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Why does love make you uncomfortable?
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It's selfish for you to kill yourself because it might hurt other people so the solution is you are forced to suffer?
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How do you stop yourself from sinking into sadness?
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My friend is having suicidal thoughts again, how can I help them?
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suicidal thoughts
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You should talk to someone, you can talk to me if you’d like.
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Being left out/friendships
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You deserve better friends There are better friends for you, who are going to treat you the way you deserve to be treated.. Am sure you will find them one day Do not feel bad
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I am 26 years old dealing with social anxiety
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I don't want to live anymore
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Sending you love and support
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I feel depressed because I don't feel appreciated.
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The only person you should blame for not appreciating your achievements is your own self, do not seek appreciation or validation from anyone else Dig deeper and you will find the answers :3 Stay strong
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Advice
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Not enough details Try not to be hard on yourself
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Am I depressed?
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Those are definitely symptoms. Have you talked to a medical professional? That's who would be able to really diagnose you.
Recently, a guy who I was somewhat friends with committed suicide. I have been very good friends with his girlfriend for a long time now and we talked a lot about it and still continue to. She knew of his mental condition, while I had no idea. I am also starting to experience symptoms, but feel exactly what you described. Whenever I realize I might have symptoms of depression, I feel like I am lying to myself, because it supposedly can't be that bad, which is why I haven't really mentioned this to anyone yet. The fact that I didn't even know him super well compared to other people who seem to cope better when viewed from the outside really adds to this feeling of guilt surrounding my tendencies for feeling this way.
Hey, I see myself in what you are writing. I am also a”happy girl “ and feel that when I open up to my friends about it they don’t take I serious because I am always so “happy”. I feel I also act this way so people around me feel good about themselves. I know that if I am real about my feelings people will not want to be around me or get worried. Happy people are not always happy and if you feel that something is not right then trust that feeling.
Yes. Because if we can “cause happiness” for others, maybe someone can do it for us?
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It's pointless isn't it?
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Trying so hard not to give up
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Sending you love and support Don't give a f about what other people say or think Live your life the way you wanna live it Hope things get better for you soon
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Is it selfish to kill myself?
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Is it wrong to think
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Am I considered suicidal if basically just an intrusive thought?
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thats where it begins ngl
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I give up completely
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Come on man. If I've learned anything from gambling, it's that one more bet can change your life. Roll the dice again. 🥂
I feel the same way.
come on dont give up yet , i feel the same felt the same tried to die but survived nd it still sucks but i am tryna survive everyday just uk sit down nd binge watch stay alive first of all then start exploring urself uk the fun person in us gets overshadowed by this so
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What do you do about reappearing nightmares?
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Alternatives to talk therapy? Any ideas?
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Maybe some art therapy? Painting? Singing? Or dancing? Animals are great too :)
Maybe what you are looking for isn't therapy in the first place, depending on your expectations and goals. Are there specific areas in your life you struggle with? Then maybe find a mentor - someone who has a lot of experience and can help you tackle those challenges, specifically. Could be reasonable for professional or crafts-related issues. Find it hard to get motivated to be active? Maybe you need a coach or trainer pushing you externally towards making a move. Looking for socialization without talking about your problems? Maybe it would be wise to take classes at a community college (or something like that) in a subject you enjoy or always wanted to try, just to get your mind going in new directions and to meet people naturally. It is hard to make suggestions really, when all you're saying is that conversational therapy is not it.
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Should I kill myself?
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kill your life, not yourself. if you don't want to be near your families then don't. find a side job, seek a cheap apartment. problem solved.
I’m not the one to really try to convince someone to not commit suicide, but I’d never encourage someone to do it either. Ultimately, you really need to find a passion, find something to look forward to everyday, don’t look too far ahead. Just keep focusing on getting through the next 24 hours, repeatedly. Don’t look too far ahead, it’ll set you up for getting anxious or discouraged.
Definitely not. The things going on in your life are things that will change. Once you're out of school, you will have more options. Hang in there!
You got this. I was salutatorian in my hs, and my sister was valedictorian. On the outside, it looked like I had so much going for me. But my parents were abusive and neglectful, and I was so depressed and alone. I got out and moved away for college as soon as I could. I now live two states away from them and have built a life i wanted for myself. (It's still not great, but I'm trying. Turns out what you want in life may not be what you need. But I'll get there.) Whether it's through a job, or school, or friends -- try to get away from your family, if that's something you can do and want to do. They don't control your life. And this is just the beginning.
