drive like every other teenager. My sex drive has also reduced drastically since i stopped getting hard. There has been no major lifestyle changes or medications and im only 17 which is what is making me go crazy.now all the time im stressed and worried about this. I started college one month back and other than that minor lifestyle changes for the past week are 
+1) i sleep 6-7 hours than when i usually slept 7-8 before
+2)i drink green tea everyday
+3) i chew gum everyday for 4 hours continously
+ 
+Other than these i cant think of any other changes, as i said i dont even have a sex drive since i stopped getting hard. Does anyone know the reason and can someone advice me in what to do",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,validation,offmychest
+345,I need advice about this situation with my in-laws,"I 23F live with bf24 been dating for 4years.
+My bf cousin told me my sister inlaw and her bf were talking terrible things about me,
+ on Christmas when my bf went to sleep.
+He told me that the way they talked soo bad about me that day,
+I must never ever meet my bfs family I must never ever go there.
+I told my bf this and he says the cousin is lying I shouldn’t believe him.
+Iam soo confused and soo depressed about the way I just now feel soomuch hate towards the sister inlaw and her bf.
+the situation is causing me crazy depression I spend time in bed thinking about it .
+ sometimes I can’t even do anything I feel horrible.
+The sister always inviting me and always sending me her greetings but i just can’t accept the invites and can’t stand her.
+My bfs birthday is coming up to they’ll invite me and I’ll have to decline again because I’m trying to protect myself from his Family.
+Please give me an advice this is not healthy that I feel soo shitty.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,offmychest
+380,Time to let go for their happiness!,"May be it's time to let it go this time. It's hard but it is what he needs and I have to let go. They are unhappy with me then there's no point in being together. Everytime I try saving it, because I believe anger should not destroy us and they said it's like forcing them into it, haha. It's peace this time, if they don't want it then I respect them. I am not forcing anyone to marry me. 
+And definitely if my presence or absence makes no difference in their life. Then we never loved each other. I am happy for them. 
+Their ignorrance made me realise what I mean to them. May be, that's what the really wanted always? That's what they asked God for to make sure we don't be with each other. They don't fear anything. May be, there is a better girl they deserve? I want them to be happy right? Then yes, best is to let go of them. But it hurts!! I wish I have the strength to let it go this time. They don't want me, that's the truth and I gotta accept it. I have to!!  They have always tried doing things so we move apart forever. It's time to hear their call? ",['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1.66666666666666,part3,validation,offmychest
+386,Not being invited to group vacation.,"Hey everyone,
+
+I am part of an association, I do lot of volunteering and I'm trying to make friends.
+I always struggled with making friends but I've been steadily improving my social skills and I thought I had bonded pretty well with the people there.
+
+This weekend there was apprently a vacation planned with the inner core of the association. Me, a current board member and my partner, next board member, where not invited.
+
+This stung hard. I've really grown to see these people as my friends and I hoped that they would have valued me the same.
+I don't know what to do with my feelings. I can't truly be angry at them, as they are well in the right not to invite people. But I do feel angry but I'm not sure if I'm angry at them or myself.
+
+What should I do next? The association is a huge part of my life but it hurts thinking about it now. I just feel so alone.","['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",3,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",3,"['Lack of friends', 'Lack of community or social support']",3,"['Lack of friends','Lack of community or social support']",2.66666666666666,part3,validation,offmychest
+395,My grandfather is in critical condition,"My grandfather was praying and he fell and hit his head, and he got a blood clot and concussion.
+
+They’re trying to reduce the swelling but the meds aren’t working as well as they thought
+
+They’re taking him into surgery, but they can’t be sure of whether or not his BP will be stable enough for him to live. If he does, it’s a month long recovery, and he may lose function in a limb or god forbid a sense
+
+He’s near 80 years old, so I knew it would come at some point, but it’s too soon.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,offmychest
+398,Extremely scared I’ll say the N word coming off of anesthesia.,"For context, I’m 18 and will be having to get my wisdom teeth removed. I grew up in north St. Louis and moved to a rather suburban town a few years ago. I was basically the only white kid in my neighborhood growing up, all my friends were black and I grew up saying the n word and my friends never had a problem it. It was just part of our culture and vocabulary growing up in our neighborhood. Im not racist at all, but since I’ve moved to a more suburban area I’ve tried not saying it as much but it’s still a regular part of my vocabulary unfortunately. Even where I am now basically all of my friends are black. I’m scared asf I will say N word coming off of anesthesia after getting my wisdom teeth removed and I’m really worried I’m gonna offend someone without knowing. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,offmychest
+404,My brother is homeless,"Hello. I'll try my best to keep a long story short:
+
+My oldest brother is an ex-criminal, ex-heroin addict who was sent out of prison around five years ago. After that he lived with my mom up until a few months ago. He could never really keep a job, had no money, suffered from several mental disorders (personality disorder, depression and so on). 
+He kept begging my mom for money every other day, never accepted a no and would nag you for hours, would threaten to kill himself if he did not get money,
+stole several thousands of euros from her and just ran away for a couple of days. 
+
+A few months ago, he had another melt down and stole her card and just vanished. We did not see him since then. Because of my job I'm pretty driving around the city all day and I'm pretty sure I saw him couples of times sitting around subway stations, in bad condition. 
+My mom received a letter two days ago, I believe he wanted to see her, asked for help. He is homeless, has no passport, money or food. 
+
+Sounds horrible, but I don't want my mom to help him. Its just and endless cycle and I doubt he will ever change. Within those five years nothing has changed, My mom keeps blaming herself, it is such a depressing situation. I just need to get this off my chest. ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,offmychest
+406,I feel so alone,"I’ll say it. I’m miserable. I’ve been dating the same guy since I was 14. (23 now) we’ve been married nearly 3 years. 