No, I do not think you should. The world is bigger than your experience of it and there are more possibilities than your depressive brain is capable of imagining. Call a crisis line if you need to. You need people you can get empathy from and that you can talk to. They may be people you've never opened up to before but sometimes sharing pain is very very connecting. We can ask relate to suffering. You need to make a list of anything that stimulates you, that brings you joy and user those as tools. You should really have a therapist or psychologist you see regularly and that is a process in itself, going through multiple therapists even, till you find the best fit and get results. You need to reduce stress in your life and while you can't change other people, you can change yourself and establish boundaries like "I'm not going to engage in painful, angry, upset conversations or yelling arguments. I will take a step back and we can talk things out at another time" or "I will not sit and take abuse. I'm going to walk away now because I am too underresourced to do this". Sometimes just openly naming what is going on for you can make a difference.... Like "I'm so angry" or "I'm feeling hopeless". It can help to learn anything that can shift you out of stressful emotions. Please fight for your life! You and even your suffering might make a huge difference for someone else too, if you can be open and honest. Don't avoid or hide! You can make a list of your triggers and the buttons people push and
Just dropped out of college after 5 months
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Universal Boredom
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I have no purpose
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It's really getting tough going through each day
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I’m probably going to take 10 sleeping pills soon.
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man kill your life not yourself… sending hugs :(
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I have accepted the fact that I will never be happy
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It seems like no matter what I do I’m just not allowed to have fun
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everyone hates me for attempting suicide
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It’s hard to know you have that reputation now and people probably reach out out of concern which feels even worse because you might feel like a burden on them. Just remember your relationship with yourself is all that matters. If you can get in your own good graces then everyone else will soon follow. You shouldn’t feel guilty at all. You made a decision which you thought was the best for you at the time. Life is a bitter pill to swallow sometimes. A healthy inner voice would say, I wasn’t in my right mind at the time, and I forgive myself for attempting. And give yourself permission to express how you feel your roommate chooses to focus on your faults and it hurts your feelings and ask if she could refrain from bringing it up.
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Physically disabled
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Time doesn’t heal
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You're amazing, wow.
BEAUTIFUL! You got a knack for writing
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You know I just really, really hate the fact that not being able to talk to people leads to years of suicidal loneliness
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Do you watch a lot of porn?
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Grief is the price we pay for love.
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I feel worthless. Can someone help me feel better?
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What Happens if I Check Myself into a hospital
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Understand what your saying..it's like you can loose your whole credibility but at the same time it makes you feel worse because you cant get the help you know you need.. Good luck. however, it works out for you
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Relationships
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I get like this too. I feel I only click with a certain amount of people.
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i really want to kill myself or something to numb pain
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I feel you, but it's okay if you missed an opportunity maybe something big is waiting for youuu It's life, nothing goes as our demands here... Don't hurt yourself for what you can't even control...
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Does anyone else get the desire to just throw away everything in their life?
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At this point, I don’t think I’ll ever actually get treated as a person.
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“Breaking up” with friends
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I was broken up with for my depression
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Hey man, I know it's hard but try to stay strong and don't give up on all the progress you made. It sounds like she was judging you all along and wasn't the person you thought. I've had anxiety/depression my whole life but I was able to find someone that understands me. Best of luck with to you
You know I can identify with a lot of what you've written but the one that genuinely made me laugh was the holes in underwear because I never noticed that it happens more often than I thought until my gf said "I can literally see your arsehole" haha. Listen mate it sounds like both of you did the best you could and your split wasn't acrimonious. Your mental health isn't your fault but it is your responsibility. On the one hand you are dealing with your issues and you both do want her help and input and don't because she had her own issues to deal with. What you want to avoid which you may or may not have already is having her be your crutch like her being your reason for doing things. You need to get your head right for yourself. Get better and in a better place for yourself. Not because you think that it will make her feel better or worry less about you. You can't control those things. It sounds like you parted on good terms so give it some time then reach out for a catch up or something like bowling. I wouldn't let this experience affect your progress because it sounds like you've came on really well. And even if it's done for good, these things happen. Just learn from it and move on. Someone can't like or love you until you like yourself. It's not selfish to focus on yourself sometimes.
And here I am thinking if I should break up with my girlfriend to spare her dealing with depression…
I wrote an email to myself like this when a girl broke my heart in high school, but nobody will ever read it. I don’t think it’s productive to complain to people like this, because it’s good to stew on your own thoughts. There’s no better marker of mental health than being able to keep your own council, which is a life skill that’s not supposed to be easy to develop, even if more and more people seem to have lost it today.
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Setbacks make me want to give up. Help?
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There will be many more moments where small mistakes compound into bigger issues. Some mentors do similar things to see the extent of that person's abilities. Some pick on their students since that was how their mentors treated them. Some will be so irrationally strict on insignificant minor issues since they see themselves as the final gateway and must completely adhere to the rules. Think of it as a hazing into the realities of life. To navigate these, it is best to observe and learn their traits. Understand their limits of "ok" and "not ok." Lessons taught are not only educational but also social. If they are good professors, they are probably imparting something, which for now seems vague but could potentially benefit you in the future. Relax your body, calm your mind, clear your thoughts of past grievances, engage, and ask questions to clarify what is required on the assignments. Although begrudgingly, accept the "mistake" and, based on that experience, formulate a corrective action so that in the future, you will be better able to prevent making the same mistake again.
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started cutting myseld, feel unable to cry?
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Its okay to not be able to cry. I'm also in a hard spot with my relationship as she is ignoring me and forcing me to change but thats just what life is. Think about something that can take your mind off of your relation ship like anything you enjoy. For me I love playing the saxophone for my school band and that makes me feel happy. And for cutting yourself please stop your life is way more valuable than a relationship. Even if no one likes you this random guy on the internet does.
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Coping methods?
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I use a digital coloring game on Facebook called Cross Stitch Masters. For some reason, that simple game relaxes me more than anything else.
I'm actually in 8th grade too, for the most part drugs which I'm sure isn't healthy but it helps to sometimes just chill while faded of dxm or weed, maybe alcohol
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What's the point of life if I don't enjoy it?
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Feeling like a hopeless failure
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can somebody please give me advice or talk to me
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suicidal tw: sh
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Advice / how do I help my suicidal brother?
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I start work tomorrow. I'm still depressed.
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Why do I feel like I'm useless and a burden?
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never had a diagnosis but if this is what depression feels like idk what to do
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Why is being productive so hard?
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i don't wanna die
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Does the shame ever really go away?
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Are there any good apps for depression?
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Ketamine infusions? Anyone?
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I hate my parents.
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I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. I dealt with the same growing up so I know how horrible it can be. When you get out on your own it will all change.
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Do I even matter?
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SEEKING HELP FOR FRIEND
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I need someone to talk to
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Afraid to go off antidepressants ?
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don't wanna die, but don't want to exist either.
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I am not gonna go alone.
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I know what you mean when you feel no one cares, this feeling of hopeless is terrible. I am in the same situation, i hope you're going to be ok ❤️♥️ sending you my love
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I lost all my friends and the person I love doesn't love me back
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maybe if they were real friends you wouldn't have lost them, maybe that happened so you can find better friends:33
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Every time my husband verbally abuses and intimidates me I want to die
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You don’t sound happy…What are the barriers preventing you from leaving? Money, children, support system etc? I get leaving an abusive situation is not as easy as some other posts are suggesting.
We support you
Abuse him back. Pull some real home alone shit on him
Please... Contact ANYONE whom you trust, your friends, your family, I really hope you have such people in your life who would take you in until you get better. Just pack your things and go - leave. You have to. He may be evil and malintent, but he isn't almighty - when you leave, you're not under his control anymore. Reach out to someone and leave. Don't tell him anything but be in touch with someone you trust. No one deserves to be treated like you are being treated.
I’m sorry. That sounds awful. I don’t know what that’s like but I do know I started to feel much better in my own life once I put up boundaries and got rid of the toxic people. We are all worth it.
i got out of a toxic relationship
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debt is driving me to suicide
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No, there's a solution, believe me, you will find another way to pay those debts and you will have your income one day
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Anxiety is a bitch
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Happy birthday to me
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I started to harm myself
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you are not alone
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why is being productive so hard? i want to fill my day with more activities to keep me active
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I try to take small steps instead of not thinking about the end goal. Thinking about the final milestone is like quadrupling the initial friction for me. Like thinking about what to do for the next 45 mins is ok for me to get my small ass up and shake it a few times atleast
first,you have to answer this question before you can change anything what do you want from life?
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I feel alone
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Hi, I feel the same way. I’ve dealt with horrrible anxiety the last year (much due to fear of death also) and have not kept in contact with or made any new friends because of that. If you wanna talk about it with someone I’m here.