+Our life is routine, boring.
+He doesn’t ask about my day, doctors appointments, classes, anything. 
+We barely touch and I’m just so unhappy. 
+I just wanna talk to someone that wants to know me and know about my day. Calls me beautiful and wants to play with my hair and cuddle me. 
+Am I the only one that feels this way?? 
+Male or female I just feel like we shouldn’t have to beg to be loved. ☹️",['Other'],2,['Other'],2,['Other'],2,"['Lack of romantic relationships','Lack of physical touch']",2.66666666666666,part3,validation,offmychest
+410,My boyfriend has a girlfriend and it’s not me.,"I Met my boyfriend in Highschool, we’ve been together since we were 17 and everything was going so well. I never EVER had any suspicion that he was cheating on me, in fact it never crossed my mind. He recently moved a few hours away to attend college, and we haven’t had problems with long distance…or so I thought. Yesterday an Instagram account with his picture came up on my feed but it had a fake name, it was almost like a movie characters name or something. I messaged him and asked if he had made another Instagram account and he said that he did, I followed it of course but he hadn’t posted anything. I was wondering what the hell this name was that he chose, so I copied and pasted it into google and the first thing that came up was a Facebook account. Mind you my boyfriend had never had a Facebook account. I clicked on it and there it was again, an account with his picture. I scrolled through the account confused on why he would lie when I saw his most recent post…with another girl in it. He had his arm around her and she was kissing his cheek. She was tagged in it so I went to her profile and found out that they had been dating for a few months now. 
+I am completely heartbroken and honestly in shock. I thought this man was the love of my life…but I obviously wasn’t his. I Don’t know how to confront him either but god I just want to cry.  ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,evaluation,validation,offmychest
+419,There’s something that’s wrong with me,"There’s something that’s wrong with me, because even animals hate me and they run away from me, I wish I was liked by one thing in my life ( family doesn’t count ) I don’t have any friends, and when I did have friends nobody invited me out anywhere. So what’s the point I don’t have anyone, like everyone hates me. The people I used to be friends with their parents didn’t like me, their whole family hated me. It was always their mom that told them to stop being my friend, I don’t think that was the case with Blondie because her mom doesn’t seem like the person to do that  to someone ( I never met her mom I am just making an educated guess ), but this one person their dad wanted me to get taken away from my mom back in 2019 because of what happened with his daughter, his daughter told me that I had rabies and I GOT IN TROUBLE FOR THAT, anytime I lost a friend bella was there for me, I didn’t have anyone there for me when she stopped being my friend. I miss the person who loved me most I ruined the friendship I ruined it because I’m a screw up, maybe if I was normal she still would be my friend. I regret everything I just need her back, I’m sorry Blondie just please come back and be my friend again just please come back.
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+I AM OKAY I WILL NOT HURT MYSELF. ",['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4,['Lack of friends'],4.0,part3,validation,offmychest
+431,I think our shared humanity shows in whispers,"I keep a few bottles of frozen green juice in our work freezer that I religiously drink for lunch every day. today, I forgot to take one out to thaw and accepted my defeat after a long week. when I opened the communal fridge for water, I found that a coworker had already taken it out for me. and what an impactful thing to do.
+",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,offmychest
+441,Sometimes I have deep feelings of killing myself and is really interesting (at least for me),"
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+I guess I must introduce myself,  my studies, social life yada yada... well I am a 22 year old lad, with actually a decent life?, my grades are almost perfect, I have discipline to a certain degree, surprisingly a promising future career.
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+Aint anti social, I dont have problems introducing myself and knowing other people, I have good friends and a supporting family. Aint ugly (I find myself kinda good looking ngl).
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+In a weird way I feel deeply disconected from my relatives and ""loved ones"", tbh I cant take people seriously. I dont take life seriously. Sometimes I wish I could be doing something that makes my blood pump... that challenges my mind or heart.
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+I find life incredibly boring, I cant take women seriously, 90% of the time is just pain in the ass. No am not those guys that scream for affection nor aprovement of women or guys.
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+My thoughts are just so bizarre. The only thing I love of my life are my studies and my little brother, I cant fail him.
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+I should have written this before but picture this. Imagine the day is going perfect, you ate good, talk shit and share funny jokes with some mates, being one of the few that passed the exam and knowing the next week you will be free after a lot of study, later some good looking girl flirting with you via text, but out of the fucking blue, you just want to grab the knife and cut your throat while alone sitting on your bed. That was literally my last day.
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+PD: english is not my native language. If you reached this part, have a nice day. Thx I guess.",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33333333333333,part3,validation,offmychest
+445,I slept with a coworker am I cooked?,"I’m a pharmacy tech (26f) working in a hospital and I met this guy(25m) who is new working here 2 weeks and we hit it off immediately. We exchanged phone numbers the first day we met, he drove me home after work and started sexting, the next day of meeting each other I sucked him off in a changing closet. The next day after that we fucked in a bathroom I let him cum in me too. So yeah I told him at first before fking that it’s risky and we shouldn’t do stuff like that because it could make work complicated but we both didn’t give a fuck the sexual tension was insane. Right now it’s been 2 weeks since that happened and we haven’t fucked (bc we are both busy w work)but still sexting and secretly kissing in the staircase. I crave him a lot because it’s so exciting sneaking around BUT I feel so bad because I can’t really fuck him outside of work and risking my job/getting caught is scaring tf out of me. Someone tell me if I should cut it off with him and if I do that how would I go about it? ",['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.0,part3,validation,offmychest
+470,Dating Trash,What’s the point of dating as a Man When you get nothing in Return constantly being rejected by damn near Every Women shit is sad and depressing.,['Not lonely'],2,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1,['Not lonely'],1.33,exploration,validation,lonely