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Explained a recent traumatic event to social worker
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Struggling in graduate school and depressed
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Just a suggestion: why not quit the school (like dont think it as something u need to do anytime in the future) and just focus on some small work and giving yourself to recover? Yes, family members will always say things such as “finish college”. Probably because most people cannot even comprehend how depression or anxiety feels like. They assume its like a fever which vanishes with two doses of medicine. Fyi: masters degree or even a billion dollar is not worth it for us if we don’t have a mind to use.
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I want to kill myself
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I find life so boring
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I need a break
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You just just posted what I am feeling for past 2 - 3 years
Man I fucking want to meet new people but I hate people it’s a tricky one but everytime I prove myself right proving that I’m too nice too kind too considerate too helping but not no more let me tell you that I’m done helping and receiving nothing in return done tryna be friends with people that flake on me 24/7 done tryna get better because life doesn’t get better and that’s the truth 😂😂😂
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I want to talk to someone
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Hi! Do you have a good doctor you can go see and talk to?
I also feel like no one listens to me. Everyone is too busy with their lives
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Quitting college for the third time and ready to admit im a irredeemable failure.
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How I cured my depression
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Can't stand thinking about the future
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Depression is destroying me
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I need a tight hug
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Does this count as sexual assault?
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sounds like grooming, but yes, she's crossed a line. I understand you don't want to lose her friendship and want to help her, maybe talk with a professional/suicide hotline and try to get some ideas of what you should say to her when this happens. Maybe they will have some info you can share so she will get some help.
Tell her you support her but that you feel uncomfortable with what she is doing to you
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i m considering suicide
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i hate everything
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I think I am good to be dead
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I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling with such negative thoughts and feelings. It's important to remember that these thoughts and feelings are a symptom of depression and not a reflection of reality. Here are some things you can try to help cope with these feelings: Seek professional help: Consider talking to a therapist or a mental health professional. They can help you work through your feelings and develop coping strategies. Challenge negative thoughts: When you have negative thoughts, challenge them. Ask yourself if they're really true or if there's any evidence to support them. Focus on the positive: Try to focus on the positive aspects of your life, even if they seem small. Make a list of things you're grateful for or things that bring you joy. Engage in self-care: Take care of yourself physically and emotionally. Practice good hygiene, exercise regularly, and eat a healthy diet. Connect with others: Even if you don't feel like it, try to connect with others. Join a club or group that interests you, volunteer in your community, or reach out to old friends. Remember, depression can be a challenging condition to deal with, but it's treatable. With time and support, you can find a way to manage your symptoms and improve your quality of life. Wishing you the best, D.A.D
This is a great comment, and sorry to hear you’re in so much pain OP. Life really does throw us some curve balls sometimes. I would also advocate therapy or any kind of mental health courses you can get your hands on. It truly does help to have a professional to open up to. The self care aspect is incredibly important too. Try to do even one thing a day that will give you a better sense of control on your atmosphere. Tidying up your room, keeping up with personal hygiene, any kind of goal which stimulates well being. It takes time and effort to get out of a downward spiral but there are better days ahead, I promise you.
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Are there physical/ neurological causes of depression?
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Realized I’m a terrible person
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I’ve done everything that I can, and I’m still not feeling better? It’s getting worse???
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is it okay to sleep all day?
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I’m sorry you going thru this. You aren’t alone in feeling like this. I wake up and try to go back to sleep, and have no motivation to even get out of bed. I’m hoping I’m gonna find a way to cope with this and I hope you can too
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I feel like i’m never gonna get better
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Tough times don’t last, tough people do, you got this. 😌
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I'm in the same situation.... Have you tried medication? Or other treatments? I tried almost everything nothing helped. Considering tms but i can't trust anything anymore Hope your feel better ♥️
ditto work was awful today and wanted to walk out but debt prevents that.
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Loneliness sucks
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Is depression a cope from the tough things I am afraid to face ?
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This is a question for a mental health professional, not really for Reddit. But these are certainly good questions to be reflecting on. My (non-professional) advice is that you are not your thoughts. You might have thoughts that involve fear and avoidance. But you can also have new thoughts where you recognize that your subconscious is doing that. And you can try to cultivate new thoughts, around bravery and around deciding to do certain things, with the fear still being present. But don’t rely on Reddit to diagnose your mental health!
I wonder that too. I think yes. Ironically, it makes you even less capable of making changes.
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I found out my sister do sh months ago. I can’t help but be angry at her
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Why is she depressed at school? What made her feel the need to self harm in the first place?
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How do I not run away?
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I’m sorry you going thru this much. Life can be really difficult. I’m going thru tough anxiety and depression too. I don’t tell my family the extent of mine, but I feel like they know. I don’t want to die necessarily, I just want to feel some sense of hope or meaning in continuing to live.
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I feel like I’m fighting for my life
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My brain is using my past mistakes to make me feel like i dont deserve my life presently.
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You're not alone. The things that I did before keep me up at night. I also have depression and anxiety.
I feel the same way. These past few days I've been a little bit happier bc I made new friends and loneliness is something I struggle a LOT with. But everytime I'm happy w them I start feeling very weird and sad bc it's like I don't deserve to have genuine friends. I start to question their friendship and stuff like that. I did a lot of bad things in the past, I was a very superficial person. I still feel the consequences of those things i did to this day. I'm doing a lot better, I changed but I still get sad over those things.
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Debt making me suicidal
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I'm in the same spot, 15k in debt and I have a gambling issue and don't work.
I felt similar today. Reading this made me feel better. It's a bit dark so prepare yourself but it helps to know that the world is the thing that's wrong not us. Mine will probably be the darkest answer you will find. It really depends on which side of the fence you sit on. Back a long long time ago we had greeks who defined the lines in social status, placing most on the bottom while raising a few to the top who took power. Next came the Romans who added onto this with harsh and severe competition and social acceptance was only extended to those who won. A society so harsh they decided the weak should be dead, not an altogether different idea than Hitler had. Flush the weak and damaged out to produce a perfect and undefeatable society. The US and so very many other nations adopted this as a model for society. Much less harsh, society in the US is still using this model. Money is status, and you only get money through being competitive. Anyone who “loses” or simply refuses to play gets the shaft. Women still view men based on physical prowess as if a lion is going to suddenly pop up and he might have to chuck a few speers for your survival. Men still brag about their physical conquests both in sex and physical fights. We like to pretend we are oh so evolved but are we? But wait, there’s more. Everything good we were ever taught, every moral and principle that was given to us in a positive light is in complete opposition with living. We lie constantly, we lie at the beginning of relationships and in jobs. We lie to ourselves probably at least once an hour. If we just look over there and ignore the bad then the bad doesn’t exist. How many times a day do you hear “living the dream”? How many interviews have you had to lie in because you know the other 923 applicants also lied and it's the only way you’re going to get a job? You absolutely cannot be a good moral, principal-having person in this society. As such, anyone who is anywhere across the line or even close to the line of being a good person is going to struggle heavily in this society. What's completely laughable is that social acceptance fuels 90% of people's decisions. When to obtain social acceptance you have to be apathetic, opportunistic, and greedy…. in other words, we’re seeking the acceptance of people who will never accept us anyway. I mean who tf wants to become a monster just to befriend monsters? Pretty sure that's not why anyone wanted social acceptance. We want this so we’re not alone, we want this so we feel included and loved. But to get there we have to become someone who can barely love themselves let alone others? When the truth of the world is revealed and you stop lying to yourself about how many horrors are out there it becomes a really dark fkn place. You can take this to the bank, do NOT have hope that anyone will do anything about any of it. FAR too many people bought into the generational conditioning and are now brainwashed into thinking this is ok… this is all as it should be… ofc those people are usually the ones who have decided to trade in their dignity to belong to a society that would just as soon crush you like a bug than give up a raise or promotion to you. Just GREAT people on this earth… If God does exist it wouldn’t surprise me to find out he ran the fuck away from us. I know I would. Talk about a disappointment…
I’m in a similar boat. Struggle after struggle after struggle. I want to kill myself just to make it stop
Watch out for that interest trap. It's a weird thing to say since I don't really have any other advice. But I can tell you that the debt itself is not the problem. It's that interest that forces you to be a bank slave as it compiles into more debt. If you are able to talk with a bank to discuss better payment options in regards to interest, 100% do that but I know that will not always be the case.
it's not fair on you to cover costs for your mum on credit card debt.
all i do from wake to sleep is lay in bed and watch youtube. the boredom feels physically painful
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yeah ,if I somebody pull me out of youtube/books/my fantasy sources I'd start crying or become extremely depressed in a few minute, it's really these fantasies keeping me alive at this point ,there's no people I wanna stay alive for
Get out and walk around
